one step forward and two steps back

kill yourself

others have it so much worse

i should stop complaining

hell, i even got a laptop in the last month! sure, it's old and used, but i have my own laptop now, which is pretty cool

sure ive been getting some more freedom in the last few months, i dont have to go to bed at 7pm anymore, i can use my phone more than a few hours a day, i don't need to eat when i'm not physically capable of consuming anything, i dont need to ask permission before doing simple things like going to the backyard or making food, etc. so maybe i'm just being an asshole by wishing i wasnt so cut off from the internet

call me an angsty moody teen but i'd love to have some control over my own life for once

i'm a bad person

there are bubbles of pus or something in my skin around an open sore but i keep getting scared ill have more all over my body even tho i know it isn't going to happen but it's scary and gross and i don't like it

what did i do wrong all i did was say hi and have the same interests as you? why'd you block me? :(

can we not joke about serious things like the fucking epstein files. like if you joke about that you need to just kill yourself for the betterment of society

i just wrote a bunch of stuff in the notes app and it fucking deleted what the fuck

i think people who can't be perfect should kill themselves and just stop wasting everyone else's time

can everything just fucking work for five fucking seconds

why does it keep crashing

i cant go back to staying up all night and sleeping during the day tho because otherwise i cant hang out with my friend and rn thats the only thing keeping me from wanting to kms