Nightwillow

Hii you can call me Nightwillow or Night!!

This is a Nitro+chiral blog! I’ve mainly just posted about Slow Damage previously but plan to post about Dramatical Murder more soon. I’m more of a fan of the Fraise/Doctor/Brother chapters of Slow Damage than the main routes! Nothing against them I do like the rest of the game too, my brain just didn’t latch onto the main cast as hard lol.

I am an artist/occasional rambler! You will mostly find fanart and whatever random thoughts about my blorbos I choose to post here/sometimes a higher effort character analysis.

My favorite characters are Asakura and Kirihara!! I mainly post about them! Lowkey it might be a special interest at this point… it’s been 2 years now of thinking about them pretty much every day! I love them dearly though and I try to give them enough attention to make up for a majority of the fandom not really caring about them. I DO love all of the fan content I find of them though!!

My other Nitro+Chiral favorites are Kimika from Clean Dishes and Noiz and Clear from Dramatical murder :>

I very much welcome any interactions or asks especially about my favorite characters! Please talk to me about them and I’ll love you forever!!

Some things about me!

He/him

Bi trans man

I have chronic migraines and I am autistic + have a few suspected mental illnesses but I have not been to a psychologist so who knows

I am 21 and my birthday is July 9!

I have a big interest in abnormal psychology which is the study of mental illnesses, and I would like to become a therapist one day!! I’m very passionate about trying to understand what it’s like for a person to live with all types of disorders and issues in general, especially those that are often demonized or misunderstood by society. (Maybe why I latch onto the characters I do so hard… Asakura had me researching POCD for hours-)

I don’t really do kins but I can relate to Noiz, Ikuina and Shiro! (Also Shion from The Hundred Line if anyone knows him…)

My other main fandoms are The Hundred Line, Rain Code, and Danganronpa! You can find my fanart for those games on my side blog @rain-willows

Also, I am currently running a Slow Damage server on Discord!! It can be found here in case anyone is interested in joining! https://discord.gg/MHPJqaWp2A

MY FRIENDS!!

Think I’ve gotten to the point that my slow damage fanart is completely unrecognizable to anyone outside of my very specific niche oops-

But this is furry!Kirihara (with an altered color palette) based on the song sucker punch by astrid! As well as generally inspired by the album/mv art for astrid’s songs as well as stomach book’s too a bit. Lyrics are from sucker punch though!

…does anyone possibly know of any good fix it fics for Noiz? I’ve grown very attached to him and his good end is kinda pissing me off sorry- it’s just like the opposite of what I’d like to see for a character arc from him? I mean I liked everything up UNTIL he moves back to his abusive parents and that’s framed as the “responsible” thing to do. It’s just the narrative of forgiving your abusers as the way to heal I don’t enjoy personally. Especially because it feels like Noiz couldn’t be what they wanted so they isolated and neglected him in response. And the good end is “now he CAN be what they want.” But he shouldn’t have to!! His parents don’t deserve to have that, Noiz should be able to learn to live in spite of them and make connections with others. Like I really like his relationship with Aoba! I mostly want to see Noiz learning to be in a relationship for the first time, maybe Aoba helping him to get along with others too. And Noiz learning how to be himself and still have his independance without fully shutting out others to do that. Anyway I also just feel very strongly about this because I related to Noiz’s character a lot since my parents also isolated me for most of my life, and I’m currently trying very hard to get out of that. Don’t wanna seem like I’m projecting too hard though? Like don’t get me wrong I don’t care if other people liked the ending, that’s awesome for you! I wish I could like it, I’m usually not a very negative person so I feel a little bad hating on things haha. But like I’m sure in the 15(?) years this game has existed other people have had similar feelings on it. So yeah give me fic recommendations if you have them! Or any thoughts you have about it too.

Also also I think flavor foleys new song streetcat reminds me of Noiz a lot :> I was just listening to it on loop thinking about him just now. The way that feeling pain is associated with freedom in the song is very Noiz imo! Like his physical numbness is a parallel to emotional numbness and a general disconnection from the world and other people. Which is why I do kinda like that he was cured in the end when he formed a connection with Aoba, despite random barely explained magic curing a disability for a good end not being a great trope generally. I think for Noiz though it fits pretty well with the metaphor of his condition in general so it doesn’t actually feel that out of place.

I’ve made furry designs for the euphoria trio~! This was a lot of fun! I hope y’all think they are cool too :>

Individual ref sheets under the cut!

So the tomodachi life demo was fun!!

Hmm pondering making a slow damage oc… somewhat self insert but mostly his own guy. A 30-something year old therapist and pretty much the only therapist in Shinkoumi because barely anyone can afford that. I’m thinking he’s sort of part of the Murase clinic group? A friend of Rei and Taku’s, agreeing to provide very affordable mental health services to the patients and helping out in general here and there in exchange for also being given a livable wage by Taku. Yknow how Taku’s patients would vent to him and he wished he could actually help. Yeah that’s the solution to that. Therapist guy more so genuinely wants to help people than make money as well.

