OOOPS! all horny 😔

So what?

It doesn’t mean anything. The whole point of a kink and a fetish is that it’s exciting, right? That it’s fun and new and something different. Something out of your ordinary. Right? So why wouldn’t you indulge that? It feels good, it’s nice. It doesn’t mean anything. You’re not changing.

You’re not changing. 

It’s not really affecting you.

So what if you can’t even get off unless there’s a cock.

So what?

It’s not actually there. You’re just watching a girl get fucked, that’s all. Or watching her suck cock. Or suck cock and get fucked. Or imagining her. Imagining the sound she’d make and the look on her face as a big, fat cock slid into her. How her whole body would stiffen when he finished inside her. How his cum would look dribbling from her fucked cunt and the beautiful, dazed, cockdrunk expression she’d have. It doesn’t mean anything. You’re not changing.

You’re not changing.

It’s not really affecting you.

So what if you’re starting to get jealous of those girls.

So what?

It just looks like fun. It looks fun to be a slut for a man. To let him just use you. To be so, so full of him. To have his weight pinning you down as he lined himself up and slid in as you squirmed helplessly underneath him. It doesn’t mean anything if that gets you wet, it’s an exciting idea, it’s not your fault. So what if you like to imagine that you’re the one he’s cumming inside? You’re not changing.

You’re not changing.

It’s really affecting you.

So what if you only cum with a man’s permission now.

So what?

It adds something. You could easily do it if you wanted. It’s not as if he could stop you, right? So why does it matter that you only will if he says so? It’s just playing along. It’s just part of the experience. It’s just better to listen to him and to obey a man. It just feels more natural. More natural to the fun, that’s all. It was still your choice anyway, to give up choice, so really you’re still the one in charge, the one actually in control. You’re not changing.

You’re changing.

It’s really affecting you.

So what if he owns you now.

So what?

It was just the natural next step. You already needed his permission to cum, and then to touch, so just admitting that he owned your cunt wasn’t really going much further anyway. And if you've already done that, why not say he just owns all of you? Easier. Besides, he’s a man, he can look after your cunt better than a dumb, ditzy girl like you. That’s just common-sense. You need his control otherwise you’d just spend all day rubbing yourself to cocks and watching other girls getting fucked - he said so, and you know he’s right. He’s so good for you, you’re so glad he’s helping you. He said you’re better now. You do feel better, so obviously he’s right. He said you're changing. You’re changing.

You’re changing.

It’s really affecting you.

You are afraid of me, because you don't understand. I will help you to understand. I will make you understand.

You are imagining, somehow, that life in my service will not be what it seems to be. Surely I can't want to do those things to you, right? Surely it won't hurt that badly. Surely you'll have some sort of a say.

Bambi Sleep hypnosis is intended to create a second “personality” called Bambi. Bambi is obedient, dumb, trusting, and may gradually attempt to subvert the original personality. This means a dominant maintaining control is necessary for it not to spiral out of control.

Neural Nets and Pretty Patterns- undisclosed triggers, intentionally addictive wording, deliberate reduction in self control, self awareness, and varying types of intelligence means it’s very easy to fuck yourself up. This one is very popular on Tumblr.

BetterBimboBrainwashing-basically Bambi Sleep, but more ethical. It’s also significantly less complete, as it was basically one person doing it and it has been shelved.

LilithUnleashed- Like BetterBimboBrainwashing, but the issue of a single creator is mostly avoided by each file being standalone and relatively self contained. This makes it easier to mix and match your desired effects.

If you want specific files, we’d need to know what you’d like from them.

ohhhh thas a lotta words!!

yeah this is very very useful, but i am not smart enough/its not really up to me so this will be saved for when Dads around later.

thank you!!!

Bambi Sleep- She's tried this before (both when we met and before we knew each other), and they never seemed to work on her, unfortunately.

Neural Nets and Pretty Patterns- I have heard of this but was never sure of their efficacy. However, if it does the things said, then we'll have to save that for a later date, because some of those effects would be dangerous to our goals together.

BetterBimboBrainwashing- I took a look into this once and could tell it wouldn't work since the Bambi Sleep ones didn't

Like I’m mtf and I also… uh… fuck… im also genderfluid sure. So i like being a man and a woman.. but lately its been in a way where im like mtftmtf detrans. Like getting surgery and just being a woman because its what gender my abuser wants me to have. I.. i am abused by men women trans men trans women etc… i just… i cant be a man in terms of patriarchy because i was made for genuine abuse like genuinly non consensual abuse

Most of my trauma is from trans women… one of Them fully shattered me years ago and I’ll never recover…

Abuse is love i need to be loved and i’ve started to remove any thought of abuse as a kink and realize instead its a need.

