not really a stan but i'm definitely a villain enjoyer

my listening to the silt verses and my hyperfixation on sloane and hux have combined into drawing parallels between them and carpenter + faulkner. the old cynic who was born into the faith and is beginning to hate what she used to love and fear in equal measure (the idealist succumbing to the despair of watching both the empire and her order rot and die) and the young convert who will gladly commit atrocity for his god (the zealot soldier whose hands have been soaked in blood since he was old enough to hold a weapon). bound together by choice, by circumstance, by fate, by sheer necessity. bound together even when their opposing natures attempt to annihilate each other. something something being unable to *un*choose each other. you get it

Hux: how's it going? Sloane, face down on the floor: rot and entropy will consume us all Hux: badly i see

oh you think YOUR life is hard? i'm a completionist with adhd

i'm listening to the silt verses for the first time, and esp with the woundtree i'm thinking "come on there's gotta be more hope than this, there's gotta be a way to actually save people's lives here instead of just using spite", and then chapter 36 hits me with a god of hope and happy endings. THAT WAS AWFUL. THAT WAS FUCKING EVIL. HOLY SHIT.

anyways i gotta do more research but like. i'm thinking about headcanons for ganthel, because a) blorbo-related headcanons and b) letting it be JUST the "violent crime planet" is 1000% just fucking racist >_> "ah yes our black female character joined the imperial military in order to escape her home planet, the Gang Violence Planet" stop right there. what does ganthel have that ISN'T gang violence. what's their native cuisine. what does their music scene look like. what kind of political activism is happening there. and if we gotta talk about gang violence then like. WHY is there gang violence. WHY is there poverty. (also what does that poverty look like beyond violent crime!!) do you know what the prison-industrial complex is. how many teenage boys did the empire throw in for-profit prisons for cheap labor. how much economic exploitation is going on there. is anyone getting paid a fair wage on that planet. etc etc etc

anyways. rae sloane curled up in the fetal position in some tiny corner or closet on the imperialis, unable to stop crying but still trying to do so as quietly as possible, praying to any deity out there that no one finds her and uses her breakdown against her, and unaware of the five-year-old boy in the same position and the same situation just a wall or two away. as above, so below. you're welcome

see here's the fucking thing. darth vader was considered super scary, but he was standing next to run-of-the-mill rich fascists whose power lay in money and position, and he was part of a run-of-the-mill decadent evil empire bloated on the spoils of its conquered planets. kylo ren, on the other hand, is standing next to captain phasma (hardened warrior who grew up on a radioactive hellworld and who kills anyone who sees her face) and armitage hux (feral cult leader who's personally assassinated like half of high command and who outscreamed a bunch of teenagers at five years old), and he's part of an almost-completely-spacefaring order where even the people who look like run-of-the-mill rich fascists have probably done cannibalism out of starvation AND that formally announced its existence to the galaxy by blowing up five fucking planets from literal lightyears away because EVERYTHING ABOUT THE FIRST ORDER IS ABSOLUTELY BATSHIT INSANE. so honestly i think he deserves some credit just for being able to keep up

rey palpatine had to be on the hero's side because if she were involved with the first order she'd be begging hux to tape knives to the ends of her staff

Finn: Who would win: a massive government-funded military force or 20 people with 3 credits between them Sloane: To be fair, the current massive government-funded military force actually started out as 20 people with 3 credits between them

decided to check out the silt verses tonight and immediately burned through straight through the first three episodes. we're so back

Sloane: I didn't understand why people cared so much about their annoying kids until I got an annoying kid myself. Sloane: I've only had Armitage Hux for a day and a half but if anything happened to him I'd kill everyone on this ship and then myself. Hux: that doesn't mean much you're literally suicidal Sloane: they don't have to know about that part