of monsters and saints

It is Mikasa whimpering that sobers him up. She is honestly scared and he should know better. Mikasa was here now and he knows that scary  movies or stories alike are not her thing and that she indulges in them when she feel safe and secure. She was normal and he and the brat were just been insensitive bastard. He could feel a wave of mortification wash over him at how he let himself be rolled over with fantasies. He was glad it was dark, he was sure his face was red.

When she leans to rest against him he follows and at her sudden death grip on his wrist he swallows and lets her do as she pleases as well. His friends know that he does not like to be restricted or manhandled but  even if for a brief moment he felt his heart ate spike he knows she means no harm to him. None of them do.

“ It is going to be alright. I am going to walk right there to the fire mantle and light one of the candles first. Eren will stay with you and guard you and I will just walk down to the basement and reset the breaker box…” He had moved his other hand and  reached in the dark to touch her head. It took him a moment since it was dark. “This is my hand ok….” “here we go…” He  can tell her hair from Erens and he runs his fingers gently as he presses the  arm that she was holding for dear life in between them. He stretches his fingers to touch a chin.

““ thats me”“ Eren comments to which Levi replies “you alright brat.” ““yeah”“ it comes out a little soft and restrained but Levi doesnt catch it.

Levi pats  his face gently and then finds Mikasa’s face. He dares to guide himself closer to her and gives her a very soft kiss by the side of her chin and cheek inches from her lips. “We are all going to be alright. Just be a good girl for me ok..” He is voice is soft but commanding and he starts to untangle his legs from him both and pulling away. There was a soft grunt from Eren at the desentangle and Eren wraps both his arms around Mikasa’s waist and  craddles with more softness that he usually does. He alternates with running a hand over her hair. “” I got you Kasa…”“ He softly speaks.

There was a screeching of the coffee table as Levi pushes it and pats his way. It was his home and he knows the steps and distance of the items around the home. He would never accept that he has counted steps to make sure the items are neatly placed after he vacuums and cleans, he just wishes he had stopped at 2 full glasses of wine before. “Stay in the sofa or ya will throw me off.”

He reaches the mantle and breaths and pats softly with his fingers until he finds the wooden box there. Inside there are copies of his house keys, other miscellaneous and he softly smiles as he feels the cool silver lighter. He kept it there just in case Erwin stops by which he never does anymore….

He pushes he sour thought away and with a flick and a click he lets the flame give them some soft light. He turns to the other two and keeps a soft smile on his face. “its alright…” He knows where the large white decorative candle is and  lights it up just to place the candle inside the crystal bowl with the bottom of the popcorn. He didnt want to get wax on the table. The light its soft and around them and then he is making his way around the table to go to the basement.

“I will be back and  remember… “ He leans back unto the sofa and tugs Mikasa’s blanket gently “ The only monster in my house its me…” and with that he was gone with lighter in hand.

Eren just leaned his head against the sofa for a moment and lets out a sight.

“”How did you meet this man Kasa? I cant even..”

It took a moment for Mikasa to release either of the men, but her fingers went to Eren’s arms as they had wrapped around her waist. She kept still as Levi ran his fingers into her hair and lips were against her chin. As Levi had started to get up, she leaned her body more into Eren’s resting her head on his chest. 

Hearing the coffee table get pushed, she tensed up for a second then immediately relaxed knowing it was Levi. Seeing the first candle get lit, she looked up at Eren and smiled a bit. She knew there was nothing to worry about, but the storm had still scared her especially with it knocking out the power. Ever since she was a kid she was scared of the dark and she was that one person who would turn off the lights and then sprint out of a room to make sure some imaginary monster didn’t attack her. 

As the second one got lit and Levi made the comment about him being the only monster, she let out a small snort before hearing Eren’s question. 

“He’s friends with the boss,” she said simply, “He’d always come in at least once a week, then just one day he asked if I wanted to get lunch since it looked like I was having a bad day and boom we became friends.” 

It had just been a rough week at work for her when Levi had invited her to lunch. Stacks of paperwork, appointments needed made, coworkers being idiots, and her patience had been thin. She was essentially a paper clip away from a meltdown when Levi had come in for his weekly meeting with the boss. At that point, she just let him walk in unless there was a meeting going on so she just let him do whatever, but he had asked her if she was ok and she just shrugged. 

But he had just poked his head into the office it seemed and spoke briefly to Smith before stating that they were going to lunch. She didn’t understand and told them to have a nice lunch before he corrected himself and stated the two of them were going to lunch. Mikasa didn’t want to make the boss’s best friend mad so she agreed and he just let her unload all of her emotions out and about once a week they would grab lunch and just catch up. Then it turned into her going to his house every once in a while for tea and movies and then it turned into…whatever this was. 

