course i've been humbled by the void

once a man i was getting serious about casually called an actress in an indie horror movie hot and not only did i lose my mind at him but i also went into a sustained drunk psychosis where i was downloading pictures of her on my dumbphone and looking up her address to go try to kill her if something happened and i was gonna be fucked anyway

deboned marinated and grilled chicken thighs (soy sauce fish sauce brown sugar lime ginger garlic etc) + stir fried zucchini and carrots + jasmine rice cooked with toasted bay leaves in stock

i wasn't looking for trouble, i never do, but the man i killed acted just like you

feel like i should be day drinking naked on a bare mattress on the floor with blankets pinned over the windows like the old days