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I'm a Japanese Giant Hornet

buzz... 羽音が buzz... 止まらず あたしから蜜なんて吸えませんが 来る 変わらずここに居たbug 変わった周囲 イエローと黒の虫だから 惚れられちゃうっぽい

Buzz… my wings go buzz… it won’t stop You can’t taste the honey that seeps from me, but I’m coming anyway Here was a bug, unchanged, in changed surroundings It’s a yellow and black insect, so you might get drawn to it

毒持つ僕の苦 忘れてるようだ 溢れる蜜に集う 愛でる All guys ただ「ミツバチ バズり中だし」だけで 無価値な他の蜂まで付く価値 評価 実体なき寵愛

Looks like they’ve forgotten the pain of my poison The ones who gather around the overflowing honey and admire it are all guys “Bees are just what’s trending now,” They place such value and comments on the other worthless bees and nothing else It’s affection with no substance

サナギで藻掻いてた頃は 無視されたが Body 変態した途端 雄バチどもが buzz…

I was ignored when I was writhing in my chrysalis But as my body was perversely transformed, the drones went buzz… 

毒あり 毒あり ずっと 毒針 毒針がある どんなに どんなに 経っても アナフィラキシー要注意 Chu Chu 毒あり 毒あり 一生 毒針 毒針がある どんなに どんなに環境変わり  but I am a "menace

Poisonous forever, I’ve got a poison stinger Time may pass by a lot But you still gotta watch out for anaphylaxis, chu chu Poisonous for life, I’ve got a poison stinger The environment may change up a lot but I am a “menace”

あたしぶんぶんぶん　きみもぶんぶんぶん みだりぶんぶんぶん　集るぶんぶんぶん

I buzz-buzz-buzz, you too will buzz-buzz-buzz All over the place, buzz-buzz-buzz, all in one place, buzz-buzz-buzz

buzz... 羽音が buzz... 止まらねえ あたしから蜜なんて吸えませんが 来る 図らずも頭数に入れられる イエローと黒の虫ならば 誰でもいいのね

Buzz… my wings go buzz… I won’t stop You can’t taste the honey that seeps from me, but I’m coming anyway Even if you don’t plan for it, I can count you in the swarm[1] If it’s a yellow and black insect, anyone would be fine

Honeyはありやしないがしかし 甘味並みな至福や 有毒の句、曲をクドく投稿 億の中毒者　 丸くなったって？ カドあり過ぎて丸に見える角形 内角の和 不可説不可説転 過度に甲高え歌で刺す

Not a single drop of honey to be found, but the sweet taste is a common blessing Uploading a verbose song filled with verses laced with poison, there’s a million people addicted I lost my edge, they say? A comment so pointed it makes polygons look like circles The sum of the internal angles is innumerable I’ll pierce you all with an overly shrill song

あんなに「耳障りだ」つってたくせにね 調子良さそうな時だけ 雄バチどもが buzz…

They once said that I was grating on the ears, But only when I look like I’m in good shape do the drones go buzz…

毒あり 毒あり ずっと 毒針 毒針がある どんなに どんなに 経っても アナフィラキシー要注意 Chu Chu 簡単には靡かない そんな必要ないガール アンタに半端についた チンケな針じゃシビレもしないわ

Poisonous forever, I’ve got a poison stinger Time may pass by a lot But you still gotta watch out for anaphylaxis, chu chu I don’t sway easily, I’m that useless kinda girl I won’t numb the pain of the lame needle I half-heartedly put in you

Buzz breaks the rules, and venom bows down I'm a Japanese Giant Hornet あたしぶんぶんぶん A fleeting boom boom boom

Buzz breaks the rules, and venom bows down I'm a Japanese Giant Hornet I buzz-buzz-buzz A fleeting boom boom boom

調子良いときはフレンド それが自然の定め 調子悪いときは見捨てる それが自然の定め

You're my friend when I’m in good shape That’s the law of nature You'll leave me when I’m in bad shape  That’s the law of nature

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Small notes:

強さこそが幸せになれる鍵だなんて 思い違いみたいだ 私が私じゃないみたい 嗚呼何ももうしたくないの

To think that strength was the key to becoming happy was a mistake on my part It feels like I’m not myself Ah, I don’t want to do anything anymore

甘い言葉でゆっくり 首を絞めて楽になれる 「もう苦しまないで」なんて 私　信じ込んだ

Things could be easier if you used sweet words to slowly strangle me ‘It won't hurt anymore,’ I truly believed that

私の生きる意味を教えて 痛みと共存してきたから 治療した貴方が責任取って 意味を与えてね

Tell me why I should be alive I’ve always lived with this pain so you, who cured me, take responsibility and give me a reason

「ごめんなさい」もちゃんと言えるし お野菜だって毎日食べるから 貴方の手でちゃんと終わらせてね 私のこと

I can say, ‘I’m sorry’ properly and I eat my vegetables everyday so do it right with your own two hands, and end me

誰か　私を見ていてほしいなんて 言葉にできなかった ねえなんで　貴方のせいで 私ずっと丸裸なんだ

I could never really put into words just how much I wanted someone to see me Hey, why is it that because of you, I’ve always been completely naked?

