heartbreaker

“you know you can always come to me if you need me, anytime” nodding, the girl reassures the other of always having a place to run to— and in this case it would be her “i know it is an almost impossible request, but ollie..” kylie chews on her lower lip, looking at him with her hands covering over his “promise me, ollie that you will walk out of this sadness one day..” a faint smile was misting across her sadness over seeing the other suffer— and also shock at how much that actually she worries about him, and how he feels can affect her so much. 

Not helping a smile, even being a sad one, he nods at her request, caressing the skin of her cheek. “I think I can guarantee I won’t live like this forever… I might just need a few days to get my mind out of this before it takes over.” With that said, he stands and walks after her, holding her hand as being guided to her room. Chuckling lightly, Oliver nods once they are inside of her room and takes a quick look around—he had been there a few times, enough to have this place memorized at that point. “Yeah, I think I do,” he says, sitting on the edge of her bed and feeling a little less depressed as he was feeling before.

she glances at the empty cup sitting on the coffee table, her mind still trying to make sense out of all these that has flashed in front of her like a movie— it all sounded so unreal, yet the man next to her serves to remind her once and again of how true this all are, “hey i mean..” gently, the girl places a hand on his cheek, caressing his cheek that seemed a tad too cool. “dont worry, things will be alright— ” she sits back, hands finding its way to his slightly bigger hand and gently warps them around his. kylie was never good at words, but to show him that she will always be here for him is the least she can do for him. 

The way she seems to understand—yet not knowing how to express into words—is enough to make him feel a little lighter. Though the guilt inside of him kept growing like it wouldn’t go away that easy this time, there wasn’t much he could do as for now. He knew that pretty well. Oliver nods at her words, feeling her arms embracing him, and hides his face on her neck. There were no words he wanted to say at that exact moment, so he simply keeps nodding and breathing against the skin of her neck, as he scent was calming him down—and kind was. She smelled like… home—like someone who would simply embrace him as she was doing, instead of judge him.

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it was from his almost emotionless face that she guessed something happened— probably one that he would not want to share, not even to her though she is clearly acknowledged for the fact that she would, and will promise to share all of his burden. “oliver,” even the girl froze at the point— not knowing what to say after having him told her what actually happened as that was way worse than her expectation. “im sorry to hear that..” was all she said before allowing the two fall into a short while of silence. 

With the silence between them and not knowing what else to say, Oliver finishes to drink the water slowly and puts the glass on the coffee table. Scratching his forehead, he doesn’t know how to explain, exactly. Kylie knew what happened in Germany, so there isn’t a way to make things awkward between them. It would be, pretty much, telling the whole story this time. He thinks about it for a few seconds while they are still quiet and, once she asks about it, he feels like talking. Steiner sits up and turns to her, his arm on the back of the couch as he rubbed his face and tried to make some sense out of it.

she planned for herself to spend a quality night with some old movies and a bowl of popcorn after handing in a tremendous load of assignment— well she deserved it more than anyone does, before she hears the knock on the door, frowning a little as she wonders who would come over for a sudden visit at such hours the girl still went over and open the door, only to find oliver standing outside. 

Oliver doesn’t find words to say anything to her as she opened the door. He shakes his head lightly at the question though, letting a heavy sigh out of his mouth once inside of the warm house. What’s he doing there? Why bother and worry her? But he really couldn’t find answers to those questions. Kylie was the only one he wanted to be around at that very moment and maybe that meant it was his chance of trying to feel a little better.

hey that will hurt him or her a lot if thats the case, having to deal with this whole ‘my parents doesnt actually want me’ mentality for the rest of their life, i suppose we start developing some love for the little baby

I am obviously not happy with you feeling sick, ok? ( ; chuckles, his hand caressing her arm ) It’s just good to see it’s nothing—well, as big and kind problematic as we thought ( ; though the bad choice of words, he was sure she would get his point. the important thing was that it was just with the food and nothing with a baby coming or whatever ) And do you think I liked to be awake in the middle of the night? Because I didn’t ok? ( ; rolls eyes and pecks her pouting lips ) Now, let’s go, let’s just buy some meds so you can feel better, ok?

and what will we tell our child if thats the case, {` rolls her eyes, now unstoppable at making comments for fun— completely not serious and that eased a lot of the nervousness that flows in between them} sorry baby girl, the condom broke {` raises both of her hands up in mid-air} okay okay maybe i should stop with those jokes, but you have to admit for it to be pretty funny {` shoots him one assuring smile of how everything is going to be alright before returning back to answering the doctor’s questions} — {` the Q&A session was pretty dull and boring as it was just about her recent doings, and her body’s conditions. the lack of sleep for the few past days has been affecting her to a point where she has missed the doctor’s assumption of what is going on with her} what— {` mumbles, with eyes half opened as she eyed the doctor, then oliver— asking for an answer} so..whats going on with me again? 

