I genuinely believe bucky barnes was in love with steve rogers the whole damn time and was fully aware of it (meanwhile steve was in love but fully oblivious) & kept waiting for the perfect time. it was no good this winter, steve’s been sick and he’d been working two jobs. no good before shipping off to war bc he didn’t want to give steve another reason to mourn him (and what could have been) if he died. no good now because steve’s captain america & everyone sees what bucky did the whole damn time and now there’s a dame involved looking at steve a way he’d never been allowed. no good now because he’s not bucky, not really. he has residual feelings of a ghost and that bucky would hate him and he’s no good for steve like this just damaged goods. he can’t be who rogers wants him to be and oh. suddenly he’s feeling more like bucky than the winter soldier and steve’s dropped the shield, acting a lot more like that little guy from Brooklyn too dumb to run from a fight than cap, and oh. maybe it’s not too later after all (it is)

hey do you wanna, like, be in a kind of bully/bullied dynamic where you call me and my dog fags at every opportunity you get and I fancy your girlfriend but then I gain superhuman strength when I become a werewolf allowing me to beat your wrestling captain ass to the ground whilst asking you why u wanna fuck me so bad it makes you homophobic then I throw you to the ground so hard it whacks the internalised homophobia right outta your body allowing you to have a beautiful coming out scene in which I tell you bro back up I'm literally cursed and you say I know:( me too:( it's so hard being gay and not being able to talk about it:( and I go um no dude I'm literally cursed with the mark of the beast? Then you set me up with your ex girlfriend and as I'm walking away with her I turn around and say you coming yeah? And you look at me with hope in your eyes and say yeah, course I am and we walk off into the night together. Just a thought.

I have no proof but ik j daniel atlas has trauma