in the middle;

I suddenly feel sad. Hehe, I don't know. I don't know if it's about me not getting enough volleyball that I've been craving for about 3 weeks now.. or if it's about my favorite stories being unpublished.. or if it's about me not getting the I love you too from the person I've been expecting it to come from. Our trainings are cancelled before the finals exam up to the finals week because we need to study (tho i didn't, lol). After finals week, there are several plays that our team got invited to but I wasn't able to attend because of the requirements of OJT and we started our OJT earlier than others. Today, I was supposed to play but something occured which did not gave me a chance to play. I don't know why is my mind clouded with thoughts that are not even happening yet. I want to clear my mind and by that, I mean, I want to sweat it out. I want to focus my mind in harships and pain. The physical kind of pain. I want to sweat. it. out. And now I wanted to cry for not getting the chance to play or to have someone to atleast jog with me. Wow, self, you're freakishly weird. (A nonsense post, I just need to vent this out.)

My parents promised me a Harry Potter book set.