Why can't this be Love? - Chpt.12
Summary: Youβve never really fit in, despite trying, despite being on the cheerleading team, despite awkwardly socialising with the popular crowd. Itβs not for you - these people arenβt for you. Yet, you donβt know how to escape! Do you continue following a dead end? Or finally break away?
The answer is made for you after your βdate,β a boy on the basketball team, bails on you, and uninvites you from some stupid basketball after party. Whatever, thatβs fine. But whatβs not fine is the agonisingly long walk home. Oh, in the dark, late at night!
However, your saviour finds you, and not only does he save you from walking home alone, but the conflicting feelings that youβve spent the last few years with.
Pairing: Reader is female and uses she/her pronouns. Not much detail is given about her appearance, other than she wears heavy eyeliner, and is clearly an outcast that is trying to fit in.
Word count: 4k
Tags: Strangers to lovers, First kiss, Slow burn, Awkward flirting, Denial of feelings, Angst, Dancing, TBC.
[Chapter 1] [Read on AO3] [Chapter 13 - Not yet uploaded]
Big black boots, eyes like a cat. Fishnets, teased hair. A lacy dress that hangs just above your knees. Accessories galore.Β
Maybe you spent too much time reading through your magazines, taking mental pictures of what each hardcore woman was wearing - leather, teased hair, studs, spikesβ¦
Your outfit looks good, as bold as it may be. Fuck, who cares? Misty is on your side, you have a date tonight, and your parentsβ¦
βWell, it sure is something,β your dad shrugs as you come downstairs. Your mom, however, is sputtering as she rests her hands on her hips. She ponders, lips on a slant, questioning if she went wrong, if this is a phase, or just some upcoming trend that she doesnβt quite understand yet.
βI like it,β your dad compliments with a shrug, newspaper in hand. He, for once, folds the thing shut as he makes his way over to you, dumping it down on the coffee table. Firm hands find your shoulders, and a stern question is asked.
βDo you have a date for tonight?β
βAhβ¦β escapes your lips without you realising. Now, your mom is making herself present, standing beside your father still with a brow raised. βYou know, weβd like to meet him.βΒ
βWell, uhβ¦ heβs notβ¦ Iβmβ¦βΒ
βWeβre not saying now, just soon, maybe?β she questions. βAfter all, if this is really how you feel, phase or not, then Iβd like to know who has been occupying my daughters free time.βΒ
Your painted lips purse in hesitation, uncertain on how to reply. Eddie is far from family-orientated, given that his parents are out of the question, and his Uncle is barely around. Hell, youβve not even met the man, nor been back to Eddies place, despite him sneaking into your room. Maybe thatβll change soon?Β
βIβll see what I can do,β you respond. βHeβs not reallyβ¦ from a good upbringing, but heβs a good man,β you continue, attempting to paint a good light on Eddie.
Crossed arms cover your mothers cheap blouse. βCanβt be that good if he encouraged you to quit cheerleading.βΒ
A long sigh falls from your lips, and your father instantly defends you, his hands falling from your shoulders. The two begin a light bicker, going on about hobbies, school, and the things that you actually want to do.
A honk of a horn from outside draws your attention away, and youβre quick to say goodbye before ushering our the door. On a night like this, curfew isnβt really a thing. Originally, youβd have a night over at Mistys, or vice versa, nattering on about things like magazine articles, crap on the music channels, or whoever was currently taking your fancy.Β
Now, however, thereβs a man standing outside his shabby van, passenger door open, a small box in hand. Eddie is grinning ear to ear, almost giggling as he watches you dart across the lawn, eager to get away.
βWhatβs so funny?β you question.
