Hopeless Romantic

I found out when I'm alone in nature I feel less lonely than in big crowds.

"If there's any kind of magic in this world, it must be in the attempt of understanding someone, sharing something"

I think it's beautiful to just go and do risky things and find out people's reactions or see where life takes you with what you just did. Life is NOW. Be spontaneous, be bold, seek adventures and see what life holds at the other end of the sentence you're trying to get out of your mouth, or the action you're trying to gain the courage to do.

The things you take into your home... and keep there... that underlying feeling of wanting to keep something in your life, so it stays there through memories and time, and you let it in your house (and therefore your life), that is made into a home when you pour life into it. And the soft knowledge that people want to keep books, little notes people may have given then kept in a drawer, pictures on picture frames hanging around on shelves making it be shown everywhere, keeping everything forever. Making libraries in your house, boxes of material memories, keeping that annotated book that shapened your mind, and taking all these things with you to a house, to your home, to keep it in your life forever.

I want my house to have everything art related. Some unfinished paintings and the dirty inked sheet laying on the floor, my little painting corner. A piano in a room, old one filled with memories and the marks of all the fingers that once played it, the songs entoating over and over again as you look at it. A room filled with plushies where you can still hear the laughter inside. A beautiful landscape view in a middle of a forest with some road full of trees and dirt and leaves on the ground where I can go biking. Writing poetry staring at the window and hearing music on my vinyl.

𝘐'𝘮 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥...

I grew up lacking support and someone who was there for me, so I learned to deal with my own problems alone, eventhought I helped and listened to everyone else. I grew up like that, I grew strong and independent and dealing with my own stuff and helping everyone I can. Eventually that started being a toxic trait for me cause I would sometimes sort of disappear and try to deal with my own things alone and one time I got overwhelmed cause I was really confused about what I was feeling and I learned that you don't have to deal with everything alone, I let it out with a friend and it helped me so much and I felt so much lighter and free. The lesson here is you don't have to deal with everything all by yourself, you have friends that care for you and you can rely on their support always, sometimes independent people need support and someone to rely on too

People talk a lot of the education system and how wrong it is, and they should. But let's talk about education at home, aswell as at school, parents wanna put rules and obedience on their kids, killing the minds who want to think different, they're taught to shut up and just follow and obey people instead of having their own ideas and dreams. Anyone who tries to stand up for themselves is repressed.