LEGILIMENS.

#𝙾𝙲𝙲𝙻𝚄𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚉  :  multimuse  for  muses  from  various  fandoms,  adapted  into  the  potterverse.  all  charas  are  played  elsewhere,  also.  𝗠𝗨𝗟𝗧𝗜-𝗘𝗥𝗔,  𝗗𝗨𝗣𝗘,  𝗔𝗨,  𝗢𝗖,  𝗖𝗥𝗢𝗦𝗦𝗢𝗩𝗘𝗥  𝗙𝗥𝗜𝗘𝗡𝗗𝗟𝗬.  anti  jkr  in  every  way.  est  20210805  by  ink.  everything  on  this  blog  is  mine.  low,  sporadic  act.  you  may  be  interested  in  my  remus  lupin.

SLIDES.

ooh,  so  many.  i’m  trying  to  .  .  .  curb  the  urge  for  one  in  particular,  because  i  keep  making  blogs  for  niche  muses  &  then  getting  frustrated  &  upset  when  they  inevitably  get  very  little  traction  or  interest  because  no  one  knows  them,  but  the  urge  to  make  a  blog  for  joe  macmillan  from  halt  &  catch  fire  grows  with  every  passing  day.  i’d  also  like  to  try  ben  from  burning  /  barn  burning  (  because  i  think  what  the  film  did  to  him  was  interesting,  but  it’s  so  different  from  the  story  &  mushing  them  together  could  be  fun  ),  vesper  lynd  from  casino  royale,  um  .  .  .  there’s  a  ton,  i  just  can’t  think  of  them,  &  i’m  good  at  like  .  shoving  them  out  of  my  head  for  months  at  a  time  when  i  know  they  won’t  get  interest  (  eventually  they  come  back  &  my  brain  rots  for  like  three  weeks  but  anyway  ).  there’s  a  few  sitting  on  my  multi  i  haven’t  had  a  chance  to  write,  but  they’re  there  all  the  same.  i  also  had  a  fictional  mothers  multi  i  wanted  to  make  with,  like,  dr.  rainbow  johnson,  winifred  torrance,  &  others  that  escape  me  right  now.  i  think  i  have  the  list  somewhere  ;  it  was  a  nice  mix.

silence  can  be  deafening.  sometimes,  there  is  nothing  louder  than  a  moment  in  which  nothing  is  said.  the  unsaid  can  say  so  much.  but  in  all  honesty  -  what  is  one  supposed  to  say  to  something  like  that  ?  perhaps  if  her  words  rang  true,  he’d  be  able  to  respond  with  ease,  but  alina’s  words  are,  undoubtedly,  untrue.  the  assuredness  with  which  she  says  them  would  frighten  him,  if  he  was  easily  frightened.  IS  IT  TRUE  THAT  THEY  PLAY  INTO  THE  FACADE  HE  HAS  LONG-SINCE  PERFECTED  ?  yes.   &  that  is  what  is  most  frightening.  (  who  is  declan  lynch  if  not  a  man  enshrouded  in  deceit  ;  he  who  dons  a  suit  of  secrecy,  &  who  slips  into  different  personalities  as  easily  as  one  wears  a  tie  ?  ).  if  she  means  what  she  says  --  i  don’t  deserve  you  --  does  that  mean  she  has  bought  into  the  person  he  has  been  selling  ?  why  does  that  make  him  so  uncomfortable  ?

because  declan  had  never  expected  to  like  her  this  much.  he’d  never  thought  he’d  feel  about  alina  the  way  he  does.  she’s  different  to  those  who  had  come  before  her.  they  hadn’t  deserved  him,  &  in  the  end  hadn’t  wanted  him,  either.  WHO  WANTS  A  BOYFRIEND  WHO  FORGETS  YOUR  BIRTHDAY  BECAUSE  HE  WAS  BUSY  ?  (  correspondence  with  his  father  via  owl  is  a  slow  &  painful  process,  &  declan  often  wishes  he  would  just  throw  niall’s  letters  into  the  lake  &  be  done  with  it  all.  how  much  help  can  a  son  be  to  his  father’s  black  market  business  from  halfway  around  the  world  ?  ).

