The understatement.

Life lately.

I spent years piecing myself back together after that heartbreak. Anxiety attacks, depression, attempts, drinking— you name it. I did it all. I was desperate.

Only to come back to what broke me, years later.

Now I’m back to zero and for some reason, it feels worse.

1. Higher doses of medication

2. Insomnia (which I had for a long time, but this time I get no sleep for more than 24 hrs)

3. Anxiety attacks

4. Bad dreams

5. Drinking and smoking (worse)

6. More episodes + suicidal thoughts

Tangina. How could you? But an even more important question— how and why did I let this happen again? I keep blaming myself for what happened. Was this really my fault? Should I have known better? Ang lala eh.

Well, sabi nga ng friend ko and I quote…