Okay?

Lord, sana po bigyan niyo ako nang madaming pasensya. Sana mawala na sa isip ko ang paglalayas at ang pagiging suicidal ko sa mga nakaraang araw. Humihingi po ako ng tawad sa lahat nang nagawa kong mali at hindi naaayon sa kagustuhan niyo. Salamat po at hindi niyo pa rin kami pinapapabayaan. Sana po eh ilayo niyo kami sa kapahamakan, lalo na po bukas. Alam kong kasama niyo dyan ang Inay, mga kamag-anak ko at mga kakilala ko or kilala ako. Basta po, wag niyo akong iiwan. Alam ko pong lahat ng ginagawa at gagawin ko ay tama, gabayan niyo lang po ako palagi. Salamat at buhay pa rin po ako ngayon. Salamat po at nandyan pa rin ang mga magulang ko at kapatid ko. 

God is good, all the time. 

Jesus, I trust in you.

God the Holy Spirit, enlighten and sanctify us.

Thank you po Lord.

Ba't ka nagkakaganyan Abby. Naiinggit ka lang sa mga kaklase mo. At forever ka ng SMP. Okay lang yan.

Kakatapos ko lang panuorin nung The Notebook. Ang ganda talaga. Maluha-luha na ako sa ending. Paano pa kaya kapag nabasa ko yung novel mismo? Haaaay

What I've learned:

First love never dies.

Kung mahal mo talaga ang isang tao, willing kang i-let go yung taong yun for the sake of his/her happiness.

Babalik at babalik pa din yung love na binigay mo sa isang tao, kahit binaon mo na sa limot lahat-lahat ng masasayang memories niyong kasama ang isa't-isa. Babalikan ka pa din nun, if willing kang maghintay. 

Walang mangyayare sa mga torpe. Pramis. 

Malimutan mo na ang lahat, 'wag lang yung taong mahal mo.

Wala pa ring tatalo sa love na binibigay ng mga lolo't lola sa isa't-isa. Kahit na puro kulubot na sa balat at uugud-ugod na, makikita mo ang tunay na meaning ng unconditional love kahit sa isang tingin lang nila sa isa't-isa.

Kailangan kong maghanap ng isang Noah sa buhay ko. Ay hindi pala, dapat ako ang hanapin niya. haha or si Ryan Gosling na lang hehez

Walang tatalo sa ma-effort na lalaki. Laglag panty tologo. 

Kung sobrang higpit ng mga magulang natin sa atin, may dahilan yun. May dahilan.

Walang masamang maghintay kahit na walang patutunguhan ang paghihintay mo. 

Woah there. Minsan lang 'to guys. HAHA Damn. Look at her. Can I be her na lang? HUHUBELS. 

Lauren Jauregui <3

Pumasok ako kanina. Tapos malalaman ko na lang na walang klase. Sipag ko talaga. Hays. HAHA 

Pagkalabas ko nang bahay, sobrang init. Like as in, parang matutunaw na ako. Parang ice cream *suddenly drools lol* December ba talaga ngayon? Sana magka snow din dito sa Pilipinas. Egypt nga eh, nagka snow. Dito pa kaya. Hehez. Dumeretso agad akong sa CEAS Dept. Wala eh. Nagiging tambayan ko na din yun dahil ng research namin sa Developmental Psych. Tapos dahil din ng kaklase kong prof ang madir sa school. Baka nga kilala na din ako sa HS Dept. Chos. Wag naman sana. 

Di ko talaga alam kung ako lang ang pawisin sa balat ng lupa. Punas ako nang punas ng pawis ko *ew* Ang init kaya. Gumala din muna ako sa school at ayoko tumambay sa dept. *social anxiety* lol Dahil wala pa dun yung ka group ko sa research. Kakausapin kasi namin yung respondent namin na may ADHD. Then, dumaan ako sa chapel para ipagdasal kay Lord na sana pasa ako sa Psych Stat. huhu pati din sa ibang subject. *woot* dahil okay na para sa'kin ang pasa kesa bagsak T^T

Hayy. Absent pala si utoy na may ADHD. Masaya sana yung kausap dahil gusto daw nun na nasa kanya lahat ng attention ng kausap niya. English-speaking pati yun. Mapapasabak sana ako. HAHAHA Well, okay lang. Not a busy day today. Yess. 

