In a fantasy of the night.

I alowed myself to hope and dream, and yet i find myself in the abyss yet again..

Even after all this time, you make me feel...

Can’t stop thinking of you, and it hurts so much.

Oh darkness my old friend...

You became my hopes and dreams, and then there was nothing.

I tried to be everything you asked, yet you pushed me away

I hear that familiar sound that i heard a million time, for a split second hope rises, but soon disappers, because it wont be you,

It hurts, but i can’t let go. That’s how much a promise means to me.

I go to sleep, hoping i won’t wake up

Why have you condemed me to a life of pain?

I’m always ready to die, but you’re killing me...

And it hurts endlessly

I looked at you, and with you i saw all the things i thought i would never have or be. To have a home To be a husband to be a father

Will i ever find a home again?

You are so beautiful it hurts I’d give my everything... To stroke that cheek to look directly into those eyes to hear your breath to kiss those lips...

I wake up feeling anything is possible, soon i realize i am all alone, and when i go to bed, i feel empty.

I want you in my life, yet i want life to end....