He runs hand up and down her shoulder to try to sooth her. He made a question and he quietly listens to her response.

 “”How dreamy”” He mumbles because of course the man was a gentleman from one of  those fancy novel books or someshit like that. He could feel his face heating up at the memories of how the other had even treated him while living at his place. Weeks ago listening to Mikasa he would have set him off in the worst way but after experiencing  the things he had he was alright. 

“”Kasa. We are friends right?”” “”Like whatever in life and stuff that happens we are friends too right?. Like-”“ there was soft uncertainty there in his tone and he was opening up and showing some vulnerability.

She had shifted to face him more and his arms fit just right around her. He swallows and closes his eyes for a moment as he  rubs his  face against her hair. It was always very silky and pleasant to the touch.

 At Mikasa’s comment Levi added “ idi-ot! its what they are” He bumps his nose playfully against her face and then rests back at its place. He truly felt mellowed out. When was the last time he had felt so relaxed? Even thou Mikasa was in a protective sandwich of very capable, protective and deadly individuals he could not help but to also feel sheltered.

There were times Eren would just feel warm. Sometimes when he was in anger or embarrassed, whenever sex was involved, pretty much when strong emotions were felt Eren ran internal fevers, an odd occurrence that was just Eren. The man ran hot. He was feeling hot at the moment too. He was just grateful he was not breaking a sweat but having Mikasa and Levi so close in this matter was a little overwhelming and it stirred thoughts from before.

Part of him was immensely proud of himself because there was no tar of insecurity or jealousy threatening to choke him out. In fact he was very  chill about it and part of him questioned why this felt so normal and pleasant. Feeling Levi brush his fingers against his arms and just having Mikasa relax her frame against him made him feel very warm and delightful. He ponders when was the last time she was so close and placid with him.

Eren smiles and lens a bit closer to her ear to quite softly whisper “would you go into the dark room with no light?” and chuckles at the entire situation.  He had been laughing at some scenes in the movie but he tends to do that in very tense or horror films. He saw how Levi gently held her and knew there would be a scare jump in a moment to which he used to nip her ear.

The warmth of Eren’s body and the weight of Levi’s leaning against her, let Mikasa relax a bit. Feeling Levi’s nose brush against her face, she looked at him her lips accidentally brushing close to his before her face turned a bit red. 

She kept watching the movie before shivering hearing Eren’s question. Before she could answer, she saw another monster grab someone and buried part of her face into Eren’s chest. Her fingers went into Levi’s hair stroking it lightly as she tried to calm down a bit, but with the way the monsters were just popping out knew that wasn’t going to happen soon. 

Finally she answered Eren’s question with her own question, “Are you guys there with me or do I go in alone?” Her eyes looked up at him innocently, an expression that never came to her unless she was watching horror movies. It was the only time she knew that she would let one of them actually protect her even if it was just holding her or putting blankets around her body. 

““of course we will be with you always Mikasa”” and the words rang with pure trust and truthfulness. 

“if we are there, we will be with you till the end” Levi replies smoothly by her other ear and moves his hand to touch the other side of her face but Eren was there on that space. Mikasa could feel a sudden shiver from the younger man and Levi brushes a bit of his face against her jaw.

Then there was a crash of thunder, the light go out and a short but lewd grunt fills  the space between them as Mikasa’s hand pulls at Levi’s hair.  The older man replied instinctively by gripping at her waist where one hand rested and  into Eren’s neck to where he had been touching just previously. Mikasa could hear audibly has her previous boyfriend thickly swallows and lets out a gasp before just turning his face against Mikasa’s while also exposing more of his neck slightly. 

The noises were loud in the sudden obscured and silent room. Levi is the one to reply first as he undoes his grip on them both and very very slowly starts to move back. “its- umm.” “ I-” He lets out a soft cough to clear his throat and continues. “ I am going to flip the breakers. They in the basement-”

“” Dont run”“  Came firmly from Eren right by Mikasa’s neck as she could feel the man behind her run his hand that was slightly under her shirt and having been resting  around her waist move up slightly upwards, brush against the lower part of her bar and slide out to hold the other man  where he was, Eren even pulled Levi closer pressing a little more against Mikasa.

Now it was Erens turn to look at those two interact with each other. For too long he had been blinded by these insecure and raged feelings. Now he could just look at Mikasa and see her for herself. Of course she was very pretty to look at, her body was a machine she took the time and effort to keep in shape, but seen her in jammies she just looked soft and comfortable and just relaxed. He could not bring to mind a recent dare in where the two of them were together alone and she looked so comfortable. She was so chill even thou she was about to see a horror movie!

Now, there was also the guy. He was very close to her but there was this softness that made him look years younger, not that he didnt have these ridiculous youth looks about him , but Levi just looked mellowed out.