βNothing!β he instantly replies. βJust not seen you run away from your house that fast before,β he smirks. βHere-β
Eddieβs eyes gesture down to the box in his hands, displaying a matching pair of corsages. The flowers are dark, but not black - flowers of red, blue, purple, and green dance around in the shape of a wristband, and a matching broach. Itβs clearly cheaply made, with hot glue visible under some of the petals, and glitter dotted around in random places.Β
βI couldnβt find anything that suited our image,β Eddie explains as he opens the box, picking the flimsy accessories out. βSo, I had to make my own,β he smirks, biting back a laugh. βPretty tack, right?β
Warmth floods your stomach as you look over them, admiring the dedication heβs put into the pieces. βEddie, I-β your words fall flat as you pick up your wristband, tacky as ever, but with so much love and dedication woven into each flower.Β
βCan I?β Eddie questions as he looks at you, gesturing to the corsage. You nod, and allow Eddie to wrap the corsage around your wrist. It thankfully goes with your dress, given that you showed Eddie the garment only a few nights ago.Β
βHere,β you say as you take his part, and pin it to his blazer. Only now do you realise what heβs wearing.Β
A black blazer, with a deep red handkerchief peeking out of his left pocket, now with the corsage pinned to it. The red of his handkerchief matches his shirt, the top buttons open, tucked into a pair of flared back jeans. Heβs not short of accessories, with a few earrings dangling down from his hair - tied up in some sort of messy updo. A bun, but not quite a bun, with his bangs still hanging wildly above his brows.
Eddie smirks. βKeep your mouth open like that, and something will fly in,β he says with a laugh, and only then do you realise your expression.Β
βEddie,β you say his name with a sigh. βYou look incredible,β you compliment. Eddie goes to twirl his hair as he blushes, but swiftly realises its up for the night.
βIβll just have to twirl yours instead,β he says as he plays with it. You let out a laugh, your hands coming to rest on his shoulders. His hands meet your waist, and with his eyes focused on yours, he praises you.
βIβm lost for words,β Eddie explains. βIβve been questioning this entire time how to compliment you, but my words fail me,β he says with a sigh.
βThat is already a compliment,β you respond with a smile.Β
β-No, but really, Princess. Beautiful, incredible, breathtaking - all of those words mean nothing when I lay my eyes upon you,β Eddie continues, his heartbeat thumping rapidly beneath your palm, still upon his shoulders, the sound beating throughout his entire body.
A deep sigh escapes your lips, accompanied by the sweetest of smiles. βThank you, Eddie,β you say. Your smile turns goofy just as Eddieβs does. Somehow, both of you seem excited about tonight - excited to go to this stupid school dance, far from the norm, goofing around and dancing together without a care in the world. If only you knew what was in store for you, back at the start of the school year.
A deadbeat boyfriend who ditched you for a shitty party. A cheer group who couldnβt give a fuck about you. A best friend who was questionable, but supportive at the end. New fashion uncovered. More music discovered. Even a few games of Dungeons and Dragons have been played.
βPrincess?β Eddie calls out, bringing you back to the present. βHave you been drinking already?β he asks, to which you swiftly shake your head.Β
βNot at all, sorry,β you respond.
Eddie shakes his head with a laugh. βNo problem, I have plenty to give,β he says with a wink. βMy lady,β he gestures with one hand, directing you into his passenger seat. You allow him to assist you up, sitting in a familiar space. Eddie shuts your door before scurrying around his van, and eagerly clambers in.
βThereβs booze beneath your seat,β he says with a laugh. βDonβt worry. I havenβt had any. Wouldnβt risk my Princessβs safety.β
Your eyes fall to the floor as Eddie starts the engine, his cassette continuing wherever it left off. With two hands, you fish out a cupholder. In it lies two slushies, ever-so-slightly melted. One blue, one red.Β
A smirk graces your lips as you pick the cupholder up, and rest it on your lap. βDid you already put vodka in these?β you question.Β
Eddie looks at you with a massive grin, a laugh falling from his lips. Heβs already started driving to the dance, but encourages you to take your pick. After choosing one, the straw meets your lips, and you grimace at the first sip of it. βYou barely mixed these!β you wince, to which Eddie swiftly says, βsorry!β
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A short while later, barely two songs on his cassette, and youβre already at the school. There are people being dropped off in limousines, stiletto heels meeting the uneven school ground, barely able to walk in them. Baby blue seems to be the in-colour this year, and you wince at the sight of it.Β
βThat bad, huh?β Eddie questions.
