doodle dump

i’ve had terrible anxiety about talking to anyone on the internet for as long as i can remember, but i always told myself it didn’t really matter as long as i could just post art and make people happy... and i am glad i can do that. i love going through the tags and seeing how excited people get when they see my art, and i’ve gotten so many thoughtful messages i revisit from time to time. i don’t want to undersell how much i appreciate all of that.

i think part of why i draw is that i’m really bad at putting my thoughts into words... i’ve never had a lot of people i could talk to about fandom stuff so it’s like if i can’t draw it out those feelings and thoughts don’t actually exist. i’ve done a lot of lurking in fandom spaces over the years in the hopes that someday i’d feel more okay with just talking and being myself, but i think those feelings just worsened over time.