Eren just wanted to see more of that from both of them. He didnt want to think of his crisis or the future right now he just wanted them both to just be like this…

He had changed into his own set of pj pants and kept the same top and just scoots into Mikasas other side. He just shies away from touching her because he wasent sure of their boundaries now and because he didnt want to make her uncomfortable.

Once the movie started he automatically went in to hold her hand since he could feel a jump scare was about to come any moment now. He didnt even think about it but he was just there for her. Like he had been for the last four year and in their younger days.

As she felt someone’s hand grab hers, she knew exactly what was going to happen. Seeing the lights go out in the movie and a monster pop out, she immediately screamed a little and squeezed Eren’s hand. Her face buried into the blanket more before poking an eye out to see if it was safe. 

Then a crash of thunder ripped through the air outside the home which promptly scared her again. When did it start raining outside? Normally it was comforting for her, but in the middle of the movie scared her more. 

She didn’t even feel her body move as she pressed her back into Eren’s shoulder and grabbed Levi to hold him close to her. It was an automatic reaction. Her arms had wrapped around his waist tightly and just felt safe with the both of the guys there. 

Both of them were familiar to her with the horror movies. Eren always made her feel protected and Levi always making a shell for her to hide in, but having both of them close made her feel even more protected. 

  At Mikasa’s comment Levi added “ idi-ot! its what they are” He bumps his nose playfully against her face and then rests back at its place. He truly felt mellowed out. When was the last time he had felt so relaxed? Even thou Mikasa was in a protective sandwich of very capable, protective and deadly individuals he could not help but to also feel sheltered.

There were times Eren would just feel warm. Sometimes when he was in anger or embarrassed, whenever sex was involved, pretty much when strong emotions were felt Eren ran internal fevers, an odd occurrence that was just Eren. The man ran hot. He was feeling hot at the moment too. He was just grateful he was not breaking a sweat but having Mikasa and Levi so close in this matter was a little overwhelming and it stirred thoughts from before.

 Part of him was immensely proud of himself because there was no tar of insecurity or jealousy threatening to choke him out. In fact he was very  chill about it and part of him questioned why this felt so normal and pleasant. Feeling Levi brush his fingers against his arms and just having Mikasa relax her frame against him made him feel very warm and delightful. He ponders when was the last time she was so close and placid with him.

A few minutes into the movie hunting Eren came in with some popcorn to which Levi surprisingly didnt complain about. Then Eren proceeded to have Mikasa scoot to the side and picked up a very surprised and offended looking olderman from the chair to the sofa, placing him right next to Mikasas side and even merged both their blankets. The man was stunt at the boldness of the young man to which this one replied to him

“” old man you are ridiculous, you the damn sofa of your own house. You only sit in it when Hange is here. Mikasa wont bite you…“” he raises and hands Levi back his wine glass as he winks at Mikasa “” you have to ask her nicely for that"“ and Eren turned away to look for his own blanket in his room.

Levi just leaned his face a little over to Mikada as he barely whispers “is this how he acts when he is in a good mood? No respect. I do what I want?”

He lifts his glass and take a deep drink “ kill me” he whispers but leaned in closet and even moved his feet up to tuck them under him. He was obviously into his drinks by now.

“Oh yeah,” she said nonchalantly as she got comfortable herself downing the rest of her wine. It didn’t take her long until she got snuggled into the armrest, a normal position for her when it came to movie night. 

“Only if you kill me too.” Getting up for a moment, she let Levi know she was going to get changed since she was going to stay the night and disappeared herself. It didn’t take her long until she returned in a pair of sleep shorts and a black tank top. Going back into her blanket fort, she got comfortable again. 

Now it was Erens turn to look at those two interact with each other. For too long he had been blinded by these insecure and raged feelings. Now he could just look at Mikasa and see her for herself. Of course she was very pretty to look at, her body was a machine she took the time and effort to keep in shape, but seen her in jammies she just looked soft and comfortable and just relaxed. He could not bring to mind a recent dare in where the two of them were together alone and she looked so comfortable. She was so chill even thou she was about to see a horror movie!

Now, there was also the guy. He was very close to her but there was this softness that made him look years younger, not that he didnt have these ridiculous youth looks about him , but Levi just looked mellowed out.

Eren just wanted to see more of that from both of them. He didnt want to think of his crisis or the future right now he just wanted them both to just be like this...

He had changed into his own set of pj pants and kept the same top and just scoots into Mikasas other side. He just shies away from touching her because he wasent sure of their boundaries now and because he didnt want to make her uncomfortable.

He casually checks her out and archs a brow at the boots. “you look nice” He was wearing a royal blue button up, rolled just before his elbows with some homey slacks and was barefooted because he knew his home was unblemish. He had also spent the morning cleaning up, so he was feeling proud.

