I'm here for fun

I know it seems stupid, but there are times when I miss one or two of my exes. They obviously had something I was looking for when it came to enjoying their company. Not just physical but emotional. I don't what happened and how it got to the point where we were fighting all the time. But I do miss talking to one or two of them.

If anyone reads this, I hope you don't judge too harshly. I am married. Unfortunately, my wife made some mistakes that put a wedge of trust between she and I. I have a girlfriend. She's great. She's married too. So no running off. She does take care of me when I'm not at my best. She has what my wife lacks. But no matter who I'm with, I still feel lonely. I crave the attention of someone else. Someone I can engage in flirtatious conversation. Or just conversation. I don't know whats missing. I don't even know what I want or looking for anymore. I have been feeling the urge to leave and get some alone time. According to popular opinion, a gentleman doesn't just pick up and leave. Fine.

What's worse than 2 faced Christians? 2 faced family members who say their Christian.

You know what it is? What I miss? Princess. The princess i knew when we first started. We were getting to know each other sexually. Making our way of making love or having sex ours. So many missed opportunities after she left me. Don't tell Kat tho. I miss her too. But just the beginning. The feeling of a new relationship. The smiles. The flirty glances. But never again. Those days are gone. Gotta get me a new girlfriend. Maybe after the holidays after everything slows down, eh.

Don't you just hate it when you wake up in the morning... thinking about someone special to you that will never be there for you? Yep, that's me almost every single morning.