PEOPLE  ARE  DISPOSABLE.  YOU  ARE  DISPOSABLE.  NEVER  TRUST  ANYONE.  RELATIONSHIPS  AREN’T  BUILT  TO  LAST.  (  except  when  they,  quite  literally,  are.  aurora  &  matthew  are  such  examples.  )

would  alina  feel  the  same  way  if  she  knew  the  truth  about  who  he  is  ?  her  house  is  known  for  its  loyalty  ;  his  for  its  ambition.  can  the  two  ideals  work  together  ?  the  fact  that  declan  is  even  asking  himself  the  question  tells  him  there  has  to  be  a  possibility.  he’s  still  undecided  on  the  topic  of  whether  she  would  like  him  if  she  knew  the  truth.  perhaps  one  day,  he’ll  find  that  out.

bold,    always applies  ;   italic,    applies sometimes  ;  strike,    never applies.

𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁   :      jaw clenching,    hands balling into fists,    teeth grinding,   yelling,    going nonverbal,    stuttering speech,   rushed speech,   slow  -  concise speech,   rambling,     quiet,     arms crossing,     shaking head,     tearing up,    animated,    expressionless,      projects,      internalizes,     vents,      withdraws,     passive aggressive,      direct,      physical outbursts,     verbal outbursts.

𝙹𝙾𝚈   :      easy smiles,    fighting back grins,    suppressed laughter,    loud laughter,      giggles,     chuckling,     smirks,      whole body laughs,     covers mouth when laughing or giggling,     throws head back when laughing,     slaps leg,    touches people around them when laughing,     looks down when laughing,     looks for eye contact when laughing,    sparkling eyes,    bubbly happiness,     quiet  -  subtle happiness,    obnoxious happiness,    wanting to spread joy,     quietly savors joy.

𝚂𝙰𝙳𝙽𝙴𝚂𝚂   :      crying,     bottling it up,    seeks distractions,    wallows,    meditates    &    processes,       avoidance,      seeks out comfort,     withdraws,     talks it out,       internalizes it,      sad smiles,       depression naps,        uses alcohol,      uses drugs,      seeks out sources of joy,     fidgets with sentimental items,     sits in silence,      broods,     gets moody,     wants someone to share the misery,      tries to hide negative emotions,    nurtures others to makes themselves feel better.

𝙴𝙼𝙱𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃   &   𝚂𝙷𝙰𝙼𝙴   :      blushing,     looking away,    rubbing at back of head,     covering face,     laughing nervously,     laughing it off,      overthinks,     lets it go,      self deprecating humor,      deflects,      gets irritated,     smiles,     withdraws,     crossing arms over stomach,      crossing arms over chest,     hands in pockets,      shoulders sinking,      shrugs,      falling into silence until comfortable again,      talking a lot to compensate.  

𝙶𝚄𝙸𝙻𝚃   :      avoiding eye contact,    shoulders sinking low,    head hanging low,    crying,      chest aches,     lashes out,     internalizes,     apologizes,     deflects,    communicates,     withdraws,     grand gestures for forgiveness,     accepts fault easily,      punishes themselves,     martyrdom,    victim complex,     over active guilt complex,     healthy conscience,    internalizes even after forgiveness,    seeking redemption,     moves on easily,     denial,     lack of guilt or conscience,    sorry they got caught more than caused harm,     can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

bold,    always applies  ;   italic,    applies sometimes  ;  strike,    never applies.

𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁   :      jaw clenching,    hands balling into fists,    teeth grinding,   yelling,    going nonverbal,    stuttering speech,   rushed speech,   slow  -  concise speech,   rambling,     quiet,     arms crossing,     shaking head,     tearing up,    animated,    expressionless,      projects,      internalizes,     vents,      withdraws,     passive aggressive,      direct,      physical outbursts,     verbal outbursts.

