Jaune

Almost there

I already know this feeling and I know where it’s going. Surprisingly, though, it came back too early this time. (Sigh)

And now, I’m crying... why is this so hard? :(

I really hate goodbyes...

Hindi madali ang magpaalam...

For the very first time, after a few months of dealing with things on my own, I dared to let go. I allowed my walls to crumble. Letting the fallen pieces showcase my vulnerability. I cried... and it was nice. It felt like I could finally breathe again. As if some sort of baggage was lifted off of my chest. And it took me by surprise because I didn’t know that it was that heavy. I didn’t know that it was that deep. All I understood before was its extent but I didn't fathom the actual feeling itself. It was surprising and freeing..... and I may not be entirely okay for now, but I hope that someday, somehow, I will be.