Rose

But we damn certain that it’s right and on muthafuckin time.

Idk manI got a lot of work in LA to complete

Lol thanks

I couldn't tell you why I fell for this dirty mirror but like.... I just did

It's thick and curly. I don't use perms. I'm trying to get my curls back to normal since I've damaged it by straightening it too much.

Been better these days Reading more Learning a bunch The things I once clung to look minuscule now in the grand scheme of things That shit makes me happy No dark cloud But, whatever is raining down on me feels quite refreshing I'm dancing in it Letting it touch my tongue and quench my thirst for knowledge

The goal is to read and study 50 books or more this year All educational to a certain degree Honestly whatever I perceive "educational" to be Lauren goes to school She doesn't like it Doesn't feel like she's learning anything Thinks the way I'm doing things has me retaining information that's helping me process this whole "life thing" on a different level I think that's crazy Education is key But school.... Just never been for me I really realized life is kinda how they projected it to be in the 50s Tvs in every room of the house Everyone consumed with watching others live their lives Socially inept and unaware of what's really going on around us It was hard for me to get a book published in the 60s the other day These Jokas wanted me to have a republished version Lol probably with a lot of text taken out because it "doesn't pertain to the times" Nothing's changed much except for technology. I'm drifting Let me make my point Pick up hard copies Feel the pages Smell the ink Immerse yourself in the words Learn Something

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The only thing that eats away at me in the thick of the night is the uncertainty that you might not be around forever. Love is not about possession. But, i’m possessive and overprotective. I’m a taurus. Might have everything to do with it or nothing at all. Who really knows. One thing I seem to be certain about lately is it would damn near kill me to lose someone like you. Or, just really fucking sting. I’ve been through a lot of weird shit these past two years that had me completely consumed in darkness. That left me “spiritually inept” if you will. You brought me back to life. I’m no longer living in a constant dream state. That shit was getting wicked man. Depression is real. Love Is a cure. A drug if you will. Scientifically proven to fuck yo brain up. Google it. Anyways, I’m dramatic. Never been shown signs that would compel me to be freaked out about anything. Things are going well. But I’m used to destruction and tainted love. My first everything was a mess. You know how that goes. I’ve written a lot of songs in my new house about all the crazy shit I’ve been through. Once said i had nothing to write about. The Gods must’ve laughed like “she has no idea”. I’m stronger though. My mind is more sharp after those experiences. Less naive. I peep game. Thats why I be looking at you sideways. Thats a shame. The projections of our past experiences really leave you questioning your present moments. As if everyones the same….. I’m rambling. Might not even make since. I should just go write a song. Sometimes I’m not as “poetic” as I’d like to be. Too straight forward. No imagery. Writing it out just seems to be easier. I’m lazy at times. Shits Weak. One day you’ll be fortunate enough to hear these hot ass vocals. Or not. I’m uncertain. I’m reading four books at once. I got commitment issues. Man, I don’t know. Might’ve once again said too damn much and not enough to the right person….. Or, people. But there i go again. Nothing in my mind is concrete but these feelings. Not even my actions anymore. But, I’m pushing through all the bullshit. Theres a whole lotta freedom in that. That brings me joy. We’re always gonna be nervous. I guess the question is are you gonna let the nerves control you and leave you stagnant? I won’t be stagnant. I'll be free.

I’d buy an island and make music all day that you’d probably never hear till I was dead...... Or some shit