Just Me

Without mutual respect, no relationship would ever work. "

Our example will speak louder than the islamphobia we hear today.

Move from why Allah to what Allah can I do?

We do good because that's what we're supposed to do. Not to change people's minds about Islam.

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They raised us in a way we could only live in Saudi.

All my cousins are off the marriage table. Relieved to know that for sure alhamdulillah.

I don’t allow myself to make mistakes. I’m hard on myself and I put so much pressure. You make mistakes. It’s ok to make mistakes. The biggest mistake is to give up.

Only he knows that you’re crying. Only he knows how to fix you. Only you know that faith can heal you.

Important realization: I make great first impressions. Then after a while I get bored and loose touch with those people. I thinks it's not because I'm bored of them but bored of myself. I feel so insecure and anxious because I don't know what else I can offer them to keep in touch and to keep things fun and interesting or whatever

As kids, we grow up thinking are parents are perfect. And who can blame us. It's normal and lovely as a matter of fact. Part of the growing up process is realizing that they're only human. They're figuring out life just as much as we are they just know a little bit more. Once you fully comprehend that you will truly accept them as they are. And be able to love them truly. At least that's the case for me. I was a kid, thought they were perfect. I was a teenager, thought they were so messed up. I was an adult, realized they were human and I loved them. That especially happened when they forced me to get married. I am happy things happened the way they did. عجيب امر المؤمن. كله خير.

I thought I would be able to do whatever I wanted after I left my family and my whole country. But I'm not. I still have eyes on me. I'm so uncomfortable.

I wish I was a doctor

I’m doing good. I hung out with Lena and I feel better. I need attention and when I lack it I feel hated. Even if this attention is little, fake or just to pass by time. I need attention from people every once in a while. Just a healthy amount. Not too much please.

People don’t want or don’t have the time to do things with me. It hurts and I don’t know how to deal with it. Or what to think of it.

I'm feeling at peace alhamdulillah. I read the book لأنك الله اسم الله الشكور. And it gave me such strength and love. I'm so grateful. I'm getting house chores done, working out and preparing for uni. Just focusing on being at peace with myself. And feeling content with what I have.