vanity

its like theres this heavy pit in my stomach without her i dont wanna be without her i feel so sick i hop shes back soon

i wanna kiss my gf

i wish i could spend all my time on this earth with her

i love my gf i wanna hangout with her really bad

i m not who i was ten minutes ago

oh my god someone put me out of my fucking misery i cannot do this anymore

why cant she just admit she doesnt love me

this isnt fair she lies to me when shes jokign she lies to me when shes serious and she will deny lying but she has to know shes lied before ive gotten upset over her lying so many times im so hurt why doesnt she value me enough to be honest to me why dont i deserve the truth

oh my god all i fucking do is get shoved back down and shoved back down and if i take too long to get back up they hold me down and if i get the strength to get up again they wait for me to get really close before they reveal they were holding back earlier and shove meback down

i wanna rip all my organs out i feel like im about to die

bro im gonna lose my mind this isnt fair every time i get comfortable this happens to me and something happens to remind me to nottrust people and to not let my ego have any control over me at all i hate this so much

last night was hell i was so paranoid i couldnt sleep and the day starts and my girlfriend wont fucking text me back yaay

i wanna kiss allover her pretty face and comb my fingers through her hair

mysweetbaaaby oh my sweet girl oh how i miss her i yearn for her touch

yesterday she fingered me and i turned around i watched her lick her fingers clean afterwards and that sight alone made me wanna go a second round