Frontier Psychiatrist

I don't use Tumblr anymore, I don't know who I am reaching out to, I feel lonely, I am depressed and constantly anxious. I have no real grasp on reality because it all feels like a fucking dream. There is nothing holding my world together, the thought of going to work tomorrow is too much to bare. I am 30 in October , life doesn't get easier I thought it was starting to make sense but it just got more complex. I have so much love to give and I am so bad at giving it. 2 and a half years of telling yourself you will just fail at another relationship, you aren't ready, then finally I think I can do this , I give someone my everything and get left a husk of my former self, more pathetic than before and more alone than before. I accept my fate, I accept unhappiness, I accept this feeling of disappointment in myself. Maybe I don't deserve anything better. Thanks for listening Tumblr, you used to be cool.

Haven’t posted here in a while.

https://www.twitch.tv/no1maggot

Anyway I don’t really know what the purpose of this is anymore. I just feel like it kinda says a bit about me and maybe brings anyone up to speed about the fact I am actually still alive.