I lift my eyes up to the hills

Angst is good for you. It's the asking of questions that's important, not the answers.

He splashed orange in the sunrise and cast the sky in blue. And if you love to see geese as they gather, chances are you’ll see that too. Did he have to make the squirrel’s tail furry? Was he obliged to make the birds sing? And the funny way that chickens scurry or the majesty of thunder when it rings? Why give a flower fragrance? Why give food its taste? Could it be he loves to see that look upon your face?

He loves them now as much as ever He did, and when all earthly things shall have melted in the last conflagration, His love will still wear the dew of its youth.

The greatest thing anyone can do for God and for man is to pray. It is not the only thing; but it is the chief thing…You can do more than pray after you have prayed; but you cannot do not more than pray until you have prayed.

1 Timothy 4:14-16