βYeah, I donβt mind the colour, but I donβt get why its popular.β
Thereβs a short pause, and Eddie raises a brow as he responds. βI meant the slushie, not what colour people are wearing.β
Your eyes meet his, and you both let out a laugh. βThe slushie is fine,β you respond. βI justβ¦ I donβt know. Theyβre all out there looking like Easter eggs in one big basket, and Iβmβ¦ well,β you gesture down to yourself.
Black, black, more black. Some dark colours, too. Fishnets. Accessories. Big hair. The lot.
βSo am I,β Eddie says with a shrug, now taking the spare vodka slushie from the cupholder. He takes a long gulp, barely flinching at its cold, yet melted taste. βWe could make out own basket, although I donβt think the Easter bunny will like our eggs.β
βDoesnβt the bunny lay the eggs, though?β you question. Both of you raise a brow, uncertain of the lore.Β
Eddie shrugs, his lips around his straw. βWho gives a shit?βΒ
You let out a laugh, followed by repeating his words. After a long, deep gulp of your drink, you decide to finally get a move on. Eddie interrupts you, shuffling out of his van to run around it, and open your door for you. βMy lady,β he says once more as he offers you his hand, his slushie in the other. You take it, and allow him to escort you down the single, scary step.Β
βWe need to finish these before we go inside,β you comment, and both of you rush to down your drinks, no longer affected by brain freeze as the cold has long since gone. Eddie makes haste to lock his van, and swiftly offers you his arm, encouraging you to latch your nerves onto his frame. βWeβll be fine,β he reassures you. βAnd if weβre not, then Iβm sure you can lay a few punches instead.β
βShit-β you curse under your breath as you take Eddies arm, both of you walking into the hall. βI forgot about that.βΒ
βI didnβt,β Eddie smirks. βNobody is going to mess with you tonight, huh?β
βVery funny,β you sigh, despite knowing that Eddie only means well. The hall finally comes into both of your line of sights, and itβs just as corny as you imagined it. Tinsel hangs from the walls, silver and blue, along with the random decorations dotted about. The disco ball is rolling, which is probably the only cool thing in here, given that theyβre playing some corny music that you donβt recognise. The floor is already full of people, awkwardly dancing, cups of punch in hand, wishing they were elsewhere.
Your pursed lips smack in annoyance, eyes squinting from the spotlights dancing around the room. βThis is hell,β you whisper to Eddie, who seems to be on the opposite end of your emotional scale.
βReally?β he questions. βFree food,β Eddie gestures to the long table, covered in a shabby cloth, spotted with a random assortment of finger food. At the end of the table lies a large punch fountain, and you have to stop Eddie before the idea comes to his mind.
βWe are not wasting booze on that,β you sigh. Eddie sighs too, βbut itβd be so fun!βΒ
You pause for a brief moment. βWait?β you question, and look up at him. βYou snuck some in?β
Eddie grins from ear to ear. βCourse I did,β he chuckles. βEnough for us, but Iβm certain some of the Jocks have already spiked that punch bowl.βΒ
βHow do you know?β you ask.
Eddie shrugs. βJust a hunch.βΒ
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Barely half an hour into the dance, and you two havenβt done much. Eddie has had his fair share of the free food, unphased by anyone who expresses their disgust at how much he can wolf down. A single cup of punch is already running through you, with a few splashes of Eddieβs boozy flask in it. You think itβs rum, but youβre not too sure. As much as youβd like to ask, heβs currently scoffing another pasty, followed by briefly wiping his hands off on his jeans before grabbing you.
βTheyβre here,β Eddie mumbles with food between his cheeks. You gaze around the hall, and to your surprise, the rest of his DnD squad are here! Of course, you follow Eddie to say hello, barely holding onto his hand as he runs over.
