cait

Good things are coming I just know it

I'm so sorry we haven't spoken in so long. I've let you all down. But I'm back and I love you all so much.

i miss you. i miss you so much

I wish I wasn't so god damn unmotivated and tired all the time. I wish I could change and be able to stay awake all day and keep a clean living space like everyone else

I want to give up. It's really really hard to keep going when all you want is to give up. I want to be done.

Will I ever not feel like a burden? Or for the rest of my life will I feel like an inconvenience. I'm terrified I will be perpetually in the way of someones path to happiness. Like a massive boulder that you want to pick up and throw, but just dont have the heart to.

I would choose you over anyone else time and time again. Even as I grow, that's the one part of me that does not change.

And unfortunately, I think I'll always be in love with you

I need to get my shit together. Im tired of being depressed and wallowing in sadness. im sick and fucking tired of not living up to my full potential and not being the person i want to be. i need to get my shit together because i just cant live like this anymore

hi all sorry ive been MIA recently. i love u, i miss u, ur worthy

part of me is still hoping for us

and as much as i try to forget, my mind can’t help but wonder what could have been

i’m scared that i’ll never be enough. that this is all i’ll ever be