Hurting recently because the mother I was born to isn’t worth knowing and the mother worth knowing (my boyfriend’s mom) is dying of ALS right before my eyes.

I want people to stop referring to anything by “spicy” thank you good night

Every day I’m reminded that she said it with the sole intention of hurting me and making me feel small.

Really sad today bc I realized vampires can’t get gel nails bc the UV light would burn them

God the way the Pitt really knew how to portray someone who just didn’t want to be “here” anymore. Because that’s exactly how I felt, the way that last monologue made me feel, when I wanted to end things.

I thought my whole adolescent life that I wanted this big wild love that broke both hearts involved. I think I needed to know someone felt the pain I was feeling during that time. I have a love, now, that takes my pain and hurt and fortifies me against it, lets me know that that pain is real but it’s not worth drowning for.