race your heart out;

[ CJ had made his decision about Fee and him before she had even showed up. After a long talk with Brayden the night before, he had come to the conclusion that sometimes life just brought you the people you needed and not wanted in life. That was the case with Ophelia. He had tried to fight it. Especially as they grew closer but that only left him with a constant void in his life. One that only she could fill and there was so much he wanted from her. He wanted all of her. Every single part mind, body and soul.] Well good because I don’t like sharing my girlfriend. [ Maybe it was a bold move. A bold choice but it was out there and there was no way he was taking it back. Whether they put a title on them or not, she was the only girl with his attention. Who would get his time, his affection. Who would be in his bed every night. She played every single role in his life. People would probably find it confusing. He did since he was claiming to want to run her over, and he still did at times, but it was made sense in a strange dysfunctional way.] My girl is fucking everything. You should look in a mirror sometime. [ Without so much of a warning, he picked her up wrapping her legs around his waist as he carried her to his bed and laid her down gently. The whole time not breaking contact with her lips as he kissed her back just as deeply as she was kissing him.]

[ They had fallen into the same pattern with ease, there was nothing complicated between them not when they kissed. It just felt so natural, they came together in such a natural way and things just seemed to work when they were together. Everyone and everything seemed so unimportant when they were wrapped up in each other and it was a feeling she had never experienced before. She didn’t know what it was like to let someone see you for exactly who you were and she hadn’t meant for him to do so but it happened. He somehow broke through every single barrier she had set up for herself, even the walls she had built up after her brother died. He pushed past them all and she wasn’t embarrassed, she wanted him to know her just like she wanted to know him. ] Boyfriend... [ She mused over his lips as a hint of a smile appeared on her face, she liked the sound of it. The idea of belonging to someone had never appealed to her but this was Cj and she found that she didn’t have the same reservations about using the word. The word boyfriend had fallen easily from her lips, and she believed it. For the first time in her life she was committing herself to something, to someone and there was no one better than him. ] Yeah? Well I think that you should be the one who needs to look in a mirror.. the view is pretty great from where I’m standing. [ A laugh fell from her lips as he picked her up, but her arms wrapped tightly around his neck as they kissed, she had hardly noticed where they were going until her back hit the softness of his bed sheets. A feeling that had become so familiar as she’d often fell asleep in the very spot with his arms around her just like they were now, a muffled noise escaped her lips as the kissed, one of her hands leaving his neck as she traced circles around his arms, letting her finger tips graze his skin softly as she pushed him closer with the her other hand only to then tangle it in his hair. Her lips still not leaving his, she wouldn’t dare.]

[If there was one thing about CJ, he hated relationships. Ever since Cress had left him for dead literally during his sophomore year, he had sworn off any and every relationship possible. But with Ophelia, whether they were together or not, it just seemed to come natural. They fell into a pattern of being together so naturally that he was willing to change his beliefs if it meant even one more second with her. She was his girl and he hated that he had to see her so hurt, so fragile. He wouldn’t ask because he knew she’d tell him when she was ready. And that all he could do was make sure he was available for her. Emotionally, mentally, physically and any other way she might need him. He was only slightly surprised as she suddenly pulled him towards her. His lips meeting hers as if he were home and he wrapped his arms around her waist as he kissed her softly.] “I couldn’t even if I wanted to. I’m yours and I hate that sometimes because we can’t stand each other but it doesn’t make it any less true. – A beautiful puff fish.” [ He grinned against her lips and nipped at her bottom lip playfully before letting out a laugh. His lips met hers once more and he felt as if the whole world melted away and for the first time in days he was genuinely happy.]

[ She had never been the relationship type, sure she had her fun and she dated around but she had never once placed a label on something and it was mostly her doing. She liked knowing that she still had her freedom, that she could walk away as soon as she didn’t want to be with whomever it was that she was seeing at the time. But with Cj? It was different, completely different she didn’t like the idea of sharing him with anyone and the mere idea of being free of him scared her to death. She wanted him to always be around, not just as her make out buddy but as something else. She wanted every part of him, mentally, spiritually and physically... and she knew that no matter what stupid arguments the had or if she uttered the words I hate you one more time... she understood that she was at his beck and call. No matter what, or when she’d be there always. ] And I’m yours, just yours. [ She felt the need to emphasize that if only so he knew.. she wasn’t willing to see anyone else because for the first time in her life she didn’t have to. She had all she needed with him.. all she could possibly want and not want for that matter. They were a strange pair but somehow in all of their dysfunction they were completely functional and that was just beyond her understanding and she figured it would be beyond anyone else’s too. ] Liar, but okay... I’ll play along. [ She laughed at his puff fish comment, and giggled as he nipped at her bottom lip about to say something else but she was once again distracted by his lips on hers and she kissed him back, deepening the kiss, as she leaned forward pulling him closer to her.]

