claudettebijouĀ·:
and within seconds the tension was back, all relief sheād felt at having this conversation in private gone as soon as oscar opens his mouth again. itās a jab at her that claudette feels in equal parts is absolutely deserved and is also completely unfair.Ā āi donāt know how i could have given that impression,ā she counters, even though she knows exactly why he might feel that way right now. but she would argue that her actions in the past few months speak far more than one drunken night. this was a conversation sheād dreaded for many reasons - not wanting to admit to anyone, let alone oscar, just how badly sheād fucked up being one of them. but also⦠discussing this situation was opening the door for a potential conversation about what really was going on between them, and that was something claudette didnāt want to face. not when she felt fairly certain it wouldnāt go the way she wanted - much like those type of conversations never did.Ā ābecause theyāre drunk,ā she answers, finally turning around to face him and staring him straight on.Ā āthatās all.ā itās not entirely the truth - there were other factors that came into play like regrets about the past and all of the what-ifs and what-should-have-beens that came along with them. but in the end, it truly was the alcohol that pushed both of them over the edge. and though she hasnāt talked much about it with adam yet, has yet to figure out exactly what theyāre doing, claudette knew they both stood on the same page of realizing this was a fuck up.
denial. was she really going with denial? he laughs darkly.Ā āyou married another guy. generally people have a conversation before doing that. or drop a fucking text.ā as much as oscar enjoyed games himself, he hated being played and he was a terrible loser. he didnāt get close people and he didnāt let them close to him. it was the best way for him to protect himself, his family, and his business. he knew first hand the things people were willing to sacrifice in the name of profit and he was no oneās bargaining chip. but claudette...claudette had surprised him. he found himself wanting to trust her, wanting to bring her closer. he couldnāt explain why and after finding out about her marriage, hated that heād let himself get so weak. he never shouldāve let his feelings get involved.Ā āsee, now iāve been drunk a few times and never once thought it was a good idea to marry my ex.ā











