a 16 y/o girl with chronic pain

you can dip your words in honey 
and sugarcoat your wicked tongue, 
but nothing can change your rotten heart
or change what you have done.


”

something is “off” about your partner and you can’t quite explain or pinpoint why.

you frequently second-guess your ability to remember the details of past events leaving you psychologically powerless.

You feel confused and disorientated.

You feel threatened and on-edge around this person, but you don’t know why.

You feel the need to apologize all the time for what you do or for who you are.

You never quite feel “good enough” and try to live up to the expectations and demands of others, even if they are unreasonable or harm you in some way.

You feel like there’s something fundamentally wrong with you, e.g. you’re neurotic or are “losing it.”

You feel like you’re constantly overreacting or are “too sensitive.”

You feel isolated, hopeless, misunderstood and depressed.

You find it hard to trust your own judgment, and given a choice, you choose to believe the judgment of the abuser.

You feel scared and as though “something is terribly wrong,” but you don’t know what or why.

You find it hard to make decisions because you distrust yourself.

You feel as though you’re a much weaker version of yourself, and you were much more strong and confident in the past.

You feel guilty for not feeling happy like you used to.

you are more than your abuse