Ogenius

Was just at graduation leaving the auditorium in line with all the other teachers. Someone was screaming my name, it’s not my graduation? I look over waving assuming it’s someone who knows me and a kid graduating. It’s my student, screaming my first name, looking so satisfied…

Oh, to live in a world where the people who think they only care about themselves, only cared about themselves.

Time to start daily defamations instead of affirmations because I don’t deserve to be treated nicely

At least my dreams are nicer to me than the world is.

If no one thinks I’m good, how am I supposed to think I’m good?

My problems leaving me with my dna. And as it runs down my skin like the tears from my eyes. It screams why was I born if I only feel the pain I give myself.

Sometimes I see the beauty my mother talks about in the mirror.

I truly don’t like sub coming to the notion of sleeping when things are going wrong. I find it makes time go by slower. I’d rather be out and feel drunk on sleep deprivity and not fully be aware of what’s going on. Then to be wide awake knowing that I’m still messing things up, breaking things and not being able to do anything about it.

What do you do when people leave you at your lowest?

Rip my brain out through my chest and call it my heart

you leave there’s some things you can never come back to.

I think if you are charismatic enough, you can get away with a lot of things.

Prove to yourself that you can do hard things.

Oh to love yourself and how you were made. To love fully love the body you were born in, to be happy with your ways, all the ins and outs of your being. Wow. That is something I’ll forever be envious of. Lucky.

I Hope you always listen to the songs that call to you. I hope you close your eyes and picture each word. Slowly. I Hope you always hold onto that. And know it’s true