[ CJ was quiet as he felt her grip tighten on him. There were no words to be said, no questions to be asked. He understood.He didn’t understand what had happened to drive her away but he understood that she needed her time and now she was back.His hand came out to stroke her hair lightly when he felt the tears soak through the white of his shirt. He kissed her head and let his arms wrap around her tighter. After awhile of this, he pulled away and grabbed her hand pulling her into the house and along the foyer before leading her up the stairs.] You can stay as long as you want. [ His voice was almost quiet as he welcomed her not only his home but his life as well. He could tell himself that this was nothing but the truth of the matter was this was everything. His feelings for Ophelia were only getting stronger and it was better to just let it happen than to fight it and lose. They were in this together now and would be until she wanted out.]

[ He hadn’t asked what happened and she hadn’t said a single word and yet being in his arms was the very comfort she needed. How did that work? What was happening? She wasn’t sure, she could try to guess and she had spent nights wondering where it was that they were going but she often found that she didn’t care as long as she was with him. She could handle everything else. When they broke apart and he took her hand she nodded if only because she still didn’t know what to say. She was grateful of course, and most importantly relieved that he wasn’t upset because anyone else would be. He had a right to be, just like everyone else around her lately Stopping suddenly she pulled at his hand if only to make him face her and she moved closer, her hands came to rest on the back of his neck as she moved forward and pressed her lips lightly to his, the familiarity of them overwhelming her in less than a second. God had she missed this, she had missed him horribly and it was just now that she realized just how much she didn’t want to be away from him. She couldn’t be, not anymore.] “You aren’t allowed to take that back.. you do know that right? Oh and not a word about how I look like a puff fish...” [ She was teasing him of course, and a small chuckle escaped her lips the motion causing them to graze lightly over his before she allowed her lips to meet with his once more.]

[ CJ wasn’t sure what really was going on anymore but he was sure about the fact that he no longer wanted to think about it. His hot and cold relationship with Fee had quickly cooled down without him even having to do anything to make that happen. Now with assurance that she was safe, he could breathe easy and begin to forget whatever it was that she didn’t want with them. He had just settled down in the living room after tucking his pregnant sister in for a nap when he heard the knock on the door.] “Listen for the hundredth time we’re not interested in what–” [His arms instantly wrapped around the brunette as she came closer and he shook his head a she buried his nose into her hair and kissed her head softly. He didn’t even care to be mad. He was just happy that she was there.] “ I was never mad. Stop. I’ve missed you. I’ve missed you.”

[ Ophelia, held on to him tightly almost as if she wanted to convince herself that she was really with him. Her head rested on his shoulder, as a few tears fell down her cheeks. She had missed him, but she also didn’t know what to say other than spew out more apologies because she felt guilty about pushing him away. She hadn’t meant to, things around her just began to unravel and truly got out of control. She didn’t want to move, she wanted to stay exactly where she was standing because somehow he was the only person who gave her a sense of comfort even when he had no idea what was happening, or the fact that her brother’s watch now rested inside one of the pockets of her jeans. She couldn’t bring herself to get rid of it, even when it all she saw when she looked at it was Whitney. Which also made her think that she didn’t deserve to be standing here, just like she hadn’t deserve to have Matt find her. However she was selfish, and she couldn’t help it.. not when she felt the way she did about Cj. She had decided that she was no longer going to fight it, even when the part of her that was prone to panic was screaming at her to get out before they hurt each other. ]

Good. [ Brayden nodded as she answered him. His blue eyes still focused firmly on her before he let out a quiet chuckle. He knew he wasn’t exactly who she wanted to see and judging from the way she looked, she had a rough night so he didn’t blame her but still he wanted to be sure she wasn’t hurt or it wasn’t anything serious.] Your father didn’t send me. Well he did but he’s not why I’m here.. Glad to have found you though. – Do you need a ride home?

"No, I can walk home and besides It’s not going to be pretty... so I’ll save you the annoyance of having to be there for yet another family match. Just, I dunno.. go be a cop. You know do your job. I’ll be fine. “ [ Ophelia mused absentmindedly her thoughts anywhere but trying to think of what to tell her father. She probably wouldn’t say anything mostly because he wouldn’t buy that she had spent the night at her brother’s grave. Even when her eyes were still swollen from crying. He’d she was stoned or something worse... and she wasn’t in the mood for a fight not right now. ]

I figured you’d be here. [ Matty shrugged, reaching a hand out to offer Ophelia some help. After the messages the girl had sent and received yesterday, it was only a matter of time before she needed a friend. ] Come on, don’t be stubborn. Take my hand, let’s get outta here.