𝙹𝙾𝚈   :      easy smiles,    fighting back grins,    suppressed laughter,    loud laughter,      giggles,     chuckling,     smirks,      whole body laughs,     covers mouth when laughing or giggling,     throws head back when laughing,     slaps leg,    touches people around them when laughing,     looks down when laughing,     looks for eye contact when laughing,    sparkling eyes,    bubbly happiness,     quiet  -  subtle happiness,    obnoxious happiness,    wanting to spread joy,     quietly savors joy.

𝚂𝙰𝙳𝙽𝙴𝚂𝚂   :      crying,     bottling it up,    seeks distractions,    wallows,    meditates    &    processes,       avoidance,      seeks out comfort,     withdraws,     talks it out,       internalizes it,      sad smiles,       depression naps,        uses alcohol,      uses drugs,      seeks out sources of joy,     fidgets with sentimental items,     sits in silence,      broods,     gets moody,     wants someone to share the misery,      tries to hide negative emotions,    nurtures others to makes themselves feel better.

𝙴𝙼𝙱𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃   &   𝚂𝙷𝙰𝙼𝙴   :      blushing,     looking away,    rubbing at back of head,     covering face,     laughing nervously,     laughing it off,      overthinks,     lets it go,      self deprecating humor,      deflects,      gets irritated,     smiles,     withdraws,     crossing arms over stomach,      crossing arms over chest,     hands in pockets,      shoulders sinking,      shrugs,      falling into silence until comfortable again,      talking a lot to compensate.  

𝙶𝚄𝙸𝙻𝚃   :      avoiding eye contact,    shoulders sinking low,    head hanging low,    crying,      chest aches,     lashes out,     internalizes,     apologizes,     deflects,    communicates,     withdraws,     grand gestures for forgiveness,     accepts fault easily,      punishes themselves,     martyrdom,    victim complex,     over active guilt complex,     healthy conscience,    internalizes even after forgiveness,    seeking redemption,     moves on easily,     denial,     lack of guilt or conscience,    sorry they got caught more than caused harm,     can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

bold,    always applies  ;   italic,    applies sometimes  ;  strike,    never applies.

𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁   :      jaw clenching,    hands balling into fists,    teeth grinding,   yelling,    going nonverbal,    stuttering speech,   rushed speech,   slow  -  concise speech,   rambling,     quiet,     arms crossing,     shaking head,     tearing up,    animated,    expressionless,      projects,      internalizes,     vents,      withdraws,     passive aggressive,      direct,      physical outbursts,     verbal outbursts.

𝙹𝙾𝚈   :      easy smiles,    fighting back grins,    suppressed laughter,    loud laughter,      giggles,     chuckling,     smirks,      whole body laughs,     covers mouth when laughing or giggling,     throws head back when laughing,     slaps leg,    touches people around them when laughing,     looks down when laughing,     looks for eye contact when laughing,    sparkling eyes,    bubbly happiness,     quiet  -  subtle happiness,    obnoxious happiness,    wanting to spread joy,     quietly savors joy.

𝚂𝙰𝙳𝙽𝙴𝚂𝚂   :      crying,     bottling it up,    seeks distractions,    wallows,    meditates    &    processes,       avoidance,      seeks out comfort,     withdraws,     talks it out,       internalizes it,      sad smiles,       depression naps,        uses alcohol,      uses drugs,      seeks out sources of joy,     fidgets with sentimental items,     sits in silence,      broods,     gets moody,     wants someone to share the misery,      tries to hide negative emotions,    nurtures others to makes themselves feel better.

𝙴𝙼𝙱𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃   &   𝚂𝙷𝙰𝙼𝙴   :      blushing,     looking away,    rubbing at back of head,     covering face,     laughing nervously,     laughing it off,      overthinks,     lets it go,      self deprecating humor,      deflects,      gets irritated,     smiles,     withdraws,     crossing arms over stomach,      crossing arms over chest,     hands in pockets,      shoulders sinking,      shrugs,      falling into silence until comfortable again,      talking a lot to compensate.  

