tw rape s/a grooming (NOT FROM MY END)
before the post: i have talked to the poster of this thread. we have ended on good terms. none of these were intentionally malicious, just very very poor taste jokes.
hello, not a lot of people have seen the thread but i need to address it anyhow because i think it's very important for people to know i am not malicious nor am i looking to hurt people in this situation. i would appreciate if you listened to me first.
there has been a document posted about me, that has now been talked out with the poster where i have said some extremely unsavoury things wether it be in context or not.
this is not supposed to take the blame of me, rather to give some context. i have never intended to hurt or impact anybody negatively.
throughout late 2025 and early 2026 i was groomed by someone i work with and 3 adults that i used to be in contact with who had targetted me for rape jokes and had tried to pull me into real life and fictional proship ideologies. i have not indulged in those, however the normalised rape environment had led to me to making a lot of really casual rape jokes which i have since stopped due to me leaving the server it had begun in as i found it to be a place that fuelled those jokes and normalisarion for me as well as a very graphic ptsd episode which led me to believing my friends and family and close ones would victimise me. i absolutely should not have made these jokes, and it's very upsetting on my part that it took something that serious for it to click. i should not have prioritised my coping over someone's discomfort and even disgust, to which i do not blame them for. it was a very very disgusting set of things to come from me and all i can do is promise that i've strived to change these behaviours and have not made these jokes beyond these instances.
the hitler/idf jokes, i am jewish i have suffered through a lot of antisemetism my entire time at my school. this is my way to make levity. this sounds very "not serious" but it was a very big reason for bullying towards me, but even with this i have made very very few jokes about these topics since.
the racism jokes i have discussed with the poster - they were about my friend who was assumed to be black and transgender even though that was the exact opposite of his identity and i found the irony funny and made some very ignorant, but unintentional unsavory and uncomfortable jokes.
the "give me another one slave" screenshot was a reference to a trophy inanimate insanity quote
the second message in that screenshot is in referral to sex slavery and was not tied to any racial motivation.
i cant ask that you forgive me, but to know that these were jokes made in very very poor taste whilst ive made a strive to improve or have been repelled by said jokes and i did not mean for them to be taken in a discriminatory or even hurtful way. that is not at all my intentions.
