I guess I'm...well...

My husband pointed out that when I live an apartment with just him, I like light. Open windows, lamps, regular lights, the works. When I'm in a house with anyone else? Cave mode.

Longest walk since the move. It was so nice! I was still feeling good but I was low on water so I was responsible and turned back. This park is about 10 minutes from my home and massive so I'm excited to do longer walks here.

But at the same time I am happy for the marriage I have. The husband I have. I love being able to call this man mine in ways no one else can. The pain I would feel if I could not have taken this step with him would have been great. But it would not have changed our dedication to each other. The shared joy and safety that partnership offers. He is my closest family, my most trusted friend. I am thankful for this life that we get to build together. I am thankful that we got to sign that certificate and share insurance. I am thankful for every bill that has both our names on it. Every little part of marriage with him is precious.

A lovely reminder of how loved I am. My oldest bestie lives across the country so sent me a card offering comfort around my physical and mental health. She likes to send cards on occasion and this one was much needed. The family I have found and grown is the family I was meant for. This is the family that loves me and helps me grow and supports me. We might be a little scattered physically but we are so important to each other. It's especially heartening because these people have seen me different ways and loved me. Our relationships have gone through changes and they still love me. I feel very authentically loved by the people in my life.

Successful mall trip 💅🐶