This is a bit awkward, because it seems like my blog isn't made for you then. I mean, you can get off however you like, and believe whatever you like, I don't mind how anyone enjoys my blog no matter how fucked up and broken they are or what identity group they belong to. But to clarify, my blog *IS* based on patriarchal sex/gender-focused inequality, and if you follow me you're going to continue seeing such content because my blog isn't about gender-equal abuse, as you put it.

in this kinda case, its less about gender and more about the abuse. yes Men are supposed to be better but, jus like some cunts arent fully able to be housewife material, some Men dont Want to live that kinda way. so jus like. yes gender equal abuse, but bc the Man wants tk stay. yk. at the end of the day the abuse isnt bc of being a Man or gender at all its bc you deserve it.

One of my current abusers likes to be a man to abuse me, She’s a trans woman but its more degrading to be a girl and Her a man.

I really do remember when a man forced me to suck Him off on the train though. Honestly i’m still kind of on that train getting His cock forced in my mouth. I still remember being chased down blocks molested the entite time by another man. Theres another man that i wish I could be with but hes married and getting kicked out due to this fucking country.

I try to have gay sex with men but They all want to feminize me and like who can blame Them I look nothing like a guy naked with my fat pierced tits and feminine penis. I think maybe getting a pussy would make me feel more like a man. But all the t in the world wont grow me chest hair or beard hair I lasered off. My milkers shot so much when I started e and im sure I could make Them do more.

My body was designed to be a submissive useable trans woman. But I never got to be a guy… i try so fucking hard to be one. But my voice is always the same feminine voice. I sound like I’m doing a bit when I try to so a guy voice. And besides its so hard to put on my binder… its easier to throw on a dress and tights no underwear and just be cute. Its so hard. Everyone expects men to have opinions but i just agree. I just want to be a man but everyone knows how soft my skin is, how I never really got proper t puberty even now with no esreogen. T is doing nothing to me my body exists to be feminized….

And it feels so good to be called good girl. Nothing like good boy. Good boy implies respect but girls are objects, like me. Perhaps i have no gender, and its assigned to me by others?

I want to transition into a wet cunt and see if I can feel like a man for once. Maybe I get chastity just to be sure I dont do anything. A firm packer going to the club and finally hitting on a girl in a straight way. Might have to go to the mens bathroom to uh take off the chastity so I can have t4c straight sex with my new pussy I dialated for a year.. maybe She’ll finger me and call me daddy…

Theres a clank and i barely can fit the chastity belt in my bag with me and i can feel the stares. I wheel my way out and something about me gives me away as submissive. Its ok I’ve handled hookups before. I see a few of Them cornering me and one of Them spots the chastity belt out of the bag and pulls it out.

“Planning to put this on Your girl?”

The surgery i got leaves me constantly driping and the chastity cage and my pants glisten. My packer is off center and wrong and a wet spot is deep on my pants

“The fuck is this” another says, grabbing my cunt. I moan and He pushes into it, the jeans chafing inside my fresh virgin hole

“I have somwwhere to go excuse me” i say as I push my chair towards the exit.

The door clicks shut and They slowly forcibly undress me. Eventually i end up on the floor, my chair in the corner

“H.. hey i…”

I breathe heavily and know what happens

They dont even consider me trans, dont know the word. One of Them grabs my neck and my brain shuts off.

“Look at this pretty girl thinking She can use the mens room to get away with a shorter line”

They all start violating me and i mostly black it out

But its burning a memory in my skull

I’m just a girl.

The girl I was going to bang leaves with Her friend

This isn’t the kind of club They check the bathrooms except for drugs

Well at least smoking ones… whatever They put into me has me black out even harder

I wake up… realizing its all over… They’re gone but so are my clothes.

I try to find anything to cover up but its too late… the cleaner doesnt even seem surprised

No idea how to get home. No clothes to do so…

But does it matter anyway…

The feeling was undeniable… i fit straight back into the role of a woman

Im sure a drugged naked woman would be able to sleep Her way home

Its a haze but im home. And suddenly im met with horrors… i check my phone to see myself outed as a girl to everyone in my contacts. I refused to check my phone till I was safe and now its just compplerelt over

Dick pics and everything flooding me. Maybe i skip town

Or maybe its time to give up

Im not a man, a man doesn’t have a pink puffy pussy that causes Her to act erratically.

I start to rub… i start to rub so hard and In a blind haze I unblock an ex and call Her. A dark minded trans woman that always knew how to destroy me

She takes one look at the video feed and tells me

“Good girls dont need testostetone”

Before I can attempt to fight it i throw all my T away

And I break it out… the last estrogen before trasition

I shove the needle in me and press in the feminine liquied and my relapse is done.

I’ve always been a girl…

In order to break them of their spirits, humiliation should be a daily multiple times a day deal. Break her physically, mentally emotionally and spiritually.

She would not even remember her own name, she only knows (cunt, bitch, it, cow, thing, nothing)