全部君の言う通りにして さよなら、戯言 間違えてばかりの私を 𠮟っていて

Following every single thing you say, I say farewell to nonsense To me, who does nothing but make mistakes, scold me

私の生きる意味を教えて こんな寄りかかってしまったら 一人ではぐらついて歩けないの ね、またしたり顔。 保証のない「愛してる」も 返事のない夜も嫌だから 貴方の手でちゃんと終わらせてね 私のこと

Tell me why I should be alive If you come this close I won’t be able to walk unsteadily alone Hey, you’re giving me that triumphant look again I hate hearing ‘I love you’ with no assurance and the nights you don’t reply to me as well so do it right with your own two hands, and end me

貴方の合図で 私は綻び 照らされてしまう 光が似合うよ、と。

機動隊ならサッと来ないけど 一途なんなら爆ぜる恋はして。 不恰好でもきっと大丈夫よ 東口はずっと大混乱

If the riot squad is there, I’m not coming quickly But you should feel a bursting love if you think about it too much Even if it’s awkward, it’s alright, I’m sure! There’ll always be a bustling crowd in the east exit

ただ待つだけの方が省エネね バッテリーも残すは後4% …って、もう！！ みんな、未だ、多分、不安の真最中

Simply just waiting is probably better for conserving energy? My battery’s on 4% …goddamnit!! Everyone’s anxiety is on full swing, still is, probably 

いま何限目？ 先はごめんね まだ眠たいね…

What period is it now? Apologies in advance, I still wanna sleep, y’know…

其ん時しか見えない物 しか見たくはないもの！ 不透明な夜に 光無くしたら

That time was all I could see, the one thing I wanted to see! When the light dies out in an opaque night,

手を伸ばせば触れそうな程 星が降っていた！ ふと見下げたら ほら、小さな私達が居た

慊焉的な蒙昧さゆえ 眼が辷るような最終話が 回送列車の中、揺られている

As a result of this blissful ignorance, like eyes slipping, the final episode is swaying in the deadhead train

鮮明な夢のような、損な感覚 心拍する掌上の中 貴女の首を、ただ絞めている

A disadvantageous sensation, like a fresh dream I feel my pulse beating in my palms as I wring your neck in them

博奕な恋 思い出は重い手で終わらせなくちゃ 未だ 硝子の管で日々を繋いでいる

This love is a gamble I have to end these memories in these heavy hands The days are still held together by glass tubes

最低な言葉を贈るよ 「僕なんて、死ねば善かった。」 最近は屹度だけ、貴女を手繰るだけ 心臓も眼球も鼓膜も 貴女の身體に植えられたら 自嘲していた

I’ll give you the worst possible words that I can, “I’d be better off dead.” Certainly, as of late I’ve just been pulling you in Heart, eyeballs and eardrums, if I were to plant them into your body, I said, as if mocking myself,

「トピアリーみたい。」

“It’s like a topiary.”

見世物に成り果てるなら 一層の事、贋物になろう 花奢な指先に触れている

In the end, everything ends up just being for show I’d much rather everything have been fake I’m being held by fragile fingertips

辺鄙な好意 後悔とも呼べないような喪失感を 貴女を諦めきれず無為に縋っている

A goodwill that’s hard to reach Instead of giving up on you, I’m idly clinging onto a feeling of loss that can’t exactly be called regret

最低な日々を送ろう 誰にだって邪魔が出来ないような 二人きりの逃避行 貴女を拐って擧げる 死にたいなんて云う洗脳を 僕が取り払えるように 薬剤とC2H5OH

Let’s give them the worst possible days such that no one will be able to get between us I’ll take you away, so we can make our escape, just the two of us So that I can undo the brainwashing that convinces you that you want to die, here is some medicine and ethanol

さあ、飲み干して

Now, drink up

縦横無尽にきらめくライト 鳴り響く巡回車 警笛 「じゃあ、逃げよう?」

Brilliant lights sparkling everywhere you look, and the resounding sirens of patrol cars “So, shall we run away?”