The older man walked closer when Eren pops up from the other side with a bright smile. He was wearing a v neck in a dark green shade, some jeans and sneakers. “Hey Ka-” “hey Mikasa” he  just waves at her as he keeps his distance for a moment.

Mikasa smile a bit, “Thanks.” She could feel the tension already between her and the older man again but ignored it especially when he gave her a smile. “I’ll just take tea. We both know I hate driving even if I had a glass of wine.” Going to one of the seats, she sat down before hearing Eren. 

Looking over she couldn’t help but joke, “Hey, congrats on making parole buddy.” Over the weeks she was trying to find a way to tell Eren that she just wanted to be friends for the moment. They both had a lot of growing to do, and together they wouldn’t be able to help each other with it even with all of the therapy he got. She had talked to Hanji a few times, but Mikasa herself had a hard time opening up to her own problems so they could never progress further no matter how many times the doctor pressed into her. 

 “’Its been some weeks... Has it been a month?”’ He tilts his head and turns to look at the other man as he was taking out the chicken and just squeezing some fresh orange juice on top of its crisp skin. 

“ a bit over a month. You better pour that in a glass. “ The older man said to which Eren replied with a “” Yeah ..Yeah...”” as he moved behind Levi placed his hand over the mans back and reached over to grab a glass.

 In the time Eren has been in the house Levi and Eren had just been physical, It went from punching each other or at least Eren had tried to do so fervently at the start, to Eren been in choke holds, to cautious touches that meant to comfort and support him.

 It was an odd dynamic that they had fallen into; even Hange had commented about it but Levi had given him a look, one of those the Eren could not decipher yet and then he just shrugged and said he didn't mind. Then he turned very serious and told Eren very clearly he didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable and that if he did he should tell him right away. Levi was a grumpy but serious man. He was also honest and reliable. Eren learned to take the mans words for  true and to appreciate him. At Mikasa’s shoes comment Erens attention when back to the woman and he made his way around the counter to take the sight if her. He lets out a playful whistle and a charming laugh “”That they do. You look great”” It has been sometime since his laughter had been so lighthearted. 

The little island was where Levi usually set the meals at but for tonight he had pulled open the small convertible table by the wall. It was one of those space saving furniture that was usually use as a two seater. He had expanded it enough for four people tonight. He had turned to look at Eren has he had laughed and could not stop himself from having that soft smile once more.  Levi noticed Eren clean up nicely, he was clean shaved and he had cut his hair to a shoulder height. Levi thinks the other would look good with short hair but Eren wanted to kept some length to it even thou he kept it in topknots and buns. 

Levi rested the caserole on the table and moved again to grab a bottle of wine and a large wine glass. He felt he was gonna need the wine tonight as he had to handle these two youngsters. “Mikasa, would you like to eat now?” “Also I can also uber you back to your place or you can stay in your -” “the spare room that you always stay at. “ He said and failed to not look at the womans legs. So he did and then looked back up to her face to hear her out.

"what a glow when you're living true"

Eren stands and reaches to take one of her hands. ”“ is it real? We really over?”“ He does not want to have this conversation here but he needs to know and part of him is glad there are people here. Maybe he wont lose it and if he does the older man would stop him. Eren can understand why this place and these people are her safety net.

”“ I can go away. You can stay here with your friends”“ Eren adds in a moment of clarity. Because honestly he wants what’s best for her even if it’s not himself even thou he is constantly fighting himself from desires and morality.

On the other side as Levi listens to the younger woman he could feel himself just settle into himself. Into that quiet cold self. He does not know how or when Mikasa had come to this conclusion that they had been treating her like a toy, that HE was treating her like a thing. It just runs him the wrong way, bring back unwanted thoughts.

” I apologize for my I’ll manners. Keep safe.“ He tells Mikasa as he looks at her for a moment and turns to go to his kitchen. He stops for a moment and adds “Mr. Jaeger, I want to speak with you so do not leave this house ” it was a command. With that he was out of sight.

Hange gave them their space and made themselves comfortable by the entrance door with her car keys in hand. She would take Mikasa home and there would be no No for an answer.

“Eren, I just said that I need time to myself,” she said firmly as she went back to her bag and picked it up. She seemed shocked herself hearing him ask if they were really over, “A..are you fucking shitting me? Yes, we’re done. I’m going to ask Sasha if I can stay with her while I look for a new place.” 

She only felt like she was treated like a toy when both the boys were together not separately. Any time all three were together it was constant tugging and yelling about her and it happened the second Eren walked in. By themselves, they could be normal and have good conversations, but together was a blood bath. 