We went to the mall and hang-out na lang with my friends. Charot. Nakita ko HS friends ko bigla habang pababa ako sa escalator. Dumeretso agad ako sa kanila sabay hug. Aww. MISS NA MISS KO NA SILA. Tapos ang clingy pa ni Mau. Tinabihan ko kasi sa greenwich then biglang he placed his head on my shoulder. Like so clingy. But I'm so sanay na. HAHAH After nun, goodbye hugs na at umalis na ako dahil nakakahiya naman sa mga kasama ko. Mga gutom na kasi yung mga yun. At ako eh gutom na din. Nagrereklamo na mga alaga ko sa tyan. HAHA

Wala kaming makainan :( puro puno na lahat ng fastfood. huhu Nagtake-out na lang kami ng munchkins, deretso na Happy Leaf. Fave ko na yung Oreo Milk Tea Slush *yum yum* Kailangan ko nang magdiet. Huehue 

Puro lovelife na lang pinag-usapan namin. Sila kasing dalawa (3 kami magkakasama kanina), may mga lovelife. Eto ako nga nga. Lamon kung lamon. Sarap kayang maging single. Walang sakit sa ulo at heart. HAHA Ang bitter ko nga kanina. Eh kasi sila. Sila na nga. *abby, kusa yang dadating* hayys

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I was floating at that moment. There was a sudden rush of emotions tracing every part of my body. I got carried away with the music. Those melodies I want to repeat again and again, like a broken record. I closed my eyes and I imagined you humming the same notes with me. 

I still remember that day. It was the peak of my high school days. I was with him. We were walking, talking about anything. I was happy at that moment. But there's this ten percent of me that wasn't really fully enjoying what I am doing. Then suddenly, I saw you. I'm not sure if I'm imagining it or not. But I guess, you're sad and lonely. I can see it in your eyes that you're not happy that I was with someone. There's this part of me really guilty for what I'm doing to you. I'm not sure if I'm hurting you because I love you, but you don't know it and I don't know if you feel the same way too. 

I don't know if you're doing okay. I don't know if you're with someone already. I stopped browsing your account, checking if you're still alive. (sorry haha) But really, I'm serious. I hope you're okay. Just so you know, I'm okay. Still that person you've seen in the hallways, corridor, canteen, and the auditorium. I still remember your face, your smile, everything about you. I keep on blushing when I see you (silly me). But it seems that time really flies so fast. I don't see you anymore. I have no assurance if I'll see you again. 

You will always have a space in my heart. Bye.

Here's the nostalgic type of night again. 

I miss my friends. I miss their presence. I miss being with them. I just really miss them so much. But then there's me, no control of time. I wish I could just turn back to the happy memories we've experienced together. I hope they are not mad at me because of not showing up to them when we have gala, because I'm too busy procrastinating on doing school works and daydreaming about how can I finish all these things in just a short span of time. I just hope they're not really mad at me, but when they are, I'm sorry. :( I hope they're all doing okay. I know they're enjoying college life. With all the "numbers" they're learning and understanding, I think they'll make it through the end, with flying colors. 

I should really stop repeating saying how I miss them. I should be doing something for me to see them. 

"Strawberry ten nga po." 

Wearing my royal blue jumper.

Passing through those blue gates. 

Walking to school. (walking distance lang kasi) 

Not worrying about my grades. Because I'm a lazy ass. See! I still graduated without problems. ;)

Cramming. I still do it though (oops)

Having first Friday masses

Yung padabog na pagbigay ng sukli ni Kuya Macmac. (haha)

Shark's fin. (Steamed or Fried? haha can't choose lol)

Milo cool/freeze.

Buying at the School's supplies store. (haha)

Pagmano sa mga madre. 

Praying the rosary.

"Tusok-tusok" security guards. (lol)

Stopping from what I'm doing, then praying the Angelus.

Sandstorm. (charot) Well, the Pastor's Field.

Sports Festival. 

Booths ^

Faculty room. 

My teachers. (aww)

Study area.(elem and HS dept)

"I want to hear 1000 voices!" :)

Practices when there's an event at school like the Centennial Celebration.

MQP Auditorium. (2nd best audi in PH *woop woop*)

Friends I met at school :(

Listening and singing our hymn. (also our centennial hymn)

Recollections & Retreats.