Also he is a loving and supportive partner to Asakura! (Mostly started as an Asakura ship self insert oc-) This is just like, somewhere post Asakura chapter canon but if he stayed in Shinkoumi post psych ward. Don’t think Taku chapter happened in this au. Therapist guy is living together with Asakura currently so Asakura is more generally around the Murase clinic people and on better terms with Taku. He gets along pretty well with Rei too, but tends to avoid Towa out of guilt from what happened with the euphoria episode. Asakura’s trying his best to get better and is in contact with a therapist from the mainland doing online appointments. My oc here is on and off helping half the cast because there is no ethical boundaries of not giving therapy to friends and stuff when there is only one therapist ever in this awful city but. He will at least not be his partner’s therapist.

Anyway. I’ve thought of him somehow being in contact with the Takasato gumi through Towa and helping them with rehabilitating criminals (they probably wouldn’t do this shit but eh. I can think of a reason.) So I’m just thinking. Mainly he is seeing Kimika, who is trying very hard to improve and is making real progress. And Kirihara who Does Not want to do this and is being extremely unpleasant about it. Kirihara chapter has happened too I guess but it’s an au where they don’t kill him, he does some jail time then is on probation and forced into this experimental therapy/rehabilitation program thing. He’s absolutely not having it and is also tired of masking as his Mizuno persona so is more generally blunt about the shit that’s wrong with him. Absolutely not here to get better but will just say unhinged stuff at therapist oc just to try and get a rise out of him mostly. Therapist oc is tired and too jaded for that to actually work but is genuinely trying with him too, thinks eventually he’ll be able to make a breakthrough with him and help. Kirihara uses therapy as an excuse to rant about his brother freely without repercussions once he settles into it. But is still feeling spiteful about the whole thing and is quick to anger if you say anything too bad about his brother which is. Hard not to do. It’s hard to know how much acknowledging the abuse he went through he will agree with and how much will get him defensive. He’s really only doing this to have somewhat more freedom again to try and find his brother even though he is not allowed to have a gang anymore and his being monitored to make sure he doesn’t do anything too illegal (thank goodness getting yourself beat up isn’t illegal then right?) Tries to bug Towa some more but he is not interested so. He somehow ends up in a weird situationship with Kotarou, where Kotarou is half here on the takasato gumi’s orders to keep an eye on him and half seems to think he’s entertaining and is willing to be his occasional hookup/guy who beats him up for fun.

What do you guys think about. Trans guy Kirihara who models his sense of masculinity/what it means to be a man after his brother…

My previous trans Kirihara headcanon is somewhere is a purgatory state where it just exists as an au when I choose to entertain it and not fully my standard Kirihara but. Much to think about. That’s the main appeal to me though is he obviously already forms his identity around his brother. Wouldn’t it be even worse if there was gender shit involved too. If he feels he needs to be violent to have worth as a man like Rei. I like that part of Rei’s character anyway let them bond over it! Rei/Mizuno dynamic is fun anyway let’s torment Rei with this freak even more… enough similarities for Rei to see himself in him, and he tries so hard to help him, but when he sees what he’s really like it’s only the worst parts of himself reflected back.. and from someone who doesn’t want to be helped and who hurt him badly. Meanwhile Kirihara’s over here like “damn this guy is kind of annoying but he does fight good and that’s hot. Gonna see if I can make him hit me” All while trying to act Normal and Nice.

Man I swear I meant to write more about Kirihara being transgender I just got distracted thinking about Rei also. I really do just ship Kirihara with every sadist in this game. Hes so capable of being passed around I feel. Anyway. OH I wanted to say he also just gives me very Gender vibes and so despite his fuckass fashion sense I feel an immense amount of gender envy towards him. Mm being covered in bruises how masculine…

Also I’ve probably said this before like somewhere in my blog but. Let me remind y’all that the Kirihara trans headcanon came from my wild theory I had when playing his chapter that he was Towa’s long lost secretly alive and now transitioned sister. So his brother. Because the chapter is named brother and they were talking about Towa’s dead little sister… like. Before we knew anything about Mei and before I got to Rei’s chapter to understand why there was a content warning about gender dysphoria. Wouldn’t that have been an insane plot twist

Oh Megumu Kirihara the horrible man you are…

Based on Ghost and Pal’s new song!

https://youtu.be/KpTMCnYasDY?si=GGdRWvsYx_Pl8h5I

(Edit: just in case someone runs across this later, I wanna make it clear that I do not support Ghost! I drew this before things came out recently)