Hearing Hanji say they would give her a ride home, she only shook her head and denied one but got into a small argument about it. Finally, she agreed to one with a sigh before heading out the door with the doctor behind her. “I’ll call you both when I’m home.” she commented before closing the door. 

It didn’t seem long until she was sitting on the back porch smoking a cigarette as she stewed in her thoughts. She didn’t need that much space, just a bed and she was good. The apartment already looked like a war zone with her going through her things and throwing things she didn’t need away and having other things in some bags she had. 

Before Hange made it to the house Eren had attempted to knock Levi two more times. After the other got to the house Eren had tried to punch him four more times. There was talking. A lot of talking had been done. Eren felt angry and sick and tiredness. At the end of the day he was exhausted and his headache was splitting his  head. 

In between the yelling, attempts of fights and the crying Eren had accepted the oldest man proposition of staying over. Along with some ground rules the older people came up for him; things like ‘Dont harass Mikasa’ ‘Dont break items in the house, Dont leave the house. Talk out loud what he was feeling, Dont try to fight anyone in the bathroom, kitchen or bedrooms. Dont call Mikasa without supervision.  

It was ridiculous. It was not even guaranteed that Mikasa would give him a chance or that she would want to be with him anymore. But, he had really come to accept that  there was a problem with himself and he needed to change it. 

 Levi had moved him to the other guest room claiming that the previous room was Mikasa’s. It irked him. The first three days where spend fighting, either verbally or physically or so he tried. The other man was too good at evading him and he did over and over until Eren exhausted himself, most of the time it ended in his screaming his lungs out. The police stopped by once,  Eren found it odd how  pleasant there were with the older man, even saying ‘sorry’. What the fuck was that about?! After that he noticed that every time Eren threw a fit it had been in the gym room downstairs. 

Then came the talking. He had talking sessions with the weirdo Hange that he could not figure out if they were a dude or a chick and they would never rile up at any of Erens comments. Levi over heard him and slapped him so hard Eren lost all interest in questioning or been rude to them. That was wrong of him and he regretted it. That was one thing they helped him realize. He would say and do things and it didn't even felt like it was him who had just done that. What that how he was with Mikasa? 

 Hange had lots of questions for Eren. it was frustrating but  he was working through them. When it got to overwhelming Levi was there, at first he would just try to jump him, then it turned to sparing and then it turned to coaching.  At some point a treadmill had made its way downstairs and Levi would be there telling him to run straight, to lift his legs higher, to hop or to run it faster. The man was diligent and it helped. He tired him until his mind was blank and it was only his own body screaming and burning. Then there would be questions and he would just blurt out what came to that white space. Some of it was very ugly or scary or coated in fear but most of it was sad yet there was no judgement from any of them. Days rolled by and he felt a little better, somewhat lighter. 

Then came the outside exercises. He knew Hange and Levi had planned it and he felt odd, as if he were a lab rat. They would go to meet in different places, Mikasa would join them and Eren would be just across from them. The first time was at a part and Eren stood with Hange on the sidewalks and on the benches across Mikasa was sitting down. Then Levi would join her and they would talk and then he would put a hand on her shoulder or her knee. Eren could feel his heartbeat elevating and he was gripping the fence after he saw Levi leaning in an wrapping his hands  over her shoulders and waist.  That first time he had tried to hit Levi when the other came towards him. They had to call it early. In the way to the house there was a vivid discussion, a fight and then a talk  and in the talk he was sunned to silence when Hange lifted her phone and showed him his own face and words. Like a sobering bucket of water.  He had somethings to think over. 

Then came more and more exercises. To which he had to see and react and see how he was going to react. From seen her with friends, to watching her intact in the gym with others and then the interaction between Levi and Mikasa. That was was the hardest  and it took the longest to answer when Hange made questions. His jealousy  was rooted to his insecurities and fears. When he looked at those two interacting it felt a little different than usual. While having a solo convo with Hange he realizes he needed to add envy into his list of ugly feelings. 

Days had turned into weeks and he had seen interact with different individuals, his hardest scenarios were when she was with strangers, but he was getting to the point of just not getting lividly angry. In one of the occasions he just  pushed himself from the car and turned to Hange and told them he didnt really wanted to watch anymore and he went ahead and jogged back home. 

He loves her and he cares but he didnt want to be a slave of his faults.

When Hange and Levi got to house to find a tranquil Eren making something to eat in the kitchen Hange decided to clear him from the house arrest and Eren almost dropped his cup when he saw the other man give out a soft smile as the medic chatted him up.

He was studying some booklets Hange  shoved his way when Levi knocked on the door letting him know Mikasa would be visiting later in the day. To which Eren smiled and decided to shower and prep for her. He wonders how is she.

At Mikasas comment Eren bristles like a cat and tries to remove his hand but it was not Levi gripping him. Eren was not winning that one.