凡てを振り切って

Break free from everything

「赤熱の火焔なんかよりも、 　三六度五分の方がずっと温かいよ。 　間違っているかな。」

“36.5 degrees celsius always felt warm to me, more so than the flames of red-hot heat. Am I wrong to think so?”

ふたりきりでえいえんにいようね はぐれないようにてをつないで

Let’s be together, just the two of us Take my hand so we won’t get separated

離さないでいて？

Please, don’t let go?

白い脂肪も筋肉組織も 吐き出しそうな鉄の匂いも 鼻腔が遮って愛惜しく感じている 悲劇的な喜劇の最後は 盛大な拍手とフィナーレ 逃避は大健闘

The white adipose, the muscle tissue The sickening scent of iron They all block my nasal cavities, I feel it so painfully and dearly At the very end of this tragic comedy is the rousing applause and the finale I fight strenuously to escape

クローゼットにて

腹が空くなら知恵を喰らうのだ 僕の意志だけが未来を決める筈だ もう無理だと言う害悪はいつも 過去に囚われて何もできやしないな

When I’m hungry, I consume wisdom. Only through my will can I decide my future, so they say. An evil that tells me there’s nothing I can do is always trapped in the past, unable to do anything

あなたの言葉は僕が引き継ぐ だから僕の言葉は誰かに託すよ 羽が折られても足掻くのはなぜ いいえ愚問ね、嘘だよ忘れてほしい

Your words were handed down from me so I entrust my words to someone Why do you still struggle even when your wings are broken? No, that’s a silly question, I was just kidding, forget about it.

禁足地に手を伸ばしたんだ 命の意味解らないから 燃えるような情熱だけが 僕たちに意味を与えてくれる かもしれないね

I reached my hand into tabooed land because I didn’t know the meaning of life This burning passion is the only thing that gives us meaning, maybe.

僕の気持ちは君と違うな どうしてなのか知りたくて この手を汚すことを選んだ 後悔したか解らない

My feelings are different from yours and I’d like to know why I chose to dirty these hands of mine I don’t know if I regret it

禁足地に手を伸ばしたんだ

I reached my hand out into tabooed land

禁足地に手を伸ばしたんだ

命の意味解らないから 滾るような情熱だけが 僕たちの水を枯らしてくれる そんな気がした

I reached my hand out into tabooed land because I didn’t know the meaning of life This boiling passion is the only thing drying our water away, that’s what it felt like.

解らないなりにマネをしたのだ それが正解なのだと疑わなかった 羽が折られても動くのはなぜ そうね、ごめんねもう君は死んでいたよね

輝きを止めない星の秘め事

This is the secret of a star yet to burn out.

クラス内の頂点で誰からも尊ばれている 肥大してく自尊心を糧に私を全うしている 崇め奉られるほどアガり  されどそれに胡座かかず邁進 常に最適な私であれ

The top scorer of the class, commanding respect from everyone I turn my ever growing self-esteem into nourishment I am offered so much worship it makes me nervous But I can’t sit on my laurels, I must keep moving I must always remain my most optimum self

暗示をかけ 心にファンデーション ブレザーの裾をギュッとしてパッと離す あの子のため 私は理想になる 明けの空で光放つ 一番星のように

I have to indirectly guide her to the foundations for her heart I hold tightly onto the hem of the blazer and promptly let go of it  For her sake, I must become her ideal like the brightest star that lights the sky at dawn

誰より前に 遥か未来に 立つ私 最前線 願われたこと 願ったこと 現実に変えて 負ける気なんてさらさらないって 今この瞬間もギラって 圧倒スケールでお届け ジュッとその目に焼き付けといてね

I stand further than anyone else, in the far future I am at the forefront What you wished from me, what you wished for Let it become real I have no intention of losing Now, right at this moment, glare at them and reach with overwhelming scale! Let them remember the burning heat in your eyes, okay?

体裁よ 持ち堪えてちょうだい ここが終点間近なこと 残さないで 噛んで飲むから まだそこで待っててよ

I need my appearances to hold it out The endpoint is imminent from here I’ll bite down, swallow everything and leave nothing, so keep waiting for me there!