( ; laughs almost amused at sudden jokes—it made her look less sick, after all, like she was keeping up after looking so bad when they were still at his place ) We should tell that, along with “we didn’t really plan to have you, but you happened, now look all the trouble you’re causing!” ( ; laughing more at that, he has to bite on his lower lip once the doctor gets into the room and starts talking to kylie. Oliver pays attention, obviously, he wanted to know what everything was about after all ) – ( ; one of her answers seemed like an important factor, since the doctor changed his posture and guided the questions mostly about food )

Rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly and thinking over his feelings, Cali couldn’t help but feel a small amount of regret at coming here tonight. Maybe it had been a bad idea, maybe he should’ve just gone out for a walk instead.. walks were good– but drinking was better. It was a habit he’d gotten himself it lately, drinking away his problems rather than facing them or even telling anyone about them, and of course he knew it wasn’t good for him but he couldn’t exactly help it. 

Returning the smile, Oliver takes the ID and checks on it. Considering he once had been one of the guys who would be either providing people that kind of thing or using it, he was pretty good at noticing the little details—the way it looked, the texture, everything—if it was false or real. A lot of people at Fuel used fake IDs and he turned them down easily—or, sometimes, if they were looking like this guy right now, he would let go and just pretend he didn’t notice or wasn’t good at those things. “This is a piece of work,” he chuckled at the younger, handing back his document. “Very hard to notice, but yeah, you seem like you need a drink and—well, I also used those, so… you’re free from trouble.”

and you will keep on making fun of me— {` rolls her eyes at the other and gestures her index finger towards the face that seemed a little to pale to be considered normal and healthy} even after witnessing me being extremely sick {` scrunches her nose at the other, though letting out a small laugh after} well it could have been the bad food too, but why arent you sick, oliver {` pouts wile giving him a legit reason to her worries— which might be totally out of a hunch as the reason itself was pretty much forced} im just saying…we got to be prepared for the worst should we, now, lets think of names 

( ; with his hands up as giving in and accepting he shouldn’t be making fun of her, oliver chuckles, going towards the girl as the nurse had left the room ) I know, I know—I’m sorry, it’s just… I don’t know, I am the opposite, I prefer to think on any possibilities instead of the biggest one ( ; he sighs, scratching his neck ) I mean, it’s not bad—not that bad, it’s something easy to manage and is not killing you ( ; smiles softly, trying to calm her down ) So if you’re right, at least is something we can see about what to do… and now you, stop with the jokes, that’s not funny ( ; he frowns at her, though laughing ) Ok, maybe it is…

A week had somehow managed let itself go by. This being week of pure hell for the boy, and of course avoiding almost all possible  forms of contact in favour of letting isolation take a hold of him, and that wasn’t an easy thing to do for him. But that had become Cali’s thing a while ago, because he’d rather let himself suffer in silence than face the possible thought of letting someone else deal with his problems. Or just telling anyone his problems in general. Though, sometimes that got too much for him, sometimes the silence and feeling of being completely alone got too much for the young male to handle alone– and when that happened he needed some form of escape, some place to go to drown out all thoughts and feelings to make himself better.

Oliver hadn’t always been the quiet kind of guy, but being one of those now (unless he is at work), he could just notice the guy in front of him was one of those. One like him—probably. On his point of view, just by the way the guy was sitting down and how he had found him waiting for getting his turn to order was a few sights of something else—maybe something he hide from others. Steiner was good at reading people, a gift he got while he used to practice law back in his hometown—so it was pretty easy for him to simply see it through, though that clearly didn’t mean he would catch every little detail or understand what’s going on. But what people were feeling, on another hand—that was very touchable.

{` looks up at the other, blinking as she listens to what he said, nods slowly in agreement though she fails to catch the fact that he has already notice what he is now thinking} well they are pretty cute, super super super cute {` spreads a smile on her face, though still looking sick as ever— with face extremely pale and her slender figure almost shivering out in the rather chilly atmosphere} — {` follows him into the hospital, registers at the counter before finding them a spot to sit down, leans closer to him with arms wrapped around his, closes eyes as she allows herself to rest} — {`  the nurses calls out for her number and she walks into the room for some checkup} well…i feel really weird lately…like throwing up..no appetite and all {` voices her worries to the nurse, frowning a little as she readies herself to tell the other what she is worried about} am i pregnant? {` clears her throat and sits down on the bed, waits for the upcoming checkups}

( ; his mind couldn’t stop from processing all the ideas that are now into his mind. Helping her out in getting her register done, oliver sits down in the waiting room beside her, feeling her arms around his own. Lying down his head over hers, he doesn’t say much, but the thought is still there. How would be if her suspicion was indeed correct? Not so good, he thought. He wasn’t prepared for such a thing and just the thought of it makes his stomach hurt. Yet, he only could see him trying his best into doing something about anything that she would need—if that situation was ever the case ) – ( ; kisses her forehead and pats her hands carefully as they waited for her to be called. Hearing her number, he stands up and goes right after her, holding her hand tight ) – ( ; gets into the room and keeps standing next to the door as he watches her and the nurse talking, his shoulder against the, now, closed door ) – ( ; doesn’t help a small laugh with the way kylie questions the other woman, shaking his head almost amused of how she was really a right-to-the-point )