Levi just arched a brow as he turned to look at her.

Hange had been quick but through in her inspection and was looking in her bag for some pills. She gave two packs to Mikasa. One was a cute slick inbox for birth control and the other were some nice pain killers. Then they moved towards Levi to hand them some migraine pills and she was checking his eyes with the flashlight. “ I’ll kill you” Hange just kept laughing at them.

“ is Mikass the one? You finally going to let someone bring some sense into your boxes one, you grumps ”* Hange looked down at the man just to see him frown even harder while Eren just looked at all of them interacting.

“ Kasa is it like this all the time you come here?” Levi had released the mans hand to try to pry Hangi of them. The older man added “ where you going?” As he looks at Mikasa

Mikasa took the pills and went over to her bag sliding them after taking one of the pain killers. Hearing Eren’s question she shrugged a little, “Yes and no,” she said simply. 

“This is like the…third time? I’ve seen Hanji but at this point I’ll trust them with open heart surgery on me.” A small stretch came out of her as she tried cracking her back before looking at Levi. 

“I realized that I need actual time alone,” a small sigh came from her, “You know I love coming here whether I’m a wreck from hell or happy as can be, but you two are suffocating me currently. So instead of saying that and then hearing you two proceed to kill each other about it, I’m removing myself personally.” 

Eren stands and reaches to take one of her hands. "" is it real? We really over?"" He does not want to have this conversation here but he needs to know and part of him is glad there are people here. Maybe he wont lose it and if he does the older man would stop him. Eren can understand why this place and these people are her safety net.

"" I can go away. You can stay here with your friends"" Eren adds in a moment of clarity. Because honestly he wants what's best for her even if it's not himself even thou he is constantly fighting himself from desires and morality.

On the other side as Levi listens to the younger woman he could feel himself just settle into himself. Into that quiet cold self. He does not know how or when Mikasa had come to this conclusion that they had been treating her like a toy, that HE was treating her like a thing. It just runs him the wrong way, bring back unwanted thoughts.

" I apologize for my I'll manners. Keep safe." He tells Mikasa as he looks at her for a moment and turns to go to his kitchen. He stops for a moment and adds "Mr. Jaeger, I want to speak with you so do not leave this house " it was a command. With that he was out of sight.

Eren  was sound asleep, just drifting in the nothingness. No dreams thankfully. of course this lasted until Mikasa’s shout. He was stilling up and jumped out of the bed.

He was disoriented but continued to move to where the sounds where coming from. The adjoined bathroom of the spare room. He yanks the door open  and halfway slides inside ““KASA! What!”” He was focusing on the the room and zooming on her has she was inside the tub with a plastic  curtain and a rod on top of her. Also she was naked? ““ you-You good??!””

Eren was all wobbly worried as he stumbles closer and starts pulling the rod away from her “” are you hurt?”” He was so distraught. He didn’t even notice Levi coming in.

Levi had bolted at the sound of Mikasa’s scream. He was sure he broke something in the kitchen. Entering the spare, there was no Eren on the bed and he could feel himself riling, a few steps more and he just sees Mikasa slump in the tub with Eren atop of her. Everything boils up and he is slamming the other man against the tiled wall, they all can hear the cracking of the tiles.

“What did you do!”  He venoms  and tries to look at Mikasa. “Are you ok”

He had his arms around Eren’s neck  as this one was crawling at the hands. It had happen to fast  Eren didnt even had time to properly breath.

A small groan came out of her as she felt the rod hit her head, but looked a bit shocked seeing Eren bust open the door. Feeling the rod coming off of her, she nodded and started to answer, but was interrupted by Levi throwing him into the wall. 

“Hey!” She was standing not realizing that she was naked in front of them. “Let him go! I’m fine!” Getting out of the tub, she walked over to the boys, trying not slip on the way, and grabbed Levi’s wrists looking at him, “It was just a spider and I fell. That’s it.” 

That was when she realized her own predicament. Releasing the man’s wrists, she quickly grabbed a towel and covered herself. Looking at the shower, she started putting the rod and curtain back into the place before bitching at the two. 

Levi was just processing going from  zero to a hundred to back to zero. He hadn't truly processed that Mikasa was naked until she went to reach for a towel. He only gave her a slow cat like blink and turns away to a face a glaring Eren  that had slapped his  side twice. 

“” Stop looking at her bastard”” 

“Come on “ Levi had turned to the man and was attempting to help him up. With disgruntled comments, they had managed to get out of the bathroom. 

There was some sudden shouting between them, some slapping, some yanking and then it was quiet. 

Eren sat in the living room once more with a splitting headache but at least a full stomach.  This situation was  ridiculous. He got dumped, slapped to submission, then got a panic attack and had to be consoled by his ex and the submission guy. Then get woken up, screamed by the ex and this bastard and then feed and spoken too.  He was also pretty sure one of this teeth had become lossen. He fucking hated this, he had no insurance for fucks sake.

