Nights in White Satin

Something that you've forgotten a long time ago was that I fell in love in with you because you fought very hard for what you wanted, for something to call your own. But when it mattered the most you stopped fighting because it was too hard and too painful, because you didn't want to go though it all again.

You made me feel worthless, dismissed my mental health, pressured me into sleeping with you and accused me of giving you anxiety and after all that you said you wanted to grow old together and claimed to do anything to get me back.

I may have not been the perfect girl, I lost my way and I got involved with someone I shouldn't have. But I will never forgive you, let alone forget all the love, time and support I gave you all these years and how you evolved from that.

I hope you like the man you have become today. I pray to God my nightmares will end one day, and it will be sooner than later.

I never really spoke or posted anything about my trip to Italy. I have been on quite a few holidays but this was the best thing that has ever happened to me.  I have never felt so calm and so at home like I did when I was in Milan and in the south of Italy.

I had only realized just what the trip did to me after I came back to Manchester and looked through all my pictures of the holiday. I looked healthy and I looked happy. Of course I didn’t need to look through the pictures to understand how I felt when I was away, I loved every minute if not every second of it. 

I loved the sun and the food and the culture, where you should never leave your empty glass on the table because it will very quickly become full of wine once again. 

For those who have never been to Italy, please find the time and do visit this sunny country. And it’s true what they say Italians are too much but if you can befriend one, the world is you oyster.  I only pray that I can visit Italy once again and that there will be many more holidays like this one in my life. *fingers crossed*

Being stuck between two people is like being stuck between two boxes of chocolate. You really like and want both but you can't choose so you buy them all.

You open one and you pick out all the best chocolates until all the less tasty ones are left you get bored and uninspired so you move on to the next box. You do the same to that box too. And now you're left with two half eaten boxes of chocolates with all the crappy sweets in them so you go back and forth between all the little bits that are left, biting one and leaving the rest, never satisfied. And in the end you finish off both boxes cos you've got nothing else to do so you might as well, only to realise that it wasn't worth the money and the extra mm on the waste line.

Be a rational shopper don't give in into you cravings. If you find yourself looking at two boxes of chocolate not able to decide, put them both back and get some digestives instead.

I think it's been years since I've been on here.

Adult life can really suck you in and make you blindingly follow that path to success and happiness...

I'm 25, a graduate mechanical engineer and recently broken up from a long term relationship (I was even engaged) due to my mistakes of course. I'm an adult and I have an independent life but good god do I know what I'm doing. Nuuuuuuuu.