pocketful of sunshine

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Reid: Fine, but if it gets embarrassing and dorky, I'm out.

Reid: Yeah, alright, babe. I think seeing you and your piercing would cheer me up.

Reid: We can make pancakes?

Livvy: YES to pancakes.

Reid: In bed nursing a hangover, so yeah, home.

Reid: I do love me. I like me, you know, 99% of the goddamn time. This shit just gets me down.

Reid: Cuddle and nipple piercing might be a winner, I'm gonna talk to Ellie tomorrow. Maybe next week. Clear the air and shit. Til then, can I see your tits?

Livvy: ugh, such a gent

Reid: Liv... I'd do all that again, alright? Just to see the goofy fucking smile on your face. I wanted you to feel happy and safe and shit. I love you, stupid.

Reid: I'm gonna be alright, I swear.

Reid: But thanks for giving a shit. Really.

Livvy: are you at home? i need to see you so i can kick you

Livvy: BABY I CARE AND I LOVE YOU AND I WANT YOU TO LOVE YOU

Reid: I wouldn't let another guy like that anywhere near her.

Reid: You know me, I'm set in my ways.

Livvy: baby you're breaking my heart here

Livvy: ugh fuck it, i'm gonna guilt trip you and trivialise your feelings x

Livvy: reid macklemore. i spent half of my life literally on the streets, listening to my parents cry, i almost lost siblings, myself, and you wanna know what one of the best and brightest parts of those years was? you, you big idiot. sprawling across your sofa watching cartoons, your mom making sure i never went hungry. sitting cramped in the back of a too small car with you and ellie on trips to the beach because you BEGGED your mom to take us when you found out i'd never seen the ocean.

Reid: If it made her happy? Yeah, maybe.

Livvy: and what if it's another kyle?

Reid: First of all, I never said I was smart. Second, what the fucking hell am I gonna do?

Livvy: i dunno, baby.

Reid: She was a scared kid. Ellie's always been a badass, but I knew she was terrified. I couldn't leave her.

Reid: And maybe, yeah, I love them both. Dyl's the best fucking kid. But they're not mine. Not my kid, not my girl.

Livvy: MAC omggggg

Livvy: you were a kid. we all were. you could have been there for her, as a friend, in the way that we all tried to be, but you went above and beyond. twist it whatever way you want, but you're always gonna be the guy dyl looks to when he needs a dad. ask them yourself, see what they say.

Reid: Uh huh. Now who's delusional?

Reid: Well, yeah. He needed a Father figure, I stepped up. But I'm not anyone's Dad.

Reid: Not that I haven't thought about it. I've had ten years of this shit, I'm pretty good at overthinking.

Livvy: cut the patriarchal shit, mac. he didn't NEED a father figure, he had a badass mom who could handle anything thrown at her. you loved that kid the second he was conceived and stepped up for him, not for el.

Reid: I can't control what that fucking wild thing posts to her Instagram. Besides, she's got nice tits.

Reid: Wouldn't Noah be jealous, huh?

Reid: Anyway, it sounds too good to be true. Me and El. She's perfect, and I'm not cut out for all that stuff. Marriage, kids. I know I'd try for her, but.

Livvy: they Are pretty great tbf good job

Livvy: noah? that's all fun and games baby :)

Reid: Again, gross.

Reid: I don't know. It's too fucking big, the way I feel. It could ruin everything.

Livvy: excuse me, i saw an insta photo of you literally sucking callie's nips a week ago, i am not the gross one here

Livvy: but baby, what if it didn't? imagine a world where you and ellie just get to be happy? together! in love!

Reid: Did you just describe Noah? Gross, Livvy. Be less obvious.

Reid: It sounds fucking sad. I can't be with her like that and not tell her... it's pathetic, carrying a torch for her for this long.

Livvy: uhhhhhh, no because noah should be pulverising me not ellie but whatever

Livvy: baby baby baby

Reid: Because if she doesn't love me back it'll kill me. I'd rather not know, if that's the case.

Reid: I was telling her she needed to get back out there, you know? 'Cause I gotta get over her sometime. And she started talking about how we could just grow old together and stuff, and she said she'd fallen in love with me once, and I just freaked, Liv.

Livvy: but what IF?

Livvy: wait, what? mac, her dating isn't gonna change anything. you're not gonna miraculously get over her just because she's getting pulverised by some sexy tatted dude with a buzzcut.

Reid: How could I do that, Liv? Timing's off. Timing's always off.

Livvy: mac, jesus, come on

Livvy: you thought the timing was bad then and you kept it quiet and she loved you back the whole time. how do you know this isn't the same?

Reid: She TOLD ME. That she used to be

Reid: That she had fucking feelings for me. The whole fucking time I was pining over her like some motherfucking idiot.

Livvy: shit

Reid: Because I was hopelessly fucking in love with her and I didn't think she'd ever see me that way?

Reid: Not a huge fan of Macklemore, by the way. Fucking Callie.

Livvy: baby, sweetie, honey, are you blind?