Also this Levi guy was a fucker. He does not know what Mikasa sees in him but he can actually feel it? He cant describe it , its a duo feeling of wanting to fight and listen to the older man. Soon enough there was a knock on the door and the guy went to attend it. Eren wanted to leave but the other had told him to wait. Now another weirdo was there and had started to examinate him over. Eren could feel goosebumps and everything ended up with Levi sitting next to him holding one of his hands. Their name was Hangi and as they flashed the light on his eyes she cleared him from a concussion but recommended rest. Eren was just so confused and became more confused. “”Why we holding hands?”” “Because you an idiot and I need you to be present and chill the fuck out.” was the mans reply as the other one just bursts out in laughter.

When Mikasa entered the area Hanjis eyes lit up with joy “Come on! Its your turn” Mikasa had meet Hanji about two times and it had been briefly. In this house there were some pictures of this person around. Levi had mention that they were a troublemaker but smart, something like them been military medic.  When she asked him how they knew each other Levi has just replied not to mind them much. 

Watching her sit on the floor he sighs and sits across from her to join her. He starts with a big gulp of his tea. This morning was just some premium black tea straight. no sugar or creamer.

He almost chokes on his toast as she talks to him so casually. That was a tough. He had stopped counting birthdays and his age long time ago. Yes, he was older but he looks youthful and has always kept his body in impeccable shape. Now, when it came to deepening relationships with others heh ad always acted or been placed into this older type category. When he was young it was “you are such a mature guy” or “ you are just an ‘old soul’” He had lived like that for so long. Now, when younger people engaged him he defaulted to “ I am too old for this or that” just to brush them off and it would stick. People dont question much and let him me on his own.

“ I dont think you are weird.” “Age should not be a big matter between adults” “We meet and I just happen to be  in an older rage gap than you” “…” He drinks once more. He will be needing more tea. “If I you decide to date someone my age then I am pretty sure I will have to scrutinize them and make sure they are not some creepo but you are a fine, sensible adult. I believe in you”  

He was about to take another bite but looks up at her “Do I-” “ I look quite old dont I?” “ like if you are ever uncomfortable with me in public you know you cant tell me to fuck off.” “you are young and a woman and I do not want you to ever feel ashamed or something like that because of me. you understand that” His mouth felt a little chalky as this talk develops.

Of course a young, sexy looking woman like Mikasa might feel turn off by a short old man like himself in public. Not only was he totally not in her guy radar, he was not sure he was in her ‘senile old granpa’ radar.

It has been a while since he felt slightly subconscious. He places his tea down and runs his fingers over the hair by the side of his scar, making sure the hair falls over his

face instead of  running it back his ear.

Mikasa had taken a bite out of her own toast and almost choked on it hearing him. “Mother fucker I remember when we first met and you told me how you were I immediately asked for your id because I thought you were full of shit.” she started laughing. It was a full laugh at the memory, a laugh that never came around often. 

She’s remembered many random trips they took to stores or just walking around and never felt uncomfortable with him. As she calmed down from laughing, she took in a deep breath. “This is really good by the way, thank you for breakfast.” 

Seeing his hair fall covering his face, she leaned over and slid her fingers through it so it was out of it before finishing her breakfast. It only took her a moment to stand and wash her dishes and put them on the drying rack. 

“I’m gonna go take a shower if that’s cool so I’m not all sweaty.” She didn’t even wait for an answer before she snuck into the spare room trying not to wake up Eren as she grabbed yet another change of clothes before going into the bathroom. 

As she got herself clean, she kept going back to thinking about the two guys. She loved both of them dearly, but she also knew she wanted to be just single for a while to get herself back together. The thoughts kept pouring before she saw something strange. Focusing a bit, she saw a spider in front of her just hanging out. 

Eren  was sound asleep, just drifting in the nothingness. No dreams thankfully. of course this lasted until Mikasa’s shout. He was stilling up and jumped out of the bed. 

He was disoriented but continued to move to where the sounds where coming from. The adjoined bathroom of the spare room. He yanks the door open  and halfway slides inside ““KASA! What!”” He was focusing on the the room and zooming on her has she was inside the tub with a plastic  curtain and a rod on top of her. Also she was naked? ““ you-You good??!””

 Eren was all wobbly worried as he stumbles closer and starts pulling the rod away from her “” are you hurt?”” He was so distraught. He didn't even notice Levi coming in.

Levi had bolted at the sound of Mikasa’s scream. He was sure he broke something in the kitchen. Entering the spare, there was no Eren on the bed and he could feel himself riling, a few steps more and he just sees Mikasa slump in the tub with Eren atop of her. Everything boils up and he is slamming the other man against the tiled wall, they all can hear the cracking of the tiles. 

