Oasis

Yes! i found a list: 

1. It can leave scars2. The release is only temporary3. It will “lock” my feelings up4. Afterwards I will feel ashamed5. I don’t “need” it6. I want to stay clean7. I’m not a bad person8. I don’t deserve it9. I don’t want to keep doing this forever10. I’m not completely sure why I want it11. Schoolwork isn’t THAT important12. I want to make myself proud13. I know I am strong enough not to do it14. P.E.15. It’s not worth it16. I’m not a bother17. I’m not “bad”18. No one would want me to do something like that19. I want to get better20. I want the rewards I came up with for not self harming21. I want my “plan” to work (I will post how to make a plan soon!)22. If I do it now afterwards I’ll feel bad, because then “nothing” would really work. I don’t know what else to do.23. I’m trying to build myself up, not tear me down.24. Be kind to yourself25. I can choose not to do it26. It’ll be summer soon27. I don’t want anyone to find out28. I want to make the people around me proud29. A year from now, this situation won’t matter30. I don’t want to cut too deep and need to get stitches31. I want to be happy32. I want to learn better ways to cope33. It won’t change anything except give me scars34. I want to be able to wear shorts without feeling extremely vulnerable35. What happened to me was not my fault36. I deserve to be treated with kindness37. I want to achieve goals I set for myself38. It will make me more secretive and probably lie and I don’t want that39. It will set me apart from my peers, because I won’t be able to share this40. I’ve done it a lot of times already41. It’s a bad thing to hurt yourself42. The longer you go without it, the easier it gets to resist43. I would feel “stuck” if I do it44. I’m better than this45. I don’t want to depend on something (like this)46. I want to be able to go swimming47. I want to be able to wear dresses48. I can’t have the risk of kids seeing it (I work with kids)49. It’s childish behaviour because you “have” to act on it immediately and you don’t think of consequenses50. I may have the scars for the rest of my life51. I don’t want to have to be really alert while changing52. I don’t want to have to explain to a partner53. I don’t want my kids, if I ever have them, to think that it’s okay to hurt yourself54. I want to be a good rolemodel for my brother55. If I’m angry: I don’t deserve that anger, the person causing it does!56. I don’t find scars beautiful57. I’ll have to talk about it58. I have people around me who care about me (If you don’t, you have Kati!)59. I am not defined by my achievements60 If I want to punish myself, why would I deserve the release?61. Even my cat wants to help me not to do it62. To not have painful showers63. To have no sleepless nights because it hurts64. To spend my body’s energy on better stuff65. To avoid dissociation66. Because I won’t feel like this forever67. I’ve resisted before68. The more you do it the injuries get more serious69. So I can sleep in my underwear in summer70. So I become a success story71. So I can prove everyone that told me that I’m bad and stupid and that I should kill myself wrong!72. To show everyone that hurts themselves that you can overcome this73. Because at the end of the day I know I want to stop