What Am I Obsessed With Now??

Reason it has is because, well, it’s starts in 2017 when my landlord suddenly wanted me to move out of my 1 bedroom apt I lived in for 6 years and find somewhere else to go within a month. So last minute everything happened, and I decided to move into a 2 b apt above my old one. This was very disheartening. I loved my old one. It felt like I was having another part of what made me me taken away. The same feeling I had when my bf moved in. Change is good, but it was like saying goodbye to the old Constance. It also didn’t help rent went up by $300. Anyway...

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Most of our things pretty much were just thrown anywhere into the new place since we were on such a time crunch. As we lived in the apartment we slowly pulled things out as you needed them. I think that happens to everyone, but there was a cluttered mess under the dining room table for years! The second bedroom is basically storage for whatever. It just never felt like home to me. Then my mom passed away later that year. Then I got into bullet journaling to get myself right. Then I got into nail art, and kind of neglected the apartment. My boyfriend suffers from anxiety, depression, and adhd like me, so once we were off work we just settled into our own little world ignoring the physical one surrounding us. So 2018 the apartment went to hell. Bad to admit, but it’s true. For example we started using paper plates and plastic utensils, because fuck this pile of dishes. It. Was. Bad.

So, it started to get to me as it should. As the year came to a close I realized that I didn’t care about this place, because it didn’t feel like home! I was forced here. When the new year started I bullet journaled a goal of making my apartment mine. I read a book called Organizing Solutions for People with ADHD. At the time I didn’t think I had ADHD, but I know my SO does. So I started getting organized with the day to day things. I bought a table top/leg combo from IKEA for $25 to do my nail art and bullet journaling on. As a suggestion from the ADHD book I put large kitchen size garbage cans in my bedroom, the bathroom, and living room because that’s where all the trash would just sit, and we only had one large can in the kitchen. I added a level to my IKEA with an ALEX desk add on, and added two big shelves above it to store my nail stuff. I put some more stuff out of the living room into the spare room.

Then I decided I need to fix up my living room now that it’s cleared out. That’s when decorating became a “thing” for me. But how did I want it to look? How did I want my kitchen, bedroom, and bathroom to look? What’s my style? Who the fuck am I? I had private Pinterest boards setup and I just loaded up on inspiration. I went from ‘am I Goth?’ to ‘am I Modern?’ to ‘am I Scandinavian?’. Do I want Minimalist? So many options. My SO showed me a couple of hippie colorful things he liked. He likes rustic stuff, too. I looked into Boho, and he mentioned that Goth can be Boho just painted black. So I realized I liked this. I could mix all of these things. I got new couches from my SO’s mom who found them at an estate sale. Covered them in black covers. Then I bought a black little $10 table from IKEA. Got a rug from rugsusa.com. The main thing in my living room I’m most proud off right now. It will influence the rest of the room.

Got a silver floor lamp from IKEA, too. Got some pillows for the couch. And now my ultimate goal is getting a gallery wall in the living room above the couch.

Other things I’m most pleased with that will set the tone for each room that I’ve made/purchased:

Vintage science-y food art for my kitchen.

And for my bedroom I’ve always liked the idea of theming it to rainstorms. I made wall hanging for above my bed with gray/black yarn and a wooden dowel. I also purchased a silver moon phase garland to put over it.

More prints to surround it are forthcoming. I ended this post already, and tried posting. It failed, and didn’t save the PERFECT end to this ranting story.

Basically, what is my style? I think I’ve discovered I’m into dark boho maximalism. I’ve discovered Abigail Ahern who seems to have influenced many women of my age in the U.K. who love this style. I want art everywhere. I want display my nail polish collection on the wall. I want to show off to myself to remind me of who I am.