🍃eating leaf🌿

Just saw my doctor type "FUCKED FOR LIFE" on my chart then he turned the screen away and stopped making eye contact with me

sucking at something is the first step to getting good at it

I’ve started listening to the book project Hail Mary and frankly there’s no room in the plot of this book for that man everyone seems to be shipping Grace with so I decided to look it up and apparently instead of letting a character not have a romantic interest y’all have yoinked a character out of some kind of Markiplier project

This is the goddamned Jack Frost and Elsa situation all over again

Glock and balls

thing I am proud of: when the doctor started going on a weird rant about long covid not being real I paused and listened to his nonsense for a bit and then very calmly said, in a polite and curious tone, "you don't believe in post-viral illness?" and he like. stammered a bunch and was like OH WELL I'M NOT SAYING -- I DON'T...I just think ..! and backpedaled awkwardly while I just sat there like :3c interesting :3c thank you so much for clarifying your stance on this :3c

an important skill for chronically ill people to develop is the ability to treat the doctor as though they are simply a person you are interviewing to find out how much they know about your condition.

HMMM interesting!! will have to check this out

the thing about talking to people about psychiatric abuse is that you quickly learn that there are dozens and dozens of ppl around you who experienced unspeakable trauma at the hands of the psych industry in all its iterations and we just walk through the world inundated by messages re: carceral 'recovery' and 'healing' and 'wellness' silent and sucking ourselves in & choking back the memory of what we endured and feeling as though we're alone, truly alone, lacking even the last names of the people we suffered alongside, but we're literally everywhere, all we need to do is reach out and touch each other

you are not immune to inventing an arbitrary set of rules that only you have to adhere to

i absolutely love how nikki is nearly always bathed in shadow (whether it’s fully in the dark or with a single light behind her with her as the faceless darkness). she’s quite literally become a shadow of her former self. no autonomy, no personal thoughts or emotions, just a carved image of what bear desired.

I kept forgetting my nighttime antidepressant so I set an alarm where the sound was a recording of me saying "HEY. TAKE YOUR FUCKING PILL" because I thought it would be funny. It was funny about three times, and then it started making me mad and I'd dismiss it right away to make it stop. So I handed my phone to my partner, who made another recording sweetly saying "Okay Shira, it's time to take your medication" and now I don't get mad anymore and I take my pill. The "compassion over punishment" camp has gotta get something wrong one of these days