Serendipity

i’m so in love w him that it scares me

moral of the story, i’m just never gonna ask for help ever again 🤪

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL WHY TF IM ALWAYS SAD AND THAT IVE ALWAYS BEEN SAD AND THAT I FEEL LIKE THINGS WILL JUST NEVER GET GOOD

i never thought that i would be one to say this BUT it just kinda feels like he doesn’t really care. like how is he going to start by doing certain things and saying all of these things and it’s only 6 months into our relationship and I already feel like he’s giving up on trying anymore and that he’s just been super comfortable. like one of the reasons that i really fell for him was because he would do all of these super sweet things himself but it just feels like that he only did those things to try to get me into the relationship and now he only does things like that whenever i ask for them or mention them. and i know that he’s going to say that it’s not that or that he’s just been busy but i know that it’s the truth bc time and time again he only does something super sweet if i ask him about it or mention it. like yeah he bought me cute gifts for our anniversary but he didn’t wrap it or anything and only did bc i told him. when before he would make everything a suprise and it’s just not like that anymore :/ and i’ve been noticing that his new thing now is to just say something like i’m sorry and that he’ll make it up to you but would say all of these things and rarely follow through with them. idk i know he doesn’t mean it or like realizes it but it just sucks :/ like a lot. and i feel like he just doesn’t care as much anymore. bc in the beginning of our relationship he would like be able to stay up hella late hanging out w me and now we can never even stay up till 2 :/ and he says that it’s because that was in the beginning of our relationship and we were still getting to know each other but like why should that change... like i still want to talk to him till 3 am like every other night but he just doesn’t want to do things like that anymore and it makes me really sad. bc honestly right now i kinda don’t feel the same head over heels connection i had w him before because just this last month everything that he promised me that he would do just kinda went away :/ and that make mad so so sad. i just want him to care the same as he did in the beginning of our relationship :(

some people just aren’t built happy