“What did you do!”  He venoms  and tries to look at Mikasa. “Are you ok” 

Eren blinked and tried to  reach for her again but Levi’s grip was getting tighter. The other man looked at the other and opted to ignore Mikasa’s comment as he continue “You will not grad at her in my house” Levi’s voice was cold as ice and Eren pulled harder at him as they still remained by the  entryway of the house. Levi continued “and you will not be breaking  anything here either.”

To which Eren replied with “” Like hell. Let me go!””

Levi twisted the arm to the inner  side between both of them.

“You will not raise your voice or scream either”

To which Eren replied  “” Who the fuck you think you are you pint size mother-”

TWACK. The slapping sound echoed inside the home as Levi stood his ground and Eren stood motionless for  a few heart beats. “”YOU!!”” Eren manages somehow in his rage and Levi replied with another open handed slap. This one brought blood out of the corner of the younger mans lip.  

“This is a quick way for your type to learn things and I will make you LISTEN for how long it takes.” Levi says as Eren is setting up to throw at him but cant get his hand out of the death grip the other has. Levi yanks him forward as he himself stars moving backwards into the living room but he stops at that edge. If he needed to trash the young man he rather do it in the small hallway than an open space. its less hassle to clean. “So Eren what is it gonna be?” Levi asks.

““ I’ll-fucking-kill–”“ He grits in rage and Levi sides as Eren hops forward to kick him. He almost contacted but Levi used the grip on Erens hand to make him miss as he follows up with another hard slap, this time making contact by Erens high cheekbone and part of his ear. Eren stumbles as he tries to remain on his feet and curses.

“You gonna chill enough to be able to sit , you fucking brat?” Levi had raised his voice as he was getting annoyed but drags a stumbling Eren and shoves him into the sofa.  

“Since you we are in Hell. I will monitor you both as you talk this bullshit out.” He points at Eren as he makes his way to the kitchen. “you will behave in my house!” and he walks out to get a clean cloth, make coffee and start on breakfast.

Eren sat on the sofa with a bleeding nose and lip and slightly dazed at the fast encounter just now. He was angry but not simmering as he was outside.

Mikasa only had a blank stare at Eren. She obviously wasn’t impressed by the situation from either of them.

“Remember,” she nodded towards the kitchen, “He’s the one that helps me with my punches.” 

Sitting up, she took in a deep breath. “Are you done being a jealous ass now? Nothing has happened between Levi and I at all.” Her voice lowered to imitate Eren’s.

“But you're always here!” Her voice returned back to normal. “Because he lets me express myself openly here! He lets me just get all of my emotions out without feeling like I have to answer a million and one questions. I came here crying last night and what did he do? He let me cry, made me coffee, and then let me go to bed. That was it.” 

She obviously was keeping out details of them talking about everything, but it wasn’t important to divulge into that for her. 

Leaning over, she rested her hands on her thighs as she looked at him, “I love you, I do. We all know this. Everyone knows that I would go to the ends of the Earth for you, but I’m fucking done with this. I’m not happy. I deserve to be happy, and you holding over my head that if I leave you will make me like everyone else is not fair. 

“I have done everything to make this work. I have given you my phone every time you’ve asked for it. I’ve stopped doing things I liked doing because they made you uncomfortable and jealous. I’ve let you get away with a lot more things that I should ever have like you grabbing me just now or when we’re at the gym. But until you decide that you want to make this work and decide that you want to work on this jealousy thing, I’m gone. You can have the apartment, I will gladly find a new one because you’re the one who found it originally.” 

““ I will not have you move out. I will leave...”” He bends down and places his head in his hands and breaths. ““ I dont want you gone but I understand its not fair.. I dont even know why. How I become like this. I “”  He could not look at her because he is afraid he is going to grab her and kiss her and bite her. He is afraid he will hurt her and at least he has never harmed her physically. He really thinks he could not forgive himself if he ever did. Eren was gripping his arms so hard his  nails dug in.

“”Hmm.. I am ... So”” ““ I am sorry for your pain..”” ““that I gave you..”” He said in between breaths. He could feel his gaze clouding up so he opens his mouth an takes a deep breath but he feels like theres no oxygen going in. He releases a hand from himself to cover his mouth and breath again. They were coming shorter and shorter. He was spiraling to the point of getting an attack. ““Hmm”“ came out pained as he attempts to stand up so he could flee. He needed to get out. ““ I’ll go ok”“ He managed to make it to the edge of the sofa as he  has to bend down and opens his mouth to gasp. 

Levi was there about to  stop him but Eren didnt want anyone touching him. He looked like an animal been cornered. 

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