help i'm stuck here

i had to delete my old blog :c we were probably mutuals if i follow you out of the blue!

i think it’s different now

weeeeeeiiiiird cramps and pains. i caaaant help but feel like my organs are gonna explode

and like peace and love i can get better i can get sooo much better and i can be healthy and happy but i think certain things will always be way harder for me than they should and that devastates me a little . need to remember that my brain is stretchier than i think it is

im not stable or mature or healthy. i think i require interaction in order to grow but my instinct is so say that im banned from interaction until i can be fucking normal

everything’s making me so emotional and then i can’t stop crying

GOD im hungry because ive been up so long and haven’t eaten but anything i eat will hurt my tummy and like my head feels so . it hurts and i feel icky and i think my organs are gonna explode and it’s awful

im always gonna be like. a stupid dog

they have to Kill Me

my throat is so dry . perhaps if i stopped smoking for ten seconds…No…i cant test this right now .

and i shouldn’t have stayed up what the fuck is wrong with me

my stomach hurts and my head hurts and i don’t want to be awake but i stayed up too long and now im not tired anymore

need a place to scream!!!!!!! i just wanna die

i fucking hate the way that i am <3 i am so sick of it

i really need to die

the fucking anguish the anguish the anguish i need to die