Orchid’s Yapping Corner

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Idk its a dumb name for a dumb idea.

"Endogenic", before it was "lovingly coined" by its supposed creator, was actually already in use to refer to the Fantasy Model of DID. It's not only a medical term, but also insinuates that DID is a product of fantasy proneness and weak-mindedness.

"The Trauma Model [says that] DID is etiologically related to chronic neglect and physical and/or sexual abuse in childhood. In contrast, the Fantasy Model posits that DID can be simulated and is mediated by high suggestibility, fantasy proneness, and sociocultural influences."

WORSE STILL, the fantasy model implies that even trauma memories are made up.

The term "endogenic" can be traced all the way back to Freud's work in 1956!

"Freud’s theoretical conversion of a predominant endogenic interpretation of trauma and hysteria (sexual abuse→sexual overstimulation, deferred action, repression→hysteria) in an extreme endogenic view (Oedipal sexual wishes→fantasy, repression→hysteria) had major clinical implications."

If you remember, hysterical neurosis was the first diagnosis for "multiple personalities" from the DSM II.

Here's another quote, just showing that there's nothing positive at all about the word "endogenic". “Many World War I psychiatrists also took a one-sided endogenic explanatory route by claiming that soldiers who broke down had a weak mental and moral will.”

As well, the idea of "endogenic DID" was actually used to try to have DID removed from the DSM.

“Another revived historical idea involves a contemporary variety of a particular mix of endogenic and exogenic causes, that is, the idea that dissociative symptoms and disorders are due to the patient’s fantasy proneness and suggestibility (endogenesis) in combination with suggestive, illness-inducing or illness-reinforcing actions of other therapists and the media (exogenesis). These thoughts have been influential, but individual views and facts can be opposite. An attempt by some proponents of the so-called sociocognitive model of DID to erase DID as a mental disorder in DSM-5 failed.”

Seems like someone made a BIG WHOOPSIE choosing "endogenic". NOT COOL, MAN.

sometimes it isn't about gender at all! sometimes it's about, you know, supporting people who tell the whole userbase on a public blogging site that they drive around playgrounds and schools to masturbate to children! transphobes and bigots have been trying to equate being trans, especially being transfem, to being a child predator for decades and sometimes it feels like half of this site's popular 'transfeminists' have just decided to hand them ammo on a silver fucking platter.

The app will be banning, or blacklisting, anyone they know as being endogenic. They have mentioned this will be from public social media, or profiles, though they also mention that app information will not be visible to them, and they don't have any intention to violate privacy of the members. Despite this claim, the reality of how IP banning is a violation of privacy has been explained well in this post. Please read if you want to know more.

While Systemality is welcome to maintain their anti-endo beliefs for their app, I wanted to add this update for anyone who is not a CDD System who may have used the app due to limited resources, especially since many people are uncomfortable with the preposition of banning accounts subjectively. Please be aware your account may be IP banned if suspected to be endogenic.

hello again!!

i do think self diagnosis with mental disorders is valid if the research is done properly and without bias, but there always is your own personal confirmation bias to put into effect. not to say that it isn’t reasonable to do so, it certainly is

if you just go “oh i have this :3” because of a single tumblr post? that would not be a valid self-diagnosis and you would have to delve deeper into it.

would those same people say saying diddy is bad is racist?

Don't say that you'll jinx us and summon the people who actually think that

I'm allowed to like journaling even if my hand tremors make it so I can't do something as "pretty" as an abled bodied person

I'm allowed to like crocheting even if it's bad for my joints and it takes me double the time it would take someone else to finish a project

and yes I'm trying to switch to knitting which is lighter on the hands, but even that - even fucking using my phone - makes my finger hurts

I'm allowed to complain about it, just like you - specially if you're abled - are not allowed to tell me off about it

On a good day, I feel little to no pain. I can get up and run around freely and not pay much attention. On a bad day? I can barely move. Every joint in my body is radiating pain. I’m so swollen and stiff I have to jerk my limbs around like a puppet to move them at all. Even the cartilage in my chest hurts.

At my worst, I literally cannot go to the bathroom without someone in a nearby room to help me get up off the toilet after. Do you know how hard it is to have such little privacy? To try desperately to do as many things as you can by yourself so you can cling to the fact that you can still button a shirt or unwrap a granola bar? Do you know how unbearable it is to spend your preteen and teenage years like that?

Don’t even get me started on my social life. I had to drop out of high school in my sophomore year because my mental health plummeted right as my arthritis medication stopped working. I barely ever get to see my friends, and I have to try to keep on a smile when I hear them talking about school when I wish more than anything that I could attend with them.

I just want people to know that arthritis isn’t just old people with bad hips. I was diagnosed when I was eleven years old, and now the bones in my left heel are starting to fuse together before I’ve even hit eighteen.

diagnosed in third grade after swelling. fun right?

running was agony. gym class was agony and became my least favorite subject

developed an allergic reaction to the first medication i was on after a while (methotrexate)

second medication became less effective

humira was amazing!

insurance no longer covers it. current medication isnt as effective

my skin flakes on the daily, esp on my feet

i was extremely lucky to get treatment. i am lucky to have something that sorta works sometimes at least.

the arthritis foundation has really good articles and information on different kinds of arthritis, so if you’re curious - check it out