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Day 9: Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

Yes.

When I was in primary school, I was the fat one in the class. People didn’t want to play with me because I looked disgusting and they would make comments about my eating habits. One of the main memories I remember from primary school was when a teacher was asking the class what they ate for breakfast and I said just plain Kellog’s cornflakes. The teacher was like ok but how many teaspoons of sugar do you add in it? I said none. The concept of adding sugar to cereal was so foreign to me but she looked so shocked by this fact and her reaction just made the rest of the kids laugh too. She looked like she wanted to ask me again, to ask no really don’t lie, how much? She just naturally expected me to add 10 kilos of sugar into everything and I know she didn’t have bad intentions but that stuck with me. I felt so embarassed.

When I started secondary school, I was still fat. My classmates made up clever nicknames using my real name to point out that I was fat as well as straight up say it to my face. There was especially this one kid and his friends that seemed to have made it their mission to always point out how fat I was whenever they could. I finally broke down and cried one time when he kinda ganged up on me with 2 of his other friends. They got into a little trouble but I was still the one that felt the most shit.

When I started sixth form, I had lost weight so I was no longer classified as overweight but I still looked fat. Little comments that naturally came out of people’s mouths made sure I knew that.

Binging on 5000 calories while I’m home alone and depressed