INTO THE MYSTERIES

So, I haven’t been studying anything for several...

Have you considered delving into Kundalini yoga? Crowley practiced it and based some of his meditations on it. Yogo Bhajan is the man credited with bringing it to America and making it accessible, but there is plenty of history before that as well

So, I haven’t been studying anything for several...

Melita Denning and Obsorne Phillips for the Ogdoadic tradition, Julius Evola’s Introduction to Magic for a very different perspective.

Crowley seemed to prophesy the madness we’re dealing with today from the Right-Wing “Christians” against the LGBT community, especially regarding the trans bathroom issue.

If you think about it, there were no Christians during the Old Testament era, so those who want to consistently quote OT law, while completely disregarding the New Covenant, are falsely claiming to be Christians. The New Covenant was made to free people from the old laws. They are not applicable in modern society. Those who quote them don’t even understand their context.

Nature is very fickle and anomalous, so some of us are going to come into the world who don’t fit the common cisgender, heterosexual mold. I see people trying to use the chromosome argument against trans identity, but that doesn’t work at all. Chromosomes aren’t definitive of anything. They’re just a blueprint. I was born intersex (XXY), assigned male at birth, but identify and live my life as female. God, if only it were all just a matter of choice, cos we wouldn’t be in this mess.

I think orthodox Christianity needs to reconnect to its Gnostic roots.

I’m thinking of either delving into the Equinox or immersing myself in Qabalah since I still have a ton to learn on the subject.

I wouldn’t consider myself a practitioner of magick — not yet, anyway. I’m just a philosopher and a scholar of the mysteries. 

My room mate and I have been discussing putting together an online school for basic teachings in various studies like the basics of Hermeticism, Qabalah, Thelema 101 (covering both A∴A∴ and OTO), and so on. Once I know exactly what the plan is I’ll update you here.

Ritalin and Adderall seem to work very similarly in inhibiting the reuptake of dopamine and norepinephrine, making it much easier for me to focus and maintain my attention, but it seems that Adderall actually stimulates dopamine production. Adderall (30mg XR) seems to increase my interest in what I'm doing while Ritalin simply maintains it.

Both do a superb job, though. I was put on Strattera initially, and it was awful. It didn't do anything for me, and it just made me feel like crap. I wish I didn't have to take anything at all, but it is what it is.

Also, hello to any new followers. Sorry about the lack of content and presence. I’m just trying to get my life in order. I haven’t even been studying anything in the past several months. I haven’t had the focus. I’ve been rather dispassionate, but that’s slowly improving. Plus, I’ve learned that I have Borderline Personality Disorder which is both clarifying and depressing, but I’ve never been one to give up. I may have teetered on the brink, but I never give up.

Anyway, I hope you’re all well, and I will definitely be back here sooner than later. :)

Well, that's a loaded question, and it can be answered in so many different ways. As old as the human race is, it's still very young and primitive in the grandness of the universe(s). We're still very much like children, and we have some serious cosmic abandonment issues. So, we find ways to reconcile it, to make sense of it, and we get it wrong a lot.

Because we're an intelligent species with greater self-awareness we get easily trapped in our collective ego, and we make decisions and choices based on the idea that we're alone in the universe. The greater the ego, the greater the need to conquer and maintain control, and that leads to error after error.

The ego isn't interested in change, or learning, or evolving. It regurgitates the same things over and over, because that's where it feels comfort. Humanity has to face that ego, and master it, and rise above it. That's when we'll be ready to move forward. I know it seems futile, and that we're never going to get out of this mess, but it will happen in time. Maybe not our lifetime, but it will evolve.

That's why none of us can give up, or be complacent, and acquiesce to the notion of "that's just the way it is". We have to be the torch-bearers and the "lightworkers" (to use a new age-y term), and carve the path for those who will come after us. We have to do the hard work to make it easier for future generations. It's our responsibility. It's our duty to our species. We have to take care of ourselves, but we have to be altruistic in all that we do.

The reason so many things are stirred up today is because we are on the cusp of something; some inevitable shift in consciousness. The old order is desperately clawing at the brim of a widening chasm, and that's stirring up this current chaos, but soon that chasm will be too wide and they will fall in as a new order begins to emerge.

People call "the end times" an apocalypse because the word means "to uncover, to reveal". That revealing is something that happens within. The world will, in time, become conscious and awake in ways it hasn't been since beyond antiquity, and each time we come full circle we can only become even more "awake" than before.