it's really suffocating when you can't say what you feel.

Tumblr still feels like my safe place after so many years

I’m trying my hardest to not act how I feel

do you ever want to cry because it’s been a while but you can’t cry… crystipated? the opposite of a crybaby? a drybaby?

one thing i have always been kinda jealous of other people over is that they just seem to have a lot of fun and i don't. like at most i am content and i remember thinking as a kid that everyone was acting so silly and goofy and funny as most children do and i always wondered how they could take things so lightly that. i wish i could just have a good time too but i just stand there like ive just seen someone get shot all the time

Sorry I'm busy hating myself and feeling guilty about things I could never control.

its just me vs my mind everyday.

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