maya.

do people still get on here?!.. I don’t know some how I found myself here. I just wanted to say that I miss you. I miss every part of you. Your smile your eyes your lips, your touch.. everything. Every year since then I get this ache in my heart, knot in my stomach, pains & depression that always over comes me once the week is over I feel light. But this week I’m hurting. I miss every bit of you. There’s a part of me that holds on to you holds on to a piece of you so far but yet so close to my heart and it always resurfaces at this time every year like clock work. I’ve always wanted to say. I’m sorry. I’ve always wanted to say that my love for you is there it’s never gone away.. I think that if one day I were to see you I’d probably cry cause there’s moments in my life where I wish you were there. Life is hard. & even though we went out separate ways these days are the hardest for me every year. I can sit here and write to you all day and night if I wanted too but there’s no point. I wish I knew why it is that I always feel this way. But what I do know is that I’m happy for you and I’m happy to see moments of you thriving to be what I knew you’ll always be. At this point I feel like I’m rambling, you won’t even read this. And I guess that’s fine. Even though I swallow every word with such guilt and pain this is the only week I feel vulnerable and lost. So with that said. I miss you. And all the above doesn’t matter. Nothing but emotions and word vomit. Later tumblr thanks for listening..