capable of love non-romantic onethree analysis
dude i love pinkpantheress so much and i was listening to the demo version (2023) of capable of love and holy fuck its onethree in all of its tragic glory . i really dont see onethree as romantic at all i dont think they could ever be romantic (at best its very one-sided. yup) but this song is literally them
"say we had a day prepared / it's in your diary, don't forget / i know last time you were making your bed / so you couldn't make it, isn't that what you said?"
one thinking about how busy three was, helping everyone else be happy and always playing catch with five. she reminisces on how even if she could have had three to herself, three would always have something or someone else on her mind
"but now I think you're the cause of my grief / I haven't slept well for a week / you are somebody that I want to keep / but you said it's not deep, and to that answer I weep"
one reflecting on how three has been haunting her the entire time, even when she hasn't been directly thinking about her. she really cared about three, but three didn't reciprocate and that eventually led to their violent falling out with the yoyleite confrontation. what three said to her about just needing to "hang out somewhere else" left an extreme bitterness within one
"it's weird how people still think it's pretend / the bond between us doesn't end / but they don't know of the distance I went / to write your name in my journal, fifty times on each page"
one's denial about three's rejection towards her, even when three zapped her away after the botched recovery one still wanted to take all the power in an attempt to fix her, even going to the lengths of taking the power of every other algebralien just to fulfill her original promise of recovering three properly (though personally i believe her original goal has also changed throughout the entirety of TPOT, and the more power one gained, the more that recovering three properly becomes more of an excuse than anything else)
also noting that every algebralien that witnessed one kill three absolutely did not forgive one or give her the benefit of the doubt because they didn't care what happened between one and three to make one so angry at her; all they saw was one murdering someone that everyone loved, and that was enough for them to decide that one needed to be dealt with
"you still ignore me as we pass on the street / and you still haven't asked me yet to meet / but there's no other place i want to be / than sat here behind you, watching you leave the scene"
during the equation playground days prior to the yoyleite confrontation, one was most likely always watching three, wishing she could be her and wishing that three could extend the same care of others onto her as well. assuming that one has been alone for a long time even before 2009, one probably thought of proximity as the next best thing to friendship with another algebralien, especially three
"and I think I need a picture because it's never enough / to see you smiling in my mind when I lay still in the dark / it starts with you, / starts with you"
other than wishing vengeance against the other algebraliens, one probably spent most of the time in the moon hoping that maybe someday, she would be able to have fun with three again and laugh just like they did on the mountain with the yoyleite. but considering the path that one is going down in TPOT, those days may never be any more than another daydream
"I'm obsessed with the idea that one day we'll break up / cause after that, I know I'll never be as capable of love / after you, / after you"
could refer to the confrontation between one and three that led to one's imprisonment, but I also think that this could refer to a future confrontation between one and three throughout the defeat one arc, completely dissolving any leftover friendship that they could've had. one's ability to care about others and understanding of the weight of her actions directly stems from what happened between herself and three, as she sees recovering three as a token of proof that she is capable of good despite all the bad she has done. if three comes out and confronts her and holds one accountable, it'd make one's self-image of herself as a victim attempting to do everything in her power to fix a grave mistake she made years ago crumble and break her sense of righteousness apart
sighhh i wish tpot 23 could come out already
