maybe i should just get addicted to something that makes ppl hate u right lol

god im tired of pretending like i care about anything at all

everyone is so delusional and i dont have any purpose happy sunday heres to another week of absolutely nothing 

ok i ate some hummus im good now lol

I’m just so tired and I hope I figure something out soon because I just don’t think I can keep this up for long

I’m just fucking sick of it sick of myself and sick of everyone around me everyone’s a selfish moron and I pull 90% of the weight in every goddamn relationship except I don’t it just feels that way prolly cus I’m so goddamn needy and no love is ever enough for me the only reason I can survive this fucking 9 to 5 is because of a couple pills and the fear of death I fucking hate it I have panic attacks constantly I don’t enjoy jack shit I never have motivation to do any goddamn thing in my life I fucking hate everybody for making me stay here and getting upset over how shit I feel if I dare show it not that I have for years now I’m sooooo happy and we’ll adjusted ::::))))))) fuck you all especially my pos self. I’m not going to hurt myself or anything I just need one just one goddamn way to vent honestly sorry if u see this I can’t add a read more

god i forgot my meds last night and now my whole day is going to suck. i feel like shit