𝙶𝚄𝙸𝙻𝚃   :      avoiding eye contact,    shoulders sinking low,    head hanging low,    crying,      chest aches,     lashes out,     internalizes,     apologizes,     deflects,    communicates,     withdraws,     grand gestures for forgiveness,     accepts fault easily,      punishes themselves,     martyrdom,    victim complex,     over active guilt complex,     healthy conscience,    internalizes even after forgiveness,    seeking redemption,     moves on easily,     denial,     lack of guilt or conscience,    sorry they got caught more than caused harm,     can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

bold,    always applies  ;   italic,    applies sometimes  ;  strike,    never applies.

𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁   :      jaw clenching,    hands balling into fists,    teeth grinding,   yelling,    going nonverbal,    stuttering speech,   rushed speech,   slow  -  concise speech,   rambling,     quiet,     arms crossing,     shaking head,     tearing up,    animated,    expressionless,      projects,      internalizes,     vents,      withdraws,     passive aggressive,      direct,      physical outbursts,     verbal outbursts.

𝙹𝙾𝚈   :      easy smiles,    fighting back grins,    suppressed laughter,    loud laughter,      giggles,     chuckling,     smirks,      whole body laughs,     covers mouth when laughing or giggling,     throws head back when laughing,     slaps leg,    touches people around them when laughing,     looks down when laughing,     looks for eye contact when laughing,    sparkling eyes,    bubbly happiness,     quiet  -  subtle happiness,    obnoxious happiness,    wanting to spread joy,     quietly savors joy.

𝚂𝙰𝙳𝙽𝙴𝚂𝚂   :      crying,     bottling it up,    seeks distractions,    wallows,    meditates    &    processes,       avoidance,      seeks out comfort,     withdraws,     talks it out,       internalizes it,      sad smiles,       depression naps,        uses alcohol,      uses drugs,      seeks out sources of joy,     fidgets with sentimental items,     sits in silence,      broods,     gets moody,     wants someone to share the misery,      tries to hide negative emotions,    nurtures others to makes themselves feel better.

𝙴𝙼𝙱𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃   &   𝚂𝙷𝙰𝙼𝙴   :      blushing,     looking away,    rubbing at back of head,     covering face,     laughing nervously,     laughing it off,      overthinks,     lets it go,      self deprecating humor,      deflects,      gets irritated,     smiles,     withdraws,     crossing arms over stomach,      crossing arms over chest,     hands in pockets,      shoulders sinking,      shrugs,      falling into silence until comfortable again,      talking a lot to compensate.  

𝙶𝚄𝙸𝙻𝚃   :      avoiding eye contact,    shoulders sinking low,    head hanging low,    crying,      chest aches,     lashes out,     internalizes,     apologizes,     deflects,    communicates,     withdraws,     grand gestures for forgiveness,     accepts fault easily,      punishes themselves,     martyrdom,    victim complex,     over active guilt complex,     healthy conscience,    internalizes even after forgiveness,    seeking redemption,     moves on easily,     denial,     lack of guilt or conscience,    sorry they got caught more than caused harm,     can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

bold,    always applies  ;   italic,    applies sometimes  ;  strike,    never applies.

𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁   :      jaw clenching,    hands balling into fists,    teeth grinding,   yelling,    going nonverbal,    stuttering speech,   rushed speech,   slow  -  concise speech,   rambling,     quiet,     arms crossing,     shaking head,     tearing up,    animated,    expressionless,      projects,      internalizes,     vents,      withdraws,     passive aggressive,      direct,      physical outbursts,     verbal outbursts.

𝙹𝙾𝚈   :      easy smiles,    fighting back grins,    suppressed laughter,    loud laughter,      giggles,     chuckling,     smirks,      whole body laughs,     covers mouth when laughing or giggling,     throws head back when laughing,     slaps leg,    touches people around them when laughing,     looks down when laughing,     looks for eye contact when laughing,    sparkling eyes,    bubbly happiness,     quiet  -  subtle happiness,    obnoxious happiness,    wanting to spread joy,     quietly savors joy.