Dustin is the first to greet him, the two gripping onto each other in a deep hug. Greetings are exchanged, including one with a timid young girl who you recognise as βEl.β Eleanor, maybe? Strange, but thatβs not the strangest thing that youβve seen here in Hawkins.Β
βIβm surprised to see you here,β Lucas says, directing his words to Eddie. The man shrugs, then gestures to you.Β
βGot to spoil the Princess before we leave this Hellhole,β Eddie explains. You nod along. You really canβt wait to get out of this shithole, despite willingly being here for some silly celebration.Β
Brief chatter fills the air, their Hellfire conversation barely audible to you as Kate Bush fills the air. You give Eddie a nudge and inform him you need to use the restroom, and that youβll meet him back here.
Quickly, you make your way to the restrooms, ignoring the glances and comments that curse your path. Once in the stall, you begin to question what youβre doing here. As wonderful as it is being with Eddie, you canβt help but feel watched. The Jocks, the Preps - Everyone, even your mutually weird friends in the Theatre department seem to have their gaze on you.
Why?
Is Eddie Munson really that much of a deal? To you, heβs been nothing but wonderful. A kind, patient man, who has encouraged you out of your shell. Sure, your parents and friends seem uncertain of him, but youβre certain that, once they meet him, and his explosive personality, that theyβll be on board. He makes you happy, after all, and thatβs the most important thing.
Still, why are their eyes on you? Why is it anybody's business? You had your glance, now look away. Weirdos exist. Rockers exist. Freaks exist, and we will continue to exist!Β
You repeat those words in your head whilst finishing up, and make your way out of the stall. After drying off your hands, you head out of the restrooms, only to lock eyes with none other than Britney.Β
For once, she doesnβt say anything. If anything, she averts her gaze, but you stand tall. You pause in front of her, and gloss over what sheβs wearing - a daffodil yellow dress with white heels, completely clashing with her tone. Air blows from your nostril as you smile, and move on, biting on your tongue to hold back a laugh. Was that all it took? Standing up to her a few weeks ago? She hasnβt spoken to you since the incident, let alone looked your way. Good.
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Returning to the hall, you instinctively look over at the buffet table, only to find your loose canon of a date isnβt over there, for once. Heβs not at the punch bowl, either, and your fists bunch up anxiously as your eyes gloss around, questioning where he is.Β
A light hand meets your lower back, soft enough to prevent you from flinching. βSorry,β Eddie exhales as his gaze meets yours. βI was talking to the guys about boring nerd stuff.βΒ
βPhew,β you exhale. Your eyes meet the floor, chest tensing up, clammy hands meeting Eddies. He questions if youβre alright, and you canβt hold back your expression. Shaking your head, you respond. βNot really. I just donβt feel like we fit in here, you know?βΒ
Eddie smiles whilst nodding in agreement, βof course, we donβt!β he exclaims, seeming rather proud at that.
You wish you had his confidence. Self-doubt doesnβt seem to affect him, at least, not when heβs in public. His hands gently cup your cheeks, and he smiles tenderly as he looks at you. βWe donβt fit in here. So what? Weβre out of here soon! Might as well make the most of it, and Iβm not just talking about the free food,β he says with a wink.
You canβt help but laugh, your hands coming to rest atop of Eddies. The groove of Madonna clears from the speakers, surprisingly to be filled by Van Halen. You quirk a brow, seeing as this is the only track so far that has really been your cup of tea.
βWicked,β Eddie nods as the song begins playing. βWanna dance? We can leave if you really hate it,β he says, taking your hand in his, and giving it a light tug. Heβs surprisingly eager to dance, for whatever reason. Van Halen or not, youβre nervous. The dance floor is filled with awkward couples, unsure if this is their groove, or not.
For you and Eddie, however, it really is your groove.
You subconsciously give Eddiesβ hand a squeeze, and despite the heavy pit in your stomach screaming at you, you decide to take the leap, and allow Eddie to lead you over to the dance floor.
