Overwhelmingly Underwhelmed

This is so hard. Every time a try to get better, i fall right back into it within days, sometimes hours.

I wish I was taller. Skinny looks better on tall people.

Having a nap for lunch today

I feel fat tonight. I really don’t want to relapse, but losing weight seems so good right now. I want to see my bones get more prominent again.

I just want to cry but my medication won’t let me

Hello everyone, I’ve been absent recently. School has been keeping me very busy. My eating is also pretty much back to normal! No over eating, no under eating. It took a little while to get back here. I still don’t feel good about my body and I still think about what I eat, but things are much better. Whenever I think about restricting again, i just remind myself how difficult it is to get out of the restricting and binging cycle.

I just want to go live off the grid alone with my dog and be sustainable and never deal with society again.

I think I feel myself becoming more depressed again. School is kind of kicking my ass and I feel like I have nothing to look forward to.

When I was suicidal and afraid that I was going to hurt myself, I remember both my therapist and doctor saying that they didn’t think I was at risk of actually doing it. Like... is that a challenge?

Tell me why I have two naps a day? I’m not even restricting. All this food should be giving me all the energy in the world. This eating thing is a hoax.

Didn’t post a group pic that I wanted to on Instagram because it literally looked like I was several months pregnant smh

I feel so huge, I’ve got to start restricting again

I’m getting fat, I know I am. It’s terrifying.

Why are my arms soooo huge??