𝚂𝙰𝙳𝙽𝙴𝚂𝚂   :      crying,     bottling it up,    seeks distractions,    wallows,    meditates    &    processes,       avoidance,      seeks out comfort,     withdraws,     talks it out,       internalizes it,      sad smiles,       depression naps,        uses alcohol,      uses drugs,      seeks out sources of joy,     fidgets with sentimental items,     sits in silence,      broods,     gets moody,     wants someone to share the misery,      tries to hide negative emotions,    nurtures others to makes themselves feel better.

𝙴𝙼𝙱𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃   &   𝚂𝙷𝙰𝙼𝙴   :      blushing,     looking away,    rubbing at back of head,     covering face,     laughing nervously,     laughing it off,      overthinks,     lets it go,      self deprecating humor,      deflects,      gets irritated,     smiles,     withdraws,     crossing arms over stomach,      crossing arms over chest,     hands in pockets,      shoulders sinking,      shrugs,      falling into silence until comfortable again,      talking a lot to compensate.  

𝙶𝚄𝙸𝙻𝚃   :      avoiding eye contact,    shoulders sinking low,    head hanging low,    crying,      chest aches,     lashes out,     internalizes,     apologizes,     deflects,    communicates,     withdraws,     grand gestures for forgiveness,     accepts fault easily,      punishes themselves,     martyrdom,    victim complex,     over active guilt complex,     healthy conscience,    internalizes even after forgiveness,    seeking redemption,     moves on easily,     denial,     lack of guilt or conscience,    sorry they got caught more than caused harm,     can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

bold,    always applies  ;   italic,    applies sometimes  ;  strike,    never applies.

𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁   :      jaw clenching,    hands balling into fists,    teeth grinding,   yelling,    going nonverbal,    stuttering speech,   rushed speech,   slow  -  concise speech,   rambling,     quiet,     arms crossing,     shaking head,     tearing up,    animated,    expressionless,      projects,      internalizes,     vents,      withdraws,     passive aggressive,      direct,      physical outbursts,     verbal outbursts.

𝙹𝙾𝚈   :      easy smiles,    fighting back grins,    suppressed laughter,    loud laughter,      giggles,     chuckling,     smirks,      whole body laughs,     covers mouth when laughing or giggling,     throws head back when laughing,     slaps leg,    touches people around them when laughing,     looks down when laughing,     looks for eye contact when laughing,    sparkling eyes,    bubbly happiness,     quiet  -  subtle happiness,    obnoxious happiness,    wanting to spread joy,     quietly savors joy.

𝚂𝙰𝙳𝙽𝙴𝚂𝚂   :      crying,     bottling it up,    seeks distractions,    wallows,    meditates    &    processes,       avoidance,      seeks out comfort,     withdraws,     talks it out,       internalizes it,      sad smiles,       depression naps,        uses alcohol,      uses drugs,      seeks out sources of joy,     fidgets with sentimental items,     sits in silence,      broods,     gets moody,     wants someone to share the misery,      tries to hide negative emotions,    nurtures others to makes themselves feel better.

𝙴𝙼𝙱𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃   &   𝚂𝙷𝙰𝙼𝙴   :      blushing,     looking away,    rubbing at back of head,     covering face,     laughing nervously,     laughing it off,      overthinks,     lets it go,      self deprecating humor,      deflects,      gets irritated,     smiles,     withdraws,     crossing arms over stomach,      crossing arms over chest,     hands in pockets,      shoulders sinking,      shrugs,      falling into silence until comfortable again,      talking a lot to compensate.  

𝙶𝚄𝙸𝙻𝚃   :      avoiding eye contact,    shoulders sinking low,    head hanging low,    crying,      chest aches,     lashes out,     internalizes,     apologizes,     deflects,    communicates,     withdraws,     grand gestures for forgiveness,     accepts fault easily,      punishes themselves,     martyrdom,    victim complex,     over active guilt complex,     healthy conscience,    internalizes even after forgiveness,    seeking redemption,     moves on easily,     denial,     lack of guilt or conscience,    sorry they got caught more than caused harm,     can’t handle knowing they hurt others.