After View

Leaving. One more time. One more. Song to write. But it's been a journey of love and soul satisfaction. Ended up staying at Cs this last week and she treat me like a king. To now a desitination in mind not so far away from this one... I wanna come back already, and I haven't even left! Cocksucker Blues. Whats a boy to do. I don't mind, I'lll surf the webs a lil bit see whats up. And when I get to t Ill light a fat one for the world. Many things to acomlish in a short space of time. I like the challenge. See things can work out the way you want them to if you just try a lil bit. Train journeys with the sun in my eyes make me see the universe reclining in your hair. Sitting at a Nero coffee and they've got jazz on. See what I mean, anything played at a coffee shop. Coffee culture what if what not. Get another job, important to support her. Whats gonna happen eh?

gonna watch marley and me cause i never saw it and i ain't go anything better to do. same old down de grey. haven't eating today, a croscant and a sorrentos. ain't hungry. a glass of wine. a tea. chocolate orange my lover gave me. thats it. take me down to paradise city. 

The Universal feelings one has

nothing more will last on this empty night

where i can stroll with the stray cats

look them straight in the eyes 

and  i wonder why

I feel like a lost soul wondering alone at dawn

with no feeling or nerve to keep it all together

an ego so big i could choke on it

What is it about the city congregations? i dont get it. The unemployment, the shit jobs. Everything. I went out for Halloween and got completely wasted on Gin. I was pissed and did something stupid like jumping on car hoods down a street and I was told off by this person and she said, people are strugelling! as if I have the fucking fault. Why work and work then spend money on these stupid multinacionals like MCdonalds or fucking primark. Why not be the best you can be? why not dream on like Mac sings. It all seems like consuming to spend to consume to spend becomes the same thing and the wheele keeps turning. Gotta keep my feet back on the ground. Buy books, buy art, buy reduced cookies, buy drugs and anti establishment magazines, or even better, read them for free online. Write poetry and be in love with life cause no ones gonna take that smile on my face, not the twinkle in my eye. 

Wake up and go there, late cause i fucking over slept. And he is all like "We have to talk" and I say sure, but already see an envelope with what looks like my wages so I brace myself for whats coming. Indeed he is all very apolegetic and nice but fires me anyways cause he says my food is not selling. The real reason is that no one is really going into the cafe so he has no money to keep me on, fair enough. he says i can put him down as a reference. Sure beans, I'll do it someday. 

Morning, so subtle, can't see no sun. I feel a bit like shit or stressy, something I haven't felt for a while. What will this person think, what will this other person think. I don't know. I need some good friendly advice. A brand new friend who doesn't need me. I've been here for sometime and feel relaxed now. I'm not writing this out of expression puking words splitting on the page just as a reminder. I've done yoga and I feel clensed from all things. The truth is that I liked how my life was going. I had a good job, not enough hours but still I could pass on by. I was getting better with her,  it just seemed sexy fresh and loving. I got used to being down De Grey, things didn't seem that bad after all. Now what to do is a complete mystery and I'll let that mystery decide what I'm doing for the next few months. It's a strange time but also happy at the same time. A message to anyone. 

Someone who goes on the road, blinded by the lust that all of it takes up. Someone who wants to find be a person of lust just important. I feel like going into HMV and getting a cheap book of sorts, I'm still looking for the original scroll. The Island I come from is all cool but the sub pressure really gets in your head and drives you a bit mad, thats why it's better to stay next to the ocean. Most of the time. 

Gone past anyways. Why is does everything get so godman stupid after a certain hour. is not like I'm not happy- hell no. Thats got nothing to do with it. I'm just passing by. I think I need things but instead I buy a plain white t shirt which really is what everyone of us needs and thats it. choose you size. Since I've got here I've stopped drinking coffee. Totally out of it. I like tea, it's easy to make and it always tastes good. i need soe other drug to pass the time

Just the keys typing now I listened to the full album. probably while i couldn't speak. this will make me fall asleep soon enough. fuck, he original scroll.  Quite important is what you do young padawan. I think it's like sleepy usic but in realisty for a muscisian is like pure philosophy. great but i wana spend most of the day rocking out. Nelcote because there is where they did the mix, ninetyseventothree thats the whole point. just don't really know what i'm saying. people consumption of things have surparesd the assumption and total truth that we need nothing but love, food and shelter to survive. wouldnt even need many clothes if we were to live like that you wouldnt even have to start your day getting dressed for some shit day job at some shit cafe. experience something that no one has experienced, be your own inspiration. hell yeah thats what i say. this will be a short one... i'm getting tired already. i'll try to obsess over this and maybe something good will come off it.