Within an instant, a space has emptied around both of you, not wanting to linger around two freaks dancing to their type of music. Eddie guides your hands, resting them on his shoulders, whilst his hands politely find your hips.Β
βDo you like this track?β he questions, and only then do you stop to really listen to it.Β
βOh-β you sigh. βWhy canβt this be love? Yeah, I like this one!βΒ
βGood,β Eddie says with a wild grin. He waves in time with the music, peacefully ignoring any strange glances that face his way. He ensures that your eyes remain on his - at this moment, its just you and him, two freaks enjoying a song together.Β
The chorus comes into play, and Eddie is barely biting back a smile, causing you to question the mischievous glisten in his eye. βWhat is it?β you finally ask.
Eddie finally cracks, letting out a chuckle as he holds you closer, your arms shifting from his shoulders, to his neck, beneath his thick layer of curls. Theyβre soft, dancing over your fingertips, and you have to bite back the urge to grasp up into them.
βI may have tempted the DJ with a swig of my flask to put this song on.βΒ
You pause, and allow his words to re-run through your mind. βFlask?β you question, to which Eddie reaches inside the inner pocket of his blazer, and hints at the silver flask hidden within it. A shocked gasp slips from you, followed by another one as you ask another question.
βWhy did you choose this song?β
Eddieβs back straightens, but his hands remain on your waist. His eyes wander around the hall, searching for that confident spark that he needs, but itβs been within him this entire time. He looks at you lovingly, whilst his hand comes up to gently hold onto yours. A gentle kiss is placed on your knuckles, mere inches from the corsage that Eddie shabbily put together, coated in hot glue and cheap glitter, but made with far more love than any other corsage in this room.Β
βI understand if you donβt want to talk to me after this,β Eddie begins, his eyes looking down at your knuckles. He rubs his thumb over them, silver rings lightly bumping against yours. βWeβve spentβ¦ what? A good few months together. Weβve been through all sorts of crap, total fuckery, the good and bad times.β
Eddie pauses again, still softly swaying side to side with you. The second choruses fills their air, and Eddie forces himself to look at you as he says his next words. βPrincess, Iβd be honoured if youβd, at least for tonight, make me your King, and enjoy the night with me.βΒ
That sickly pit within your stomach spins and twists like a wild storm, barely able to keep your vodka slushie down. Yes, youβve always felt like this, but you assumed Eddie didnβt feel the same. Heβs a gentleman, a wild thing who sparks something deep within you. But this? Those feelings? This song?Β
Why canβt this be love?
You find yourself pressing your lips to his without thinking. Itβs alarming, at first, catching both of you off guard.
Eddie removes his hand from yours to cup the back of your head, and you return your hand to his shoulders, soon grasping the back of his neck, not needing to stand on tip-toes to kiss him thanks to your chunky boots.Β
Thereβs something about the way that he kisses - soft lips, light curls brushing against your forehead, a firm hand at the back of your waist. Gentle, needy, loving, tender.
Eddieβs lashes flutter as his gaze meet yours, both of your lips rosy from the kiss. He smiles, grins, ears to ear, enamoured at the sight of you. The song comes to an end, but Eddie isnβt done yet. βAre you fed up of being here?β he questions.
βWhat do you mean?β you ask, worried about the worst.
βI mean, do you want to get out of here, and go elsewhere?β
You let out a laugh. βAbsolutely,β you agree with a nod. βAs long as itβs with you.βΒ
Eddie takes your hand in his, the dancefloor starting to re-fill with regular people who want to listen to pop, probably still wincing from the sight of you two kissing. βYouβre so corny,β Eddie says with a smirk, and tugs you towards the exit.
βThatβs rich coming from you. I didnβt pay the DJ to play a song,β you respond, following him as he guides you to the exit.Β
βGood point,β Eddie says with a grin. You notice as he nods goodbye to his friends, their smirks pinning from ear to ear. If you ever return to their DnD group, youβll never hear the end of it, which no doubt, youβll return anyway.Β



















