We together shared few moments

But we were unprepared for consequences

Maybe I was more of cling to those, or

Maybe I was sole to share my emotions

Perhaps I don’t even realise what it’s like,

what do we call each other?

trying not to scare about my sudden moves

keeping away the intense,

I had this wild dream

where now I got to live

by the time it seems wrong

my thoughts took backflip

for now, alas I regret

I undeniably wanted to keep going,

slowly like you were trying to reach out,

constantly letting me slip,

making me believe that isn’t a bad idea,

But i can’t live in that moment,

my thoughts took over my will

like I am restricted crossing out the line

I tried forget and live but

maybe I will always stuck on trying

manifest to hatred and judgement,

humiliated, embarrassed,

called revealing to exhibit.

while unexpressed are one with repression,

Intolerance, silence,

Injustice and solitude within itself.

Whom do you prefer to listen

people rather than self ?

or pretend rather than to be visible?

swallow in your throat

to occupy the words,

one suffocate me to conceal

see beneath the force,

grief might stand, gloom and read it loud

Long gone days were

how you scribble your name

attached to mine,

convince me to talk about kept away

things on the last sheet of my pages,

to be no way to hide.

all along, hookups, breakup’s, one sided,

You knew everything of a bit

were my comforting place, a mood.

untrue to what it means to have you,

lifting me up through whole,

Immortal friend, was my misconception?

what went wrong in a distance,

that you were no avail, anywhere.

so far, never would I have ever thought.

I search for the days gone by,

urge if you happen to come across

in some another day,

Yet I expect you to realise

You will never be more than a text away

from me.

To held onto to things too tight

wherefore you constructed the scheme

reckoning me as an open door

I have for my body,

As unattractive as they may seem

Yet tell me i m beautiful and I am enough

Not that my worth depends on your

acceptance but because u pledged to indulge

your soul in mine.

we were different, nothing in particular, yet draws me to ask myself, did you see her shade in me? or was it because you were half conscious?

It doesn’t make sense now,

I just want to disappear out from your door but nothing ever left.

your world broke hard on your feet,

You often say “I shouldn’t have met you”

when you cant take back the idea that "we” were capable once,

when that person was the reason what filled your days gone, pleased to experienced every purest moment, the most exhilarating person you would talk for an hours and hours, your thoughts go in seconds after meeting, crave for whole being, wish for their presence surround you till rest, happened to be what utterly makes you whole, complete.

But then

Perhaps everyone tends to leave,

one can’t cast spells to past or get over what made you gloom but everything falls in places with the phase.

someone else tends to fit the part.

but I mind feeling tainted to it,

you approach as a saviour

was beyond the vision of fancy

unalike in actuality

I wish to bliss in your being

even at times you wouldn’t please

no more comforting lies,

am seeing things and thinking strange,

so am I wrong to feel

it was a unspoken motive to satisfy your ego,

just the way that only makes

you seem so desperate

it plays over and over again

with distance in its conveyance,

this scenery really doesn’t work,