悔しさ抱えたまま置いてきたユメも 雁字搦まってる罪悪感も 私は全部 全部背負って翔けるから ここで見てて 見守ってて 私の弱さ 諦め悪く もがいて 足掻いて 光ってるキグナスの様を

The dreams I regretfully left behind  and the guilt bound to me I take on the burden of everything, everything and I soar So look at me here, watch over my weakness I won’t give up easily, I’ll keep writhing and struggling like the shining Cygnus constellation

わずかに前に 薄氷の最前線 ハリボテの見栄張って 繋いで 真実に変えて あの子の前でだけは 誓って輝きを絶やさないで 採算度外視で魅せつけ ぶっち切るから覚悟してなさい

Just narrowly before the forefront on thin ice I’ll put on a papier-mache front, connect to reality and make it real Just in front of her, at all costs do not let this brilliance die out Charm everyone with the way you disregard the potential rewards I’ll leave you in the dust so ready yourself

誰より前に 遥か未来に 立つ私 そうでなきゃ 願われたこと 願ったこと 現実に変えなきゃ 負けられないんだ 負けたくないんだ 心が張り裂けそうだ そんなもの全部閉じ込めて 全力で輝くだけ

I stand further than anyone else, in the far future That’s what I have to do What you wished from me, what you wished for I have to make them all real I can’t lose I don’t want to lose My heart is about to burst I lock up all those feelings The only thing I’ll do is shine with my full strength

まだまだただ前に 叫べ誓いに おいでなさい 最前線 洒落くさい限界なんて 私が騙してあげる あの子はきっと それを願ってる 姉として応えなくちゃ 圧倒スケールで届けて 採算度外視で魅せつけ 明星スタイルで煌めけ

Not yet, I’m only just slightly ahead, I shout out my promise, Come here, to the forefront This awful joke of a border is my way of deceiving you That’s surely what she wishes for. As her older sister, I must respond to her Reach with overwhelming scale, charm everyone with the way you disregard the potential rewards Gleam with the style of Venus!

バッチリな自分 クランク下げないでね

腹を割って言ったせいで 君の待つ夢の舞台まで

Because I spoke so frankly[1], All the way to the stage in your dreams where you wait

嗚呼 どれくらい　どれくらい 遠のいてしまったの

Ah Just how much, how much have we drifted apart?

腹を切って逝って去って 君を待つ黄泉の世界で

I’ll cut myself open, pass on, leave In the afterlife where you wait for me

消え去ってしまいたいわ！ もうやってらんないわ！

I want to disappear! I can’t do this anymore!

ひと想ひに

Just set me free!

優柔不断な短刀が 喉元で震え待っている

As you indecisively hold the dagger to my throat, you shake as you’re waiting

宇宙空間にいるようだ 息が思うようにできなくて

Like I’m in the vacuum of space, I can’t breathe the way I want to

さあ！　間違った芸夢[2]（げいむ）をしよう 嫌いなふり　痛くないふり

Now, let’s play this game that’s all wrong Pretending that we hate it, pretending that it doesn’t hurt

存外　世界は残酷なようで

Who would’ve thought? The world seems so cruel

振りほどいて　離れてみたって ない傷跡を　毟ってみたって

Even if I try to shake free from it and pull away, Even if I try to pick at scars that aren’t there,

悦に入った本性（ぼく）が笑ってんだ！

I actually feel really complacent, I’m laughing!

腹を割って言ったせいで 君の待つ夢の舞台まで

Because I spoke so frankly, All the way to the stage in your dreams where you wait

嗚呼 どれくらい　どれくらい 遠のいてしまったの

Ah Just how much, how much have we drifted apart?

腹を切って逝って去って 笑って泣いて 「待って、なんで」 裂いて縫って 「痛って」 泣いて？笑って 笑って！笑って！笑って！笑って！、、

I’ll cut myself open, pass on, leave laughing, crying, “Wait, why?” Tear me open, sew me back up “It hurts” Are you crying? Laugh, Laugh! Laugh! Laugh! Laugh…

真っ赤に染まる前に 言の葉が真っ赤に染まる前に

Before I’m dyed in red Before my words are dyed in red

振り下ろして　首落として 艶やかに春が吹いている夜に この可惜夜が明けてしまうなら

Bring down your sword and cut off my head On this night where a fresh spring breeze blows If this regretful night were to dawn…

君が真っ赤に染まるように 君の手が真っ赤に染まるように

To dye you in red, To dye your hands in red

悪いのは君だ　殺したのは君だ 今日も泡沫の涙が咲いてゆく

You’re the one in the wrong! You’re the one who killed me! Today too, transient tears bloom

あーあ 笑っちゃった

Aah That’s real funny!

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Notes:

[1] - Literally means to 'split open [my] stomach'. [2] - The word 'game' here is written in ateji form using the characters for 'art' and 'dream'. Note that the song lacks anything written in katakana other than the title.

Personal thoughts (feel free to not read this lol):

Harakiri is that practice of (usually) a disgraced warrior ending their lives by slicing their stomach open as penance for whatever it was that disgraced them. Though, the process of doing that doesn't always instantly kill the warrior. So in history, when someone had to commit harakiri, there would always be a second person in standby to cut off the head after the deed is done to ensure the warrior dies quickly.