"to love me is to suffer me"

i haven’t touched my violin all summer it’s just been auramaxxing in the corner of my room

my friend is ghosting me after i said we can hang out this weekend 💔 she hates me

apparently my maga uncle got fired from coaching the major kids baseball team in town over politics. i’m pretending to be upset so no one in my family gets mad but like lowkey that’s great

i’ve listened to wtialy so much that i can tell when radio towers stops and tempest starts without looking from the first chord in spite of the clean transition

my family makes fun of me when i watch horror movies and they make fun of me when i watch rom coms/chick flicks so like what do they want me to watch .

trying to talk to my friend from quiz bowl and it’s lwk scary

did my room get darker or am i genuinely just hallucinating

yes i’m cold but i will not . change into an actual shirt and will instead wrap myself in a throw blanket

i love when my best friend calls me her best friend even though i know deep down im her best friend but i don’t really completely believe it

listening to preachers daughter alone in my room in the very early hours of the morning is the closest i’ll ever get to reliving the first time i listened to preachers daughter

on the bright side when ethel cain tours next im gonna be old enough that my mom lets me get standing tickets

gibson girl is actually so fire but i feel so guilty when i start vibing to it cause i remember